You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

"Your going to make yourself ill Jack if you don't go home and have a good sleep." Zack said since he came to visit me and Alex.
"The only time I'll go home is when Alex is by my side." I said quietly and moved some hair away from Alex's eyes.
"It might be a while until he wakes up Jack, you need to rest as well." He said.
"I'm not going without Alex!" I said louder than what I have been speaking.
"Okay, okay. But you need to rest. You look worn out mate and I'm not meaning it as a joke." Zack said seriously.
"I'll rest when I know Alex is going to be okay. Until then I need to make sure nothing happens to him. I can't lose him Zack, I don't think I can cope without him." I said quietly.
"Alex is in the best place right now." Zack said.
"I can't leave him. I made him leave and now look where he is. He's in a hospital bed after he tried to kill himself. What if I didn't notice him a d he died, I couldn't live with myself Zack. It would of been my fault." I said and a few tears fell.
"Don't cry Jack, I hate seeing you cry." Zack said and got up and walked round to my chair and pulled me to his side.
"You did what you thought was right at the time. You learnt that you and Alex aren't meant to be apart. You had Archie to mend the broken bits off you which needed to be mended. Now you need to help fix Alex." Zack said.
"But if I didn't kick him out then he wouldn't be in a hospital bed." I sniffed.
"We never know with Alex, even you know this." He said.
I didn't say anything but just looked at Alex.
Zack moved and I looked at him.
"Get some sleep. I'll keep an eye on Alex for you." He said quietly and I nodded as Zack moved and sat in his seat and I rested my head on Alex's bed and got hold of his hand and slowly fell asleep.

I was woken up by someone squeezing my hand gently.
I sat up and saw that Zack wasn't in the room.
"Lex?" I said quietly and looked at him.
I felt him squeeze my hand again and I smiled.
"Wake up Lex." I said and looked at him and his eyes slowly started to flutter open which made me smile.
Alex's eyes opened but he quickly shut them again.
"Bright light." He muttered and went to move his arm but hissed since he had needles in both arms.
"Don't move your arms, you have needles in them." I said quietly and put his arms down back to his sides.
"Where am I?" He asked quietly.
"You at the hospital. You tried to kill yourself Lex." I said and looked down.
"Well shit it didn't work." He muttered and looked away from me.
"Don't say that." I said and made him looked at me.
"But you don't want me. I have nothing I might as well be dead." He sniffed and moved his head away from me.
" I do want you Alex." I said and got hold of his hand.
Alex didn't say anything.
"I'm tired." Alex yawned.
I let go of Alex's hand but he quickly got hold of my hand.
"Stay. Please, I don't want to be on my own." He said quietly.
"I wasn't going anywhere." I said and Alex smiled and he got himself comfy and he went back to sleep.
I texted Zack and Rian to tell them that Alex was awake but I didn't wait form their reply since I also fell asleep again.

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