Don't You Go and Carry On With Your Life

Alex

Seeing Austin wrap his arms around Jack made me unbelievably angry. I was angry at Austin for even touching Jack, but I was also angry at Jack for being with Austin. I let my anger and jealousy get the best of me and tried to make Jack jealous by hitting on his friend. I wasn't really going to date him or use him, I just wanted to get some kind of reaction out of Jack. I thought it worked because Jack told his friend that I couldn't stay, but that could have been because it would have been awkward. It didn't matter, I wasn't able to stay around Jack and Austin for too much longer. I went back over to Rian and told him we were leaving. Once we were in the car I told him that Jack was there with his new boy toy.

"Shit Lex, I'm sorry. Do you want to go somewhere else?" Rian asked as he started his car.

"Nah I just want to go home and get in bed." I sighed.

"I feel bad. I brought you out to help you feel better and now you feel even worse." He said as he drove in the direction of my house.

"It's cool Ri. It's not your fault." I assured him.

"I still feel guilty."

"How about you buy me McDonald's. Will that make you feel better?" I asked and he nodded, making me laugh. He drove us to the nearest McDonald's and brought me and him some food. Then he continued driving in the direction of my house. He pulled into my building a few minutes later.

"Thanks for taking me out, even if it was for like thirty minutes, I still enjoyed it." I told him.

"No problem. Next time it'll be even better and I'll make sure Jack won't be there." He joked and I chuckled.

"Alright I'll see you on Monday."

"Bye." He said and drove off.

I walked to my door and held my food in one hand as I opened it with the other. I walked into the living room where I saw Kellin pulling away from Vic. Both of their shirts were off but thankfully everything else was on. I raised an eyebrow at Kellin and he began stammering.

"D-dad I c-can explain." He told me.

"I don't think you can." I frowned and he gulped.

"Uh hi Mr. Gaskarth, it's nice to see you again." Vic said in a shaky tone. I should have threatened him more when I first met him.

"I'm gonna give you five seconds to get out the hell out of my house before Kellin witnesses your murder before his own." I threatened and he stared in fear, afraid to move. "Five...four...-" I began counting down and Vic quickly got up and grabbed his shirt and keys before running out of the door. I locked the door behind him and turned back to Kellin.

"Really?" Was all I said. Kellin was bright red and trying to cover up with his arms.

"I know what it looks like, but we were just talking." He lied.

"With your shirts off?" I questioned.

"I um...well no we just um...I don't know." He panicked.

"I swear to god Kellin I'm going to kill him and make you burry his body in the back yard."

"Dad no please don't! We didn't do anything, I swear!"

"You were going to."

"No I'm not crazy enough to do anything like that. It was just the heat of the moment, but I swear we were going to stop."

"Mhm sure." I hummed and sat down at the kitchen table. I wasn't as mad as I should have been at Kellin because I was still trying to get over seeing Jack with Austin.

"Why are you back so early?" Kellin asked, trying to change the subject and I let him for now.

"I saw Jack out with his new boyfriend." I grumbled.

"Really? What didn't he look like?" He asked.

"He's really tall and kind of muscular." I grumbled and stuffed some fries in my mouth.

"He sounds pretty good looking so far." He said and I glared at him. "I mean not as good as you! Daddy is crazy to think he could ever replace you." He corrected and I rolled my eyes.

"No you were right, he was good looking. I bet he's smart, and funny and everything else I'm not." I complained.

"You're smart! I bet he doesn't have a law degree like you do. And I Daddy probably can't stop comparing him to you. There has to be something you have that he doesn't have and Daddy is probably missing that." Kellin said.

"I doubt it." I sighed. "He looked really happy with him."

"All you have to do is remind him why he'll be happier with you."

"I don't know how to do that."

"You'll figure it out! But you should hurry before things become too serious with Austin." He warned.

"I don't know, it might be too late.” I shrugged. “Oh and you're grounded for the next week." I said.

"Even after I just tried to help you??" He asked.

"It should have been two weeks, but I cut you some slack."

"Fine." He reluctantly handed me his cell phone. "I'm going to bed." He pouted.

"Goodnight." I called after him but I didn't get a response. I chuckled to myself and ate my food so I could attempt to go to bed too.

***********

I hardly got any sleep last night. I tossed and turned thinking about what Jack and Austin could possibly be doing. I know their relationship is none of business, but I can't help myself.

"Dad." Kylie said as she walked into my room.

"Yes baby?" I answered and sat up.

"Me eat cakes?" She asked.

"Can you eat cakes? Pancakes, Kyls?"

"Yes." She nodded.

"Yeah I'll make you some pancakes. Hold on." I told her.

I got out of bed and went into my bathroom to brush my teeth and do my other morning routine. When I finished, I brought Kylie in to the kitchen with me.

"Where's Kellin?" I asked her.

"Kelly sleep." She said. He slept until noon on the weekends so that didn't surprise me.

