Jack's POV

"I'm going to work, be god and no wild parties." I said as I sat next to Alex on the sofa and Hank just looked at me in hope I was going to take him for a walk although he never actually liked going for a walk.
"Is Kit going to be staying here?" Alex asked sadly like he always speaks these days but I did manage to get him to move from the bedroom to the sitting room.
"Yeah he is baby." I said and messed with Alex's hair which made him look at me.
"I want you to stay home." Alex said quietly as he looked down.
"I've just have to clear somethings up then I'll be home, I'll be 3 hours max. If you want I'll bring you back Chinese." I said and Alex just shook his head and pulled the duvet over himself more.
"Baby you need to eat. I can see your ribs on your back. Your hip bones are way more visible, your thigh gap is a bigger than what it was when I first met you. Alex you are starving yourself to death. I hear you purging at night." I said and Alex had a tear rolling down his face.
"His words keep on going round in my head." Alex sobbed and I pulled him to my side and kiss the top of his head.
"I can't stop the voice Lex, I'm sorry about that but you need to talk to me baby. I want to help you but your shutting me out. In the progress of shutting me out your killing yourself. Baby look at me." I said and Alex looked at me with tears in his eyes.
"D..D..Don't leave please. I have nobody, Quinn and Beth are moving away and I have nobody left." Alex sobbed and I lifted my hand up, which made Alex flinch like he has done ever since the attack, and I rested my hand on his cheek.
"I'm not leaving you okay. We are getting married, I want to be with you and I'll always want to be with you. But I can't marry you if you are six feet under the ground and dead. I can't lose you Lex, yes I'm the strong one out of us, but I can't lose you. You mean everything to me Lex and I can't lose you." I said and Alex moved his head into my hand and kissed it.
"Baby, I want you to go into inpatients so you can get better." I said softly and Alex looked at me.
"Shell we talk about this later?" I asked and Alex nodded and I heard someone clear their throat and I looked and saw Kit.
"We'll talk later okay, I love you lots. Please don't do nothing stupid." I said quietly.
"I love you too." Alex sniffed and he linked his little finger with mine and I knew Alex was promising me silently that he won't do nothing.
"Thanks Kit." I said as I walked past Kit.
"It's alright sir, hey can I ask you something?" Kit asked and I stood and looked at him.
"Shoot." I said.
"So Alex normally has a nap in the afternoon if not a nap then him and Hank go outside and chill." Kit said and looked down.
"Speed it up Kit, I haven't got all day." I said.
"Right sorry Jack, I was wondering if it was okay if I could play on your Xbox when Alex wants his space, I keep an eye on him and everything. It gets kinda boring when he's on mute." Kit said.
"Yeah sure you can, hey maybe you can get me past this level what I can't complete without dying all the time." I said and Kit chuckled.
"Thanks Jack." Kit said and he walked off and sat on the spinning chair we had.
"See you later guys." I said and walked out the room and went to work.

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I got home after a busy time at work. Kit was walking out from the kitchen.
"Hey Jack." Kit said and lent against the side as I got myself a beer.
"Hey Kit, where's Lex?" I asked and I could hear Hank playfully growling and I walked towards the sitting room and smiled when I saw Alex playing with Hank with a smile on his face.
"Hey babe." Alex said and he got up and walked over to me and hugged me, Hank chased after Alex.
"Why is Hank so lively? Normally he's passed out asleep like he has nothing better to do." I said and Alex chuckled and sat on the floor and messed with Hank and I looked at Kit who had a smile on his face.
I smiled and walked over to Kit and stood next to him.
"Me and Alex have been talking." Kit said and I looked at him.
"Is he feeling okay? He never speaks to you." I said and Kit chuckled.
"Maybe he's just having a good day, he even played on the Xbox with me." Kit said and I smiled.
"He's a good kid and I'm glad he has someone like you in his life." Kit said and I looked at him.
"I'm glad I have him in my life. Don't know what I would do if I didn't have him." I said.
"You wouldn't have him keeping you in line." Kit said and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"More like the other way around." I said and Alex came out and went to the fridge and got himself a beer and stood with me and Kit.
"I've got your ass whipped into shape." Alex said and slapped my ass which made Kit chuckle.
"I'll leave you two alone, am I here tomorrow or am I not wanted?" Kit asked.
"I'm working from home tomorrow so you won't be needed." I sad and Kit smiled.
"See you around guys." Kit said and he went off home.

"Okay, you wanted to talk about me going into inpatients again." Alex said as he sat beside me round the island as I had dinner.
"Yeah, but we can wait until after I've eaten if you want." I said and Alex shook his head and I put my fork down and looked at him.
"I've been thinking about it and had Kit's words of wisdom." Alex said.
"So what do you want to do?" I asked and Alex looked down and sighed loudly then looked back at me.
"I don't want die before my time and before marrying you. I don't want to be a bag of bones anymore or fear food or count calories. I need my life back Jack." Alex said and I put my hand on his knee which made Alex smile.
Alex took a deep breath and looked down.
"I need help Jack. If I don't get help now then I'll probably be dead soon and I can't do that to you or myself. I don't want to die young." Alex said and I made him look at me and he had tears in his eyes.
"I'll get you into the best possible place I can get you in." I said and Alex nodded and I lent forward and kissed him which Alex returned.
"I believe in you and that you can get better." I whispered and Alex smiled.

I walked into the bedroom, since me and Alex was going to watch a film in bed and I saw Alex stood in front of the mirror looking at himself.
Alex looked at me through the mirror and he looked down.
I walked over and wrapped my arms round him which made Alex look up.
"You are making the right choice." I said quietly and Alex nodded.
"I know." Alex whispered.
"How about when you get out of inpatients we go somewhere." I said and Alex turned round and looked at me with a small smile.
"But we've just on holiday." Alex said.
"So? What we do has nothing to with other people." I said and Alex smiled and kissed me and caught hold of my hand and we went over to the bed where Alex just stood in front of me and took my top off and looked at me where I just kissed him and pushed him onto the bed and sat on him where we just made out until we was both naked and having sex.

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