Dark affairs

The first couple of days were shit.

I had to work Thursday and Friday and the guys called me when they woke up in the early afternoon. Jack demanded to sext with me but I told him I would not have cyber sex with him while at work. He pouted after that so I talked to Alex instead because he was so hyped to be on tour he didn't even think about wanting sex.

I jokingly asked him if he got off on the thousands of girls screaming his name every night when he was on stage and lets say, he didn't deny it.

When I finished work it was time for them to go on stage, so we couldn't talk or Skype then.
And by the time the concert was over and their party had died down. I was already in bed sleeping because I had to get up early.

Then came Saturday but unlike me the guys had to work on weekends so now that I had an abundance of time, they were pretty busy with interviews, radio appearances, signings, fan meetings and concerts and after parties of course.

So while I was trapped inside my apartment because to top it all off the weather was just miserable, they were out and about having the time of their lives.

So to say I was in a bad mood would be an understatement. I spent most of the weekend in front of the TV with Max cuddled on my lap and a tub of ice cream and cookies by my side. I might or might not have shared with my puppy although I know it's unhealthy for the both of us.

By Monday morning I reached my All Time Low when I realised it was still raining and I had gained three pounds in two days.

I went to work not even bothering to dress smart and putting on makeup and just slumped to my desk without acknowledging any of my co-workers.

I was incredibly grumpy during our daily phone call with the guys and they were getting concerned. "Mickey, what's wrong? Did something happen? What's going on?" Jack asked sounding genuinely worried.

"What do you mean something happened, nothing ever happens in my life anyway. Every day is the same old treadmill. I hate my life." I dramatically replied with an exaggerated sigh letting my head fall onto the table.

"Mickey..." Jack starts but then I hear rustling on the phone and Alex is on, while I hear Jack complaining in the background.

"Mickey" Alex sounds stern and not amused at all. "Fuck, get your shit together, we've been away for only four days! I'm sorry but you have to get used to it if you're dating a guy in a band. This is what life with us looks like. This is our job and the thing we love most, this will not change. So stop being so fucking over-dramatic." He makes a pause to take a breath I assume and I stay silent, still shocked by his lecture.

"Mickey, you still there?" He asks after another moment of silence.

"Uhm,yeah, uh, I'm sorry. " I stutter feeling even worse than before. He had been scolding me like a little girl and I did not like that at all. Even more so because he was probably right and I shouldn't make such a big deal out of it.

"Babe, I'm sorry that probably came off too harsh" he goes on and his voice has softened a lot, "but you know, Jack misses you like crazy and you're not making it any easier for him."

"Oh! Okay, yeah, as I said, I'm sorry, I'm not gonna call you guys and distract you from your work anymore." I reply and my voice quivers, my eyes fill with unshed tears and I furiously try to blink them away, I feel so hurt that I am about to hang up but I hear Alex calling through the phone.

"Mickey, Fuck, Mickey, stop, don't hang up on me. Listen, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be an ass to you and for the record, I don't know if you care but I miss you like crazy, too. But do you think we like to hear how miserable you are when we can't change a thing about it, we would rather see you happy than so sad. That's all I wanted to say, I'm gonna stop now, because I'm an idiot and make things only worse. I'm sorry, Mickey, don't hate me, and don't stop calling." He rambles.

I just listen silently, by now I have crouched into a little ball by pulling my knees to my chest and the tears run freely down my cheeks.

I hear muffled voices on the other side of the line and then there's Jack back on.

"Baby, listen, Alex is a complete and utter moron. I love you and miss you every single minute of the day and I want you to spend your time apart with things that make you happy because if I could I would spend them with you. Please don't be sad, you will see, it will get better after a few days and when those six weeks are over you'll probably don't even want me back, cause you had such a good time without me." He tries to lighten my mood and it works because I snort at his ridiculous prediction.

"Yeah, definitely," my voice still cracks but I smile a little.

"Has Alex made you cry?" Jack asks worriedly ."I'm gonna kick his ass, he is such a dick sometimes." He rants.

"No! Don't fight, you two." I interject." It's all good, and he is probably right, I acted like a toddler but I'm an adult and it's not the end of the world to be apart for a few weeks." I try to sound happy and positive and wipe my running nose on my sleeve. "Hey, listen, I have to get back to work, so have an awesome day and we speak tomorrow, okay? I love you Jay."

"Uh, okay, love you, too baby." Jack replies sounding a bit disappointed but I couldn't care less, I have to get my emotions under control before I can talk again.

Luckily it's time for lunch break and I take Max and we go to the park.

The sky is still 50 shades of grey but at least the rain had stopped and it had dried up. I buy myself a take away salad in one of the cafes surrounding the park and I sit on one of the benches and watch Max running around and exploring the surroundings.

I have calmed down by now and I must admit that although it was said in a shitty way, Alex was probably right, why not use the time well instead of sitting around sulking, it might help to pass the six weeks quicker.

I was just sitting there thinking what I wanted to do these next days when my phone buzzed in my pocket.

I pulled it out to see a new text message.

Alex: I'm sorry Mickey, don't hate me. I love you. xoxo

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