*Just going to put a trigger warning just in case*


Alex's POV

Today was the day I was having to go into inpatients.
"Babe we're going to be late if you don't hurry up." Jack said as I stayed stood in the garden making the most of being home before I went into inpatients.
"Babe." Jack said as he walked out to the garden but he stopped as I turned to look at him.
"I don't want to go, I want to stay here. " I said quietly and Jack walked over and pulled me into a hug which I returned.
"The sooner you go, the sooner you can get better and you can come home again." Jack said and I looked at him with a smile, but it soon went when loads of insecurities kicked in and me being paranoid that Jack was going to cheat on me.
"You going to cheat on me while I'm in there?" I asked and Jack looked at me and frowned.
"No! No baby I would never cheat on you. I have asked you to be my husband for a reason, I don't want any other man in my life or bed other than you." Jack said and he kissed me which I returned.
"I'll book us a nice holiday for when you come back if you want." Jack said and I smiled.
"We'll see." I said quietly and Jack smiled.
"Let's get going." Jack said and he caught hold of my hand and we went to this inpatients I was in.

"This seriously the place?" I asked and looked at Jack when we got to this normal looking house.
"Yeah this is the place, it also has like 6 people in at a time so it shouldn't be that stressful for you." Jack said and I looked down.
"Hey, I'm Georgie but everyone calls me George. Can I take your stuff?" This girl said.
"I've got it thanks." I said but this girl was not backing down on taking my stuff.
"Please, it's so I can get points." The girl said and pretty much took my stuff from Jack and the girl walked off with me and Jack following.
"I'm just going to get Max." The girl said and went off.
"You've put me in a house with nutters?" I asked and Jack chuckled .
"No I didn't put you in here for the nutters, the person who runs this place is one of the best in treating anorexia." Jack said and I looked at him.
"Hey guys you must be our newbie?" This woman said and I nodded.
"I'm Jack this is my fiancée Alex." Jack said and I felt the woman look at me.
"Okay, I'll show you to your room and then give you some time to settle in before someone comes to show you round and gives you a insight on what happens here." This woman said.
"Follow me." The woman said and I looked at Jack who gently pushed me to follow the woman and we went upstairs.

"This is your room, you'll have the room to yourself as you'll be the only guy at the moment." The woman said and I looked at Jack.
"So you'll have to watch the girls round you but their all a lot younger than you so you should be fine." The woman said and I sighed.
"I'm very gay and love my fiancée so they can back the fuck off." I said and Jack chuckled.
The woman smiled and looked through my suitcase.
"You have any pills, laxatives? I see your a cutter, you have anything to hurt yourself with?" The woman asked and I shook my head.
"Don't take pills or laxatives. Yes I'm a cutter but I'm trying to recover for that." I said.
Jacks phone went off and he look at it and sighed since he was meant to be at work today but decided not to go but he knew if his phone went off he had to go.
"I need to go babe." Jack said and I looked down and nodded.
"Be good okay, I'll talk to you soon." Jack said and made me look at him.
I gave Jack a hug which he returned.
"I love you." Jack said quietly.
"I love you too." I whispered and pulled back and gave Jack one last kiss before he left.
"I'll let you settle in before I get someone to show you round." The woman said and I nodded and the woman left me alone and I just sighed and sat on the bed and looked round my new room for the next god knows how long.
"Hey newbie, I'm Frankie and I'll be showing you round this place." This girl said as she knocked on my door and I looked up.
"Leave me alone." I said and Frankie sighed.
"Cant do that I'm afraid. Max wants you to know this place and everyone and the rules which we have." Frankie said and I looked at her.
"If it's like the last inpatients I was at then I know the rules." I said getting up and walking past Frankie and went outside and had a cigarette.

This Frankie girl wasn't going to leave me alone so I allowed her to show me round the place.
"So this is where we bitch about stuff." Frankie said as we walked in the sitting room.
"But it's just a sitting room." I said as I looked round.
"Yeah, but it's where we have group therapy which is twice a day." Frankie said and I rolled my eyes.
"Seriously? I don't need that shit twice a day." I said.
"It's all part of recovery. Max said the more we talk about how we felt then we know we're not alone when facing our demons." Frankie said.
"I like to keep my demons a secret." I muttered and looked at Frankie who took this as a cue to move to another room.
"We call this room the hell room." Frankie said as we got to the dinning room.
"Oh yay." I said sarcastically.
"If you eat you get points." Frankie said and I looked at her.
"So they bribe us too eat, Christ what Hippocrates." I said.
"You don't have to eat but you have to sit with everyone at meal times. If you have any food you want to eat then just tell Max and she'll get what you want." Frankie said.
"So they put us through hell of not wanting to eat by putting us in a room where people eat. Makes no sense." I said and Frankie chuckled.
"It's all part of..." Frankie said and I looked at her.
"If you say recovery once more I swear to god I'll kill you." I said and Frankie smiled.
"Well I'll leave you to it. If you have any questions don't be afraid to ask." Frankie said and she walked off.
"I'm going to kill you Jack." I muttered to myself and I went to my room.

"So how many inpatients?" A girl who was much older than the other asked as I sat in the sitting room bored out of my mind.
"This will be my second, but only because I didn't have the help and support I needed." I said.
"What about you?" I asked and looked at her.
"This one is my 5th, and so far this is the nicest one I've been to." The girl said.
"I'm Willow, but everyone calls me Will." Willow said and I smiled.
"Alexander, but I hate being called that so people call me Alex." I said and Willow chuckled.
"It's nice to meet you Alex." Willow said and I smiled.
"So why you really here?" Willow asked and I looked at her.
"Excuse me?" I asked.
"Why you here, yeah it's obvious your really ill as no offense but your like the skinniest one here, but there has to be a reason." Willow said.
"My eating disorder got out of hand and my fiancé couldn't cope with me not eating so we both agreed that I get help and that's what I'm doing." I said and stood up and walked back to my room since that seems to be the only place where I didn't have people asking questions.

I was lost in thought when someone knocked on my door.
"Jesus Christ can't you all just leave me the fuck alone." I said and looked at the person and it wasn't anyone who I've seen in the house before.
"Take it the girls have been talking to you then?" They chuckled as they walked into my room.
"May I have a seat?" They asked and pointed to my bed.
"If you must." I said and they took a seat in my bed.
"I know coming here wasn't your idea, but it's the right choice for you and your partner." They said and I looked at them.
"Who are you to know if this was my choice and if it's the right one for me and my partner." I said.
"Okay, I don't know who's choice this was but I'm hoping that you will take your time here to learn that you have nothing to fear of food." They said.
"I don't fear food." I said bluntly and went back to reading this book Jack had gave me.
"Well I beg to differ." This person said and I looked at them.
"What you think is your business. You hear for a reason or can I read my book in peace." I said.
"I just wanted to meet you and welcome you here and I hope that you can settle here and make progress in your recovery." The person said and they stood up.
"You need to learn how to be less angry at the world." They said.
"If you have been in my shoes then you would understand why I'm so angry at the world but you aren't in my shoes so don't bother trying to act like you know what I've been through." I said seriously and lead down and rolled on my side so my back was to the door and the person sighed and walked out my room.
I felt really lost without having Jack to cuddle up to.

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