Life isn't a fashion statement.

Jack's POV

We was waiting for the doctors to get Alex is discharge papers.
"Babe are you sure you don't want to stay?" I asked and Alex looked at me.
"I don't want to stay. I want to be at home, with you and Hank." Alex said quietly and looked at me.
"I want you to promise me something." I said seriously and Alex nodded.
"Anything." Alex whispered.
"You come and talk to me if you are struggling. Not just with your eating and your head but with anything else. I have your back okay just like I know you have my back." I said and Alex nodded and moved into myself and cuddled into it.
"I'm sorry I didn't come and talk to you. I thought I could manage it but before I knew it, I collapsed and ended up here." Alex said sounding like he was about to cry.
I made Alex looked at me.
"It's okay. I understand that when you have relapsed it is hard to ask for help. As long as you know that I am here and I will support you with everything you need. I mean it when I said that if you need a load of time of work that I will give you that time of work. I will always have enough money to support us and live where we do." I said and kissed the side of Alex's head.
"I'm sorry." Alex whispered and I kissed him which Alex returned.
"Stop saying sorry. You have nothing to be sorry for." I said quietly and Alex rested his head on my shoulder and I rested my head on top of his.
"I love you Lex. You always have my heart remember that okay." I said quietly and kissed the top of his head and Alex linked his hand with mine.
"I love you too Jacky." Alex whispered.

"Their fucking vultures, they have no respect of privacy and right now that is what we need." I said as I sat in my office with the security team I had on standby.
"Sir, we will do anything you and Mr Gaskarth need to make sure your privacy and space are fully respected." Kit, my main man on this job said.
"Thank you, now if you have any questions then I'll be on my mobile. Unless it's important I don't really need to be concerned about it." I said and got up.
"Kit, I want you to stay with Alex when I'm at work. I don't trust the others enough with him and also I know you straight and less likely to hit on him." I said and Kit smiled.
"Anything you want sir. But I wouldn't never go after someone else's partner." Kit said and I smiled.
"Imwould like you to come and meet Alex. You might just have to ignore the dog, he's a sweetie really." I said and Kit chuckled and we went to mine.

"Alex? Babe where are you?" I called out and Hank came running over barking.
Kit took at step back unsure what to make of Hank.
Alex walked round the corner with just a towel round his waist.
"Oh, um I'll just go and get dressed a second." Alex said awkwardly and walked off.
"Do you want a drink?" I asked and looked at Kit.
"No thank you sir." Kit said.
"Hank leave him alone." Alex said as he walked in the kitchen pulling one of my hoodies on.
"Who's that?" Alex asked and lent against the side.
"That's Kit, Kit will be with you when I'm at work since you can't be on your own." I said and looked at Alex.
"Stupid fucking rules." Alex muttered and looked away from me but I got him to look back at me.
"It won't be for long. Once I got this stuff out then i will be able to spend more time at home with you. But at the moment I just need to make sure that when your home you have someone with you." I said and Alex sighed and looked down.
"I know your doing this to keep me safe. But a bodyguard that's over the top even for you." Alex said.
"They know you was in hospital and somehow they know about your eating disorder and your suicide attempt." I said and Alex looked at me.
"If they fucking know about that then they will know about what about me being on the fucking streets and selling myself like a cheap slut!" Alex said loudly and put his hands in his hair and started to pull it.
"Babe, they won't know about that." I said and Alex looked at me hard.
"How the fuck do they know about my eating disorder and suicide attempt then! I have not told a soul other than you, Quinn and Beth! How the fuck do they know Jack!" Alex shouted.
"I don't know Alex! But I'm going to find out okay. I going to make sure that nobody is going to find out about what you did." I said and Alex walked into my chest and hid his face in my chest.
"It's going to be okay Lex." I said quietly and kissed the top of his head.

Alex was sat in the bath and I was sat in the side of the bath.
Alex had a bit of a panic attack which made him pass out for a few hours but he was okay now.
"You getting in the bath with me?" Alex asked and looked at me.
"I'm going to let you enjoy it. I'll be in the bedroom finding something for us to watch." I said and kissed the top of his head and walked out the room.

I was sat on the bed looking for somewhere nice for a holiday when Alex came out the bathroom and sat in bed and cuddled into my side.
"What you doing?" Alex asked quietly.
"Looking for a nice holiday for us two." I said and looked at Alex.
"Babe you really shouldn't." Alex said and I kissed him.
"We haven't had a holiday together yet. Think we should do now." I said and Alex smiled.
"You sure you don't mind about the past?" Alex asked quietly.
"I don't care, the main thing that I'm with you." I said and made Alex look at me and kissed him which Alex returned which made me smile.
"Shut that down, it's my time with you." Alex said and pushed the laptop screen down.
I chuckled and put the laptop on the floor and Alex rolled over and cuddled into my side.

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