Life isn't a fashion statement.

Alex's POV

I woke up and had loads of bed round my bed which made me shake Jack who was sound asleep beside me. "Jack wake up." I said and Jack grumbled in his sleep but he opened his eyes and looked round and quickly sat up.
"couldn't you of at least spoken so we both knew you was all here watching us sleep!" Jack said seriously.
"sorry sir." A doctor said.
"You do this again and we'll get you done for it." Jack said seriously and I knew he meant it as we had to be really careful of the press getting a hold of this.
"Alex, we would like to talk to you in private." A woman said and I couldn't speak so Jack did the talking.
"You're not speaking to him without me being here." Jack said and got off the bed but he sat on the bed looking like he was in a business meeting which made me smile.
"And what have you got to do with Alex?" A nurse asked.
"I am his partner, and I'm not leaving his side." Jack said.
"Alex do you want to Jack present?" A doctor I'm guessing asked.
"Yes." I said quietly and Jack looked at me and gave me a reassuring smile.
"Okay then." The doctor said.

"Alex it has been brought to our attention that you have relapsed is that true?" The doctor asked.
"yes." I said and looked down.
"Okay, have you had any triggers which might of caused you to relapse?" The doctor asked.
"No." I said.
"How do you feel like talking to our mental health team and see if we can get you onto a ward which can help you get better." The doctor said.
"Alex doesn't want to go into a ward." Jack said and the doctor looked at him.
"Alex. I don't feel happy on you leaving the hospital. I think it is better for you to stay where we can keep an eye on you and see what is going on inside your head." The doctor said.
"Alex has made his choice that he doesn't want to stay in hospital, you need to respect that I know you need to make your medical opinion but at the end of the day you can't force Alex to stay here if he does the want to stay here." Jack said.
"Is that what you want Alex?" The doctor asked.
I looked at Jack for help.
"Lex of you feel like you want to stay here then you can, I don't mind because at the end of the day you health is important right now." Jack said.
"I'm not staying, I want to go home." I said.
"Alex you are a high risk, your records shows you have ever alright attempt suicide, you've been in for your eating disorder and self harm. I really want you to stay in." The doctor said and I was getting out of bed putting my shoes on.
"I'm not staying. I want to go home." I said.
"Alex, you need to think for a minute. Can your partner cope looking after you?" Another person said and Jack butted in.
"You saying I can't cope with looking after Alex? Because if you are then you a fucking wrong." Jack said and I put my hand on his knee not wanting him to get kicked out because I really need him right now.
"I have thought about this and I want to go home. I have to cope with this and I have my ways. I don't need your help and wasting your time." I said.
"Alex you won't be wasting our time. We need to.make sure that you are okay. You are important right now." The person said and I shook my head.
"I want to go home." I said quietly and everyone just sort of backed off.
"We will come back with your discharge papers soon then." The doctor said and they all walked off.
"You sure about it babe?" Jack asked.
"I just want to go home. Be in our bed, actually have decent cuddles and not have people checking all the time. Part of your agreement is that I'm with someone at all times and I will be because I'll be with you." I said and looked at Jack who smiled at me and kissed the top of my head.
"Whatever you want." Jack said quietly.

Notes

Shit chapter because I'm stuck on a wake in losing the will to live