Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

I was busy cleaning with the radio turned up loud while Jack was in his office doing some work when the buzzer went off to say someone wanted to come into our house.
"You expecting anyone babe?" I said loudly over the music which has suddenly gotten really quiet.
"No I'm not expecting anyone, was going to ask you the same but giving that expression on your face I'm guessing you have no clue either." Jack said and I frowned and turned round and looked at him.
"I'll answer the door." Jack said and I nodded and Jack walked towards the door and looked on the camera to see who it was.
"It's the police." Jack said and looked at me.
"I haven't done nothing." I said and Jack chuckled.
"I know you haven't, want me to allow them in?" Jack asked and I nodded.
"Yes." I said and made myself and Jack a coffee.
"Hello Mr Barakat, we was wondering if your partner was in?" A voice said and it sounded like the detective I got along with.
"Yeah he's in, come on in." Jack said and he walked to the island where the detective and a police officer stayed as they've probably been briefed or heard about what happens if I don't have the space I need, it doesn't end well let's just say.
"Mr Gaskarth." The detective said.
I just smiled and looked down.
"Is it okay if we talk about with the attack with Mr Black." The detective said and I looked at Jack for help. Jack nodded as I looked down.
"Would you two want a tea or a coffee?" Jack asked but I didn't hear their answers.
"Babe." Jack said and put his hand on top of mine which made me look at him.
"I can't do this Jack." I whispered.
"You can. You can do this babe." Jack said.
"What if they mention what he did to me when I was streets?" I asked quietly.
"Then you tell them Lex. We need that son of a bitch locked away for a long time." Jack said and kissed me which I returned.
"Can you stay with me?" I asked and Jack smiled and nodded.
"Thank you." I whispered and hugged Jack which he returned and he kissed the top of my head.
"Let's do this." Jack said and I caught hold of his hand and we walked to the sitting room.

"Mr Gaskarth." The detective said and I looked at him while holding onto Jacks hand.
"Alex, please call me Alex." I said quietly and the detective smiled.
"Alex, I need you to tell us what happened between you and Mr Black." The detective said and I looked down and Jack squeezed my hand.
"He raped me and then he beat me up. What more is there to say." I said quietly.
"It's clear that you are really unwell. Was this because of what Mr Black did to you." The detective said.
"Yes." I whispered.
"Are you getting help?" The detective asked.
"I've got myself into a inpatients but I need to go to the doctors first so I am getting help and I have the support from my fiancé." I said and the detective nodded.
"What was you doing on the day Mr Black raped you?" The detective asked and I felt my eyes well with tears and this heavy feeling in my chest.
"Do you have to ask him that?" Jack asked squeezing my hand.
"I'm afraid so, I know this is difficult for you to talk about Alex, but for Mr Black to get any decent sentence on him you need tell us what happened." The detective said softly.
"Jason told me the day before I was raped that I was fat and I needed to lose weight, I told Jack what Jason had said to me and that was when Jack pulled Jason to the side and had a go at him for what he said." I said and looked at Jack who nodded as in a way for me to carry on.
"The day after Jack had a word with Jason, Jason was the lead photographer of the shoot we was doing and we was on break and I was stood outside on the roof garden we have at work just wanting some space and some air when Jason showed up and shut the door behind him." I said and wiped my nose is Jack's hoodie sleeve.
"Please don't make me tell you want happened." I sniffed and looked at the detective and the police officer but they still had this look of wanting me to carry on.
"Do you need a break?" The detective asked and I nodded and stood up and walked out the room and walked to mine and Jacks room and started to cry.

