Alex's POV

"So how are you and Jack going?" Quinn asked since I met up with her to have a coffee and to give Jack some space since I've been glued to his side since Jason raped me.
"We're good, what about you and Beth? Found any nice homes yet?" I said amd messed with the food on my plate and I felt Quinn look at me.
"We're good as well Lex, no homes yet. Hey, you okay? You have lost loads of weight and I can visibly see you've lost loads of weight." Quinn said.
"I'm fine Quinn." I said and looked at Quinn.
"Bullshit. That is utter bullshit Alex and you know that." Quinn said seriously.
"Fine you really want to know? I'm having to go into inpatients because my eating disorders is so bad that Jack is worried that I'm going to be dead in a few months time." I snapped.
"Jesus Alex, just looking at you I know it was bad but I didn't think you was this bad. Why didn't you come and talk to me." Quinn said softly.
"You and Beth are busy with the last part of planning your wedding and you are looking for a new house, I couldn't talk to you because you was busy with your life. I don't want to keep on bothering you about my problems because I shouldn't be worrying you." I said.
"Alex your my best friend. I think of you as my little brother." Quinn said and I looked down.
"I know, your like a sister to me." I said quietly.
"So what's going on then Lex?" Quinn asked.
"I have a doctors appointment in 2 weeks to see if I am actually ill enough to go to this inpatients what me and Jack agreed on going to. But then be honest you've only got to look at me and see that I'm actually ill." I said.
"But your diagnosed with anorexia, surely that should be enough." Quinn said and ate some of her food which made me want to be sick.
"They need to see if my current weight is actually that bad for me to be admitted." I said.
"Seriously? Your a fucking bag of bones and they need to see if your weight is low enough to get help? The system is fucked up." Quinn said and I hummed in agreement.
"Your telling me. It's alright I have Jack had on the case and he's good at getting his own way in life." I said and Quinn chuckled.
"Is that you two having sex or life in general?" Quinn asked and I smirked.
"Both, he seems to be amazed about how many calories sex burns." I said and Quinn chuckled.
"Christ only you would know that and actually be with someone who's just as interested but doesn't have an eating disorder." Quinn said.
"I have calorie aspergers, can't help the fact that everything we have sex all I can think about is the calories I'm burning." I said and Quinn chuckled.
"Calorie aspergers? Never heard of it." Quinn said.
"Its what Jack calls my obsession with counting calories." I said and Quinn chuckled which made me smile.
"I need to go, I said to Jack I would be back before 4." I said and Quinn smiled and I got up so and did Quinn and we hugged.
"Just get better for my wedding please. My wedding wouldn't be the same if I didn't have you in my life." Quinn said quietly and she sniffed and I pulled back and saw a tear roll down her cheek.
"Don't cry, please don't cry Quinn. I'm going to get better okay. I'm going get better for you and Jack. I have my wedding to look forward to as well." I said and Quinn smiled and I kissed her forehead.
"I'll call you some point in the week." I said and Quinn nodded and we went our separate ways.

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"Well according to this website I'm cheating on you with Quinn." I said and walked round the island and stood next to Jack who's hand found its way into my back pocket.
"Why the fuck would they even say that when your gay as fuck and engaged to me." Jack said.
"Because they like to create shit, but that won't happen." I said and Jack looked at me and smiled.
I read more of what was said on this website whilst I perched on Jacks lap and he wrapped his arm round me and kissed the side of my head as he looked at this email on his laptop.
"Really? Fucking bastard who did this." I said and put Jacks iPad down before I broke it.
"What did it say?" Jack asked.
"So not only are they talking about the fact I'm cheating on you with Quinn but they're saying how I'm still fat and they think the reason I'm not modeling anymore is because I'm using you for money, like people always say." I said and Jack looked at me from over his glasses and grabbed the iPad and read what this person has written about me.
"Did you want me to sort this out for you? Because I'm going to be sorting it there is no way in hell they are getting away saying that you are fat when you are underweight and about to go into inpatients." Jack said and put his glasses on top of his head.
I nodded and looked back at the iPad but Jack had taken the website off.
I sighed and grabbed my cigarettes and went outside with Hank following me.

It was cold outside but I wasn't going to move as I was comfy and was lost inside my head.
I didn't even notice Jack coming outside.
"Babe, come inside it's freezing out here." Jack said softly and I jumped and looked at him.
"I have that film we was going to watch on the tv in the sitting room. I've even brought our duvet and pulled out so we can crash on the sofa. I've even got beers for us." Jack said and I smiled and when I moved I felt stiff and Jack noticed so I helped me up and picked me up and took me to the sitting room and sat me on the sofa and Jack sat next to me and pulled me into his side and put the duvet over me.
"Your bloody freezing." Jack said.
"Sorry." I whispered and cuddled more into Jack side.
"Glad to put my body for good use." Jack said and I smiled and kissed his side.
Jack's phone went off and he looked at it answered it.
"I don't care about that, I don't want false information be plastered over the internet about my fiancé and his best friend." Jack said seriously and I moved and put my head on his lap which made Jack look at me and smiled as he ran his hand through my hair.
"My fiancé has problems, and to see what he saw on your fucking website has deeply upset him." Jack said and moved his hand from my hair which made me pout and reach for his hand and put his hand on top of my head where Jack looked at me and smiled.
"You'll be hearing from my lawyer." Jack said and threw his phone on the sofa and said something in Arabic which made me frown.
"Don't worry I have everything under control." Jack said and kissed my forehead which made me smile.
Jack felt for my hand and when he found it he looked down and started to mess with my ring.

"What you thinking about?" I asked quietly.
"That I'm doing a pretty shit job on protecting you." Jack said quietly as he looked down and I sat up and sat on his lap facing him and made him look at me.
"Your not doing a shit job Jack. I have never felt safe in all my life, but being with you I feel safe. I feel like you are protecting me." I said.
"But Jason got to you, the press have been saying stuff about you. I can't protect you." Jack said and a tear rolled down his face and I kissed the tear away.
"But because of you Jason is in jail currently waiting to go on trail. The people who work in the press are just cunts and they think they have the right to invade our privacy when they don't." I said and put a finger under Jacks chin.
"Me being like this isn't your fault. None of what I have done to myself is not your fault. But I am going to get better Jack. I want to get better for you, so that then we can get married and grow old together." I said and Jack smiled slightly.
"I love you Jack, everything what you have done for me is amazing and I am so lucky to have you in my life." I said and kissed Jack a bit harder than what I intended but Jack just returned the kiss and he pulled back and looked at me.
"I love you too Lex. Just focus on getting better." Jack said quietly which made me smiled as I hugged Jack and started to mess with the hair at the bottom of his neck.
Jack turned his head and kissed my neck which made me smile.
"You going to watch the film?" Jack asked and I shook my head.
"Too busy hugging you." I said quietly which made Jack chuckle and he watched the film as I just hugged him until I fell asleep.

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