Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

I was sat in mine and Jacks room lost in thought like I have been the last couple of day when I felt the bed dip beside me which made me jump and looked to see who it was and I smiled when I saw it was Jack.
"Babe, we need to talk." Jack said and I looked down at my ring.
"You want to leave me don't you? I can understand if you do. I would want to leave my sorry ass, especially after what happened." I said quietly and went to take my ring off but Jack put his hand over mine to stop me taking my ring off.
"I don't want to leave you, never in a million years would I leave especially now you need me." Jack said and I smiled a little.
"We need to talk about what happened and what we're going to do now." Jack said and I sighed and looked down.
"What's there to say, Jason raped me end of story." I said and picked at the covers.
"Alex, there is a whole load of stuff to say about this. Just because Jason raped you does not make it the end story. If anything it's only the beginning of the story." Jack said and I shook my head.
I looked at Jack and I knew I had tears in my eyes just thinking about what happened.
"You don't understand Jack. Nobody understands how hard it is to open up about it, how much it fucks you up on the inside." I whispered and sniffed.
"Then help me understand. I might not understand what is going on inside your head but I can see how much this has affected you. And it hurts me so much too see you feeling this low and feeling so shitty about yourself." Jack said.
"I don't know if I can open up about it. It's been a huge part of my life, I've never known what it is like to be loved by someone. I only know what it's like to be used as a sex object. How can I open up about that? How can I tell you all the things which has happened to me and know that at the end of it you will still want to be with me. That you will still love me because there is no way in hell that I love myself." I said and I felt tears roll down my cheeks and I looked away from Jack.
"Babe look at me." Jack said softly and I started to bite the skin around my thumb and shook my head as I sniffed loudly.

"Baby, please." Jack begged and I looked at him.
"I have told you a million times that I fucking love you. I love you with all my heart. You can talk to me because I am not going to judge you, I am not going to leave you. Everything you hate about yourself I will love." Jack said and I shook my head and went to look down but Jack stopped me by making me look at him.
"I love you Alex and when I saw you on the edge of the building I thought I was going to lose the person who means everything to me. I thought that I was going to join you on the ground because I can't live without you. You have come into my life and I never want you to leave. I don't care about your past, I don't care about your scars. I don't care you have mental health problems. I don't care you have been raped. What I care about is you being part of my future. You recovering from your problems. You learning to love yourself again after those bastards had taken everything you loved about yourself away. They destroyed you and I am going to fix these broken pieces." Jack said and I knew he meant every word he said and he had tears forming in his eyes.
I moved so I was closer to him and rested my head on his shoulder.

Notes

Shitty chapter but I feel like shit...

comments anyone and then it doesn't feel like I'm wasting my time...