Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

I was in the middle of a shoot when Jack walked in.
"Jason my office now." Jack said seriously and he looked at me and just eye fucked me and put his full attention back on Jason.
"Give me half an hour and I'll be in your office." Jason said and I had just finished my shoot so I walked over to Jack.
"Now Jason!" Jack said loudly which made me jump and looked at Jack and just stopped in my tracks as Jack was really pissed off.
"Ellie take over, this better not take long Jack. You know we have deadlines to hit." Jason said and they both walked off.
I just rolled my eyes and walked off to get changed.

I was stood outside smoking when the door opened and shut and I looked and saw Jason walking over to me and he punched me hard round the face.
"The fuck was that for!" I said loudly as I nursed my cheek.
"I know your fucking our boss and is engaged to him but there was no need for you to twist words." Jason said loudly.
"I didn't fucking twist any words what came out of your mouth. I could of quite easily told him how you fucking raped me a year ago but I fucking didn't. Maybe I should tell him." I said seriously.
"Don't you fucking dare tell him. I need this job to make a living unlike you. You have seriously changed since being with Jack." Jason said.
"I haven't changed. You never noticed me until I started fucking our boss." I said and flicked my cigarette away and went to walk off but Jason pinned me against the wall.
I couldn't help but start to panic as I had a load of flashbacks going through my head.
"You fucking listen to me, you don't say a fucking word about anything. I will fucking destroy everything you got. You understand?" Jason said seriously and I nodded.
"Now I think you owe me." Jason said and I looked at him.
"No, no don't make me do this please. I'll keep my mouth shut from now on." I said quickly and Jason just shook his head.
"No can do Alex." Jason said and I felt him undo my jeans and him spinning me me round and pinning me to the wall and my jeans being pulled down.
"Stop please." I whispered but Jason didn't hear me and I felt him ram himself inside me.
After Jason had finished he walked off like nothing had even happened.
I sorted myself out and I just slid down the wall and started to cry and for the first in ages I felt like I just wanted to die.

I don't know how long I was up here for but I heard the door open and shut, I didn't bother looking as I felt numb and I didn't want to know who it was.
"Lex?" I heard Quinn ask and she walked over and knelt in front of me.
"Shit, Alex what happened?" Quinn asked and raised her hand just a little but I flinched away which was something I never did around Quinn.
"Alex you scaring me, you never flinch away from me. Tell me what's the matter." Quinn said and you could hear that she was scared.
"I'm going to get Jack. Stay there and don't move." Quinn said and got up and I heard her run off and the door slamming shut.
I got up and walked towards the edge of the building and sat on the edge debating wether to just jump or not, which made me start crying.

"Alex!" I heard Jack say loudly and him running over and stopped close to me but he was giving me space.
"Baby talk to me." Jack said but you could hear the panic in his voice.
I just shook my head and looked down and saw a group of people had started to gather down below.
"Can I come over and sit next to you?" Jack asked and I shrugged my shoulders because I didn't know what I wanted right now.
"Alex I need a yes or no answer." Jack said the panic gone out of voice and now he sounded really concerned.
"Yes." I said quietly before I could take my answer back.
"Stay there, he should hopefully listen to me." I heard Jack say to someone and he walked over and sat next to me.
Jack wasn't sat like me with his legs over the edge but he still sat on the edge next to me.
"What happened babe?" Jack asked and I shook my head not wanting to talk about this.
"Hey, remember that we tell each other anything right. It doesn't matter how bad it is, I love you and your the only person I want." Jack said and I pulled my eyes away from the street below and looked at Jack.
"Baby what happened to your face?" Jack asked and I looked down and I heard Jacks hand move which made me flinch away which hurt me to do so.
"Lex, talk to me please. I hate it when you go mute because it means something is going on in your head." Jack said softly.
I took a deep breath.
"If I told you, he will ruin everything and I don't want that to happen." I whispered.
"Hey, whoever he is. Nothing is going to change between us." Jack said.
" It will. I can't tell you, please don't hate me." I said and my body just shuffled forward and I felt Jack grab my arm and pulled me back off the edge and he stood me up and held me close to him which I returned and hid my face in his chest and I felt myself cry.

I hung onto Jack for dear life and I felt something wet fall on top of my head and I looked back and I saw that Jack was crying.
"Don't cry, a pretty face like yours shouldn't cry." I said with a sniff and raised my hand up and wiped the tears off his cheek
"Neither should you Lex." Jack sniffed and pulled me back into a hug which I returned and I rested my chin on his shoulder.
"Guys give them some privacy." I heard Quinn say and her and Page started to move people away from me and Jack.
"Talk to me please Alex." Jack said with his voice breaking.
"He'll ruin me if I say anything Jack." I whispered and looked down.
"Alex you need to tell me. I promise I won't flip out." Jack said and pulled back and looked at me.
"If you don't tell me then I'll go and have a look at their sercuity footage." Jack added more seriously at the end of what he said.
"Jason." I whispered and moved away from Jack and turned my back to him.
"What about him?" Jack asked and I could tell he was trying not to raise his voice.
"He told me that I make everything up." I said .
Jack stayed quiet.
"He said if I told anyone what he had done in the past and today then he would ruin me. He would make you turn on me and hate me for the rest of your life. I can't risk that Jack. You are literally the only thing which is keeping me alive right now, I can't lose you." I said.
"Alex tell me what he did to you." Jack said and I turned round to face Jack.
"H..H..He raped me Jack." I whispered and I felt myself begin to cry.
Jack walked over and pulled me into his chest and held me close to him.
"Let's go home." Jack said and I nodded.
I grabbed hold of Jack's hand and held it tightly and we walked off.

I was lead on Jacks side of the bed watching some film while Jack was shouting down his phone.
Even Hank moved from the sitting room to the bed room and he was lead in front of me and we was both just having cuddles.
Jack walked into the bedroom and he said something in Arabic which meant he was really pissed off.
He looked at me and Hank and he smiled and he walked off somewhere and that was where I heard the bath being run.
Jack walked back into the bedroom and lead on my side of the bed and smiled softly at me and wiped a tear which was rolling down my cheek.
"The police are going to be arresting Jason. I don't want you to come back to work Alex. Please don't shout and say what I'm doing is controlling you, this time I'm protecting you." Jack said and I moved and pushed Jack onto his back and I sat on him.
"I was going to speak to you about that and say after all the mouth I gave you going back to work, after today I don't want to go back. I don't feel safe anywhere but here." I said and Jack smiled a little.
"I'm going to stay at home for a few days to keep an eye on you and make sure that your okay." Jack said and I smiled and nodded.
"Let's go and have a bath." Jack said and I nodded and got off him wincing as I did so as my ass was throbbing right now and my face hurt as well.
After we had our bath together we climbed into bed and I stayed as close as I could to Jack and we watched a film until we fell asleep.

Notes

Shit chapter