You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

I somehow managed to lose Alex.
Don't ask me how since he never left my side or the house really but he has just disappeared into thin air.
I was beginning to really worry when Zack came back with Alex in tow.
"So I've found him wondering the streets lost in his own mind muttering to himself and he's bleeding." Zack said as I rushed over to Alex and threw a blanket over Alex which made him flinch away.
"Where about was he?" I asked and guided Alex to the sitting room and sat him on the sofa.
"He was just wondering the streets looking like he was going to do something stupid." Zack said.
I looked at Alex and sighed and got up and went to the kitchen.
Zack followed me.

"Jack what's going on? You've been so distant with everyone lately. I hardly see you anymore." Zack said