I cooked blueberry pancakes for Kylie and me. I burnt two pancakes because I too tired to focus. I needed sleep but I still didn't feel like I could. I had also spent my night thinking of ways I could win Jack back. The idea I had so far was to kidnap Austin, and forge a note from him telling Jack that he was leaving forever. Then I could slip in to comfort Jack and sooner or later he would fall for me again. The only problem was I would have to keep Austin locked away forever so he would never be able to tell the truth. Or I could kill him and have Rian help me beat the murder chargers. I needed more sleep, being restless was making me not think straight.

I picked up my phone and went to Facebook to distract myself. It didn't work because I ended up going to Jack's page to spy on him. I was surprised he hadn't unfriended me on there. His relationship status still said single which made me happy and sad at the same time. It used to say married to me. I scrolled down to see Austin in his recent friends list. I clicked on his name and stalked his page next. I saw that he was a personal trainer for some fancy gym. That explained his perfect body. I looked at his most recent statuses and saw he had taken pictures with Jack at some restaurant. The caption said, "I was lucky enough to meet this amazing guy a few months ago. We're both teaching each other how to love again." Reading it made me want to throw up. Jack didn't need him to teach him how to love again. I could do that if Jack just gave me the chance.

"Do you think it'll be weird if I buy your daddy a Christmas present?" I asked Kylie.

"Daddy wants toys." She said and I chuckled.

"No you just want toys, Silly. What if I get him a gift and say it's from you, so it won't be weird. I can get him one of those Kitchen Aid mixers he told me he wanted a while back." I said mostly to myself.

"He already has one." Kellin said as he walked down to the kitchen. "Aunt May gave him hers cause she said she barely used it."

"Damn, what about the new iPhone? He doesn't have that yet." I suggested.

"That seems kind of weird. You two aren't together so spending nine-hundred dollars on a phone for him would be weird."

"I was going to say it was from Kylie." I told him and he laughed.

"That doesn't make it better."

The doorbell rang a few seconds later. I got up and went to open it, only to be greeted by my parents.

"Hey, what are you both doing here?" I asked and let them in.

"We just came to check on you and make sure you're doing alright." My mom said worriedly.

"We also came to bring you and Kylie birthday presents since we missed the celebration last week." My dad said.

"I didn't really do anything but work on my birthday. I didn't feel like celebrating." I said, thinking back to Tuesday and how painful my office birthday party was.

"My poor baby." My mom said and kissed me on the cheek. "Oh there are my grand babies!" She exclaimed when she saw Kellin and Kylie.

"Ma-ma!!" Kylie yelled as she ran to my mom to be picked up.

"Oh you're such a big girl." She chuckled and picked her up. Kellin walked over to hug her and my dad too.

"So how have you been, son?" My dad asked.

"I'm okay." I said and my mom turned to me and gave me a knowing look.

"How have you really been, Alexander?" She reiterated.

"...I could be better." I said honestly while looking at the ground.

"Have you talked to Jack like I told you to?" She asked.

"Mom, Jack doesn't want anything to do with me. He's with someone else now."

"Really?" She gasped. "How can he move on so quickly? You've only been divorced for a few months."

"It doesn't matter. It's too late for me to fix things with him." I sighed.

"I told him that it isn't too late. I think he can fix things if he can find a way to get Daddy to talk to him about it." Kellin said and my mom agreed.

"Yeah, maybe I can go over and talk to him for you first. I'll tell him how miserable you are without him and ask him to talk to you about it so you two can fix your relationship." She suggested.

"Mom No!! You're just going to make things worse. Promise me you won't go talk to Jack about any of this." I told her.

"Oh alright, I promise."

"I don't believe you. Dad make sure mom doesn't leave the house by herself for the next few weeks." I said.

"Lex, you're mother promised she won't do it. I'm sure she won't take it upon herself to get involved in you and Jack's problems anymore." My dad chuckled.

I looked over to my mom skeptical and she smiled at me. I know my mom and when she thought that I needed help she would do everything in her ability to help me. I just really didn't want her to go over and make things worse between Jack and me. I didn't want Jack to think that I am not capable to talk to him myself like a man. Plus my mom wouldn't know exactly what to say. She would just try to guilt trip Jack into getting back with me, which would make our situation worse.

"Mom I begging you-"

"-yes yes Alex I heard you the first time. Now let's focus something important, like you and Kylie's presents." She cut me off. "We got you something I think you'll really like." She told Kylie while tickling her sides and making her giggle.

I relaxed for a little bit, I was overreacting for nothing. If my mom promised she wouldn't go talk to Jack then she most likely wouldn't. I still needed to figure out what I would say to him when I finally got the chance to talk to him without any distractions. For now I was going to try to put that thought away and enjoy time with my family. My dad handed me my gift bag and Kylie a wrapped gift box. I knew my gift was the engraved whiskey set I told them about so I just sat back and watched Kylie open her present.

Notes

I'm still writing for this story and it's turning out to be a little longer than I planned lol I just finished up chapter 35 last night. I'm thinking it should end on 45 or maybe 50. Also there will be more Jack and Alex chapters in the future, I don't want the story to become boring because they've been apart for most of it.