"Babe?" Jack said softly as he walked in the room.
I sniffed and looked up at Jack from the bed and Jack walked over and pulled me into his side and he kissed the top of my head
"Please don't make me tell them, I don't want to relive it all over again." I sobbed.
"Lex, you need to tell them so then the bastard can pay from what he did to you. Not just for what he did to you at work but all the other times he raped you." Jack said quietly.
"I don't want to tell them. He has people on the outside and he'll tell them and they will come after us." I said and Jack frowned.
"You need to tell them. Think of it as part of your recovery. You tell them what Jason did to you and he can pay for the crimes he has done to you and the other people he might of done this too. You can let go of that small part of your past and learn how to love yourself." Jack said and I sighed and looked at him.
"He wasn't the only one though Jack." I whispered and Jack pulled me to his side and kissed the top of my head which made me sniff.
"Even if he wasn't the only one, it's a start for you to move on with your life." Jack said and I looked down and nodded.
"Shell we go back?" Jack asked and I nodded and Jack got up and helped me up and we went back out to the sitting where Hand had made himself comfy between the detective and the police officer on the sofa which made me smile.
"He's a lovely dog, what's his name?" The police officer asked as he made a fuss of Hank.
"His name is Hank." I said and the police officer smiled.
"Can see you are a very spoilt dog." The police officer said and Jack chuckled.
"He definitely is spoilt." Jack said and the police officer smile and looked at Jack a little bit longer than what he should of done and Jack noticed.
"Don't kick off now." Jack said quietly.
"Shell we carry on from where we started?" The detective asked and moved away from Hank a little.
"Yes, Hank get down and come here." I said and Hank got down and jumped on the chair and sat on my lap and licked my face which made me pull a face and I wrapped my arms round Hank.

"What did Mr Black do to you on that rooftop?" The detective asked and I looked down.
"He started to yell at me and threaten me about if I told anyone then he was going to tell Jack and make Jack leave me." I said and I felt Jacks hand on my knee.
That's when he turned me round and pinned me to the wall and raped me." I whispered and sniffed and messed with Hanks ears.
"Did you tell him to stop?" The detective asked and I nodded.
"Yes I stop him to stop. He only stopped when he finished raping me." I said and hid my face into Hank.
"What happened after that?" The detective asked and I shook my head and Jack spoke for me.
"Alex's friend, Quinn, found him outside lent against the wall. Quinn ran inside and got me and when we both got outside Alex was sat on the edge of the building getting ready to jump, and I managed to get Alex off the edge. Since then Alex has relapsed back into self harm, anorexia." Jack said and I got up and went to he kitchen and got myself a drink.
"Alex is getting help and he is attending a inpatients in a couple of weeks to help with his eating disorder." Jack said and I felt him look at me.
"Is there anything else you wanted to tell us." The detective asked and felt everyone look at me and I took a deep breath.

"The rooftop wasn't the first time Jason had raped me." I said and turned round and Jack smiled a proud and supportive smile at me.
I walked back over and sat next to Jack.
"How old was you?" The detective asked.
"I was between the ages of 15 and 19." I said and looked down.
"He wasn't the only one." I said and looked up at everyone.
"How many people was there Alex?" The detective asked.
I shrugged my shoulders.
"Dunno, I used to sleep around a lot because I was living on the streets but most of the time I used to get raped and beaten." I said quietly.
"I don't want to talk about it anymore, Jack will show you out." I said and got up and went outside.

"Babe?" Jack said and I looked at him and flicked my cigarette away.
Jack came over and sat next to me on this huge garden sofa Jack wanted.
"I'm proud of you." Jack said and pulled me to his side and kissed the top of my head.
"Feel like a bit of weight have been lifted of my shoulders." I said quietly.
"That's good." Jack said and kissed the side of my head and I looked at him and pulled his head towards mine and kissed him.
Jack stood up and helped me up and we went inside to the sitting room where I stopped and looked at him with a smile.
"Candle light dinner?" I asked as Jack has worked out that if I don't eat in a week then he can normally get me to eat but he knows I purge it up again at some point after eating.
"Well I was thinking that it's been a week since you last ate so your due a feed and I thought I would treat you with a romantic pizza date, with candle light and then we can have a bath, then whatever you want to do." Jack said and I wrapped my arms round Jack neck and kissed him hard.
"That's a good plan." I said quietly and kissed Jack again and I caught hold of his hand and we sat on the sofa and watched some film.

Notes

Don't like this chapter at all..