You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

I got to the hospital and went looking for Alex.
"I'm looking for my friend, can you tell me where he is?" I asked a nurse.
"I'm sorry sweetie but I'm a bit busy to tell you where he is right now." She said and rushed off towards a cubicle and I followed her and saw that it was Alex.
"What's wrong with him?" I asked and a doctor looked at me and walked over and took me away from Alex.
"Who are you and do you know this boy?" He asked.
"Yeah, his name is Alexander but he likes being called Alex. I'm his friend Jack, please tell me what's wrong with him." I said.
"We can't tell you wants wrong. Do you have a number for his family?" He asked.
"Alex doesn't have anything to do with his family, that's why he was out on the streets." I said and looked behind him and saw Alex being taken away to somewhere.
"Where they taking him?" I asked and went to move but the doctor unlocked my way.
"Sir I'm going to need you to go to the family room and wait there until we can get the results and tell you wants going to happen." The doctor said.
"Is he going to be okay?" I asked quietly.
"I'm going to be honest with you okay, your friend might not make it through the night." The doctor said.
"He has too, please do everything you can to make sure he's going to be okay." I said and felt tears form in my eyes.
"We'll do everything we can to save him." The doctor said and I nodded.
"Follow me to the family room." He said and I followed him and once I was there I sat down and got lost in my thoughts.

Someone sat next to me and I looked at saw Archie.
"I'm sorry for this." I said quietly.
"Its fine. I know you love Alex and I was stupid enough to think that you would love me like you love him." He said and looked away and looked at the coffee table.
"But I do love you." I said beginning to panic.
"I know you do, but you love Alex more. Everyone can see it." He said and looked at me.
"But I want to be with you though." I said.
Archie shook his head.
"Your head is telling you you want to be with me, but your heart is telling you that you want to be with Alex." He said.
"Please don't leave me." I whispered and tears slowly started to fall.
"I won't leave you. But I think its better if we weren't together." He said.
"No! I want to be with you." I said loudly.
"Jack, just stop for a couple of minutes and think. I don't care if you love Alex. I can understand why you love him, you two are meant to be no matter what your head thinks. You have to listen to your heart and you know your heart belongs to Alex. I know that and have accepted it. I always knew Jack. I'm just happy that I've had time with you and be apart of your life. But you should be with Alex and you being with me is hurting both yourself and Alex." Archie said and looked at me.
"I don't want to stop being your friend. I think us being together isn't meant to be." He said softly.
I nodded and moved and kissed him softly which he returned.
"I'm still here for you Jack. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to." He said and kissed me one last time and got up and walked out the room.
I watched him walk off and slowly started to cry.

"Me and Archie aren't together anymore." I said quietly to Zack.
"I know, Archie was saying that he knows you still love Alex and that he accepts you two being together." Zack said softly.
"That's if Alex doesn't die first." I sniffed.
"Alex will get through this. If he can survive being on the streets then he can survive this." Zack said and pulled me to his side.
"I can't lose him." I whispered.
"You won't, stop thinking about the negative and think about the positive." Zack said and I nodded.

I must of fallen asleep as I felt Zack gently shake me and I woke up and saw the doctor from earlier sat on the coffee table.
"Is Alex okay? Can I go and see him?" I said quickly forgetting about the fact I was just asleep.
"Your friend is in a stable but critical condition." The doctor said.
"But he's going to be okay?" I asked quietly.
"At the moment its hard to say. He has lost a lot of blood and the fact he had overdosed on drugs and alcohol in his system could mean he won't be okay. But only time will tell." The doctor said.
I looked down.
"Are you aware of Alex's drug taking?" The doctor asked.
"Yeah, but he only had a joint and a couple lines of cocaine everyday nothing really damaging is it?" I said.
"We don't know but the drugs he has taken this time could mean a life time of health problems if he doesn't stop. As for him self harming. Do you know how long he's been self harming for?" The doctor asked and I moved uneasy in my seat since I have self harmed when Alex left.
"I don't know. It was bad when he was living with me." I said and looked down.
"And his drinking?" The doctor asked.
"He never really drank when he was me, but I think he drank more when he was on the streets but I can't help you with that one." I said.
"Has Alex ever been to the doctors about his mental health?" The doctor asked and looked at me.
"No, we was going to go but then something happened and we never got round to the doctors about it." I said and looked down.
"The scars on his back?" The doctor asked.
"I can't help you with them. Alex never told me what happened I only know the basic things about him as he was really secretive about his past." I said and the doctor nodded.
"Want to go and see him?" The doctor asked and I nodded and looked at Zack.
"I'm going to go home and leave you for a while. You have my number if you want to get hold of me." Zack said and I nodded and got up and followed the doctor.

We got to the ICU and the doctor took me too Alex.
"He's in a induced coma at the moment just so his body can rest. Hopefully in a few days we can wake him up and you'll have someone to talk to." The doctor said and I smiled at him.
"If you need anything don't be afraid to ask the nurses for anything." The doctor said and I nodded and I just looked at Alex.
"I'll leave you two be. I'll be back later to check on him." The doctor said and I nodded and went over and sat on the chair getting hold of Alex's hand and I just sat there and looked at him.
Alex's arm had a bandage on it and it looked like they pumped his stomach out of whatever he had taken.

"Please get better Lex. I need you, I was stupid for throwing you out, but I was upset. I thought you would never cheat on me. But you did, I hate you for putting me through hell. My heart was broken. Then you left me when it was everyone's funeral. How could you do that to me Alexander. I needed you more than ever and you left, like everyone else." I said but it came out as a big sob.
"But I can forgive you because I love you Alex. You hear me? I fucking love you. If anything was to happen to you I don't know what I would do. I need you like you need me. My heart belongs to you and only you Alex. Please get better, get better for me please. I need you Alex, I can't be me without you. You make me so happy, despite what everyone says about you. I can see every good thing in you Alex. I can't be me without you." I said and sniffed loudly and stood up and kissed his forehead.
"Please don't give up. You can fight this, you've lived on the streets and you got through that. If you can survive life on the streets then you can survive this. Just don't give up, for me please don't lose this battle." I said quietly against his forehead and kissed it again and sat back down and rested my head on the bed and messed with Alex's hand until I fell asleep.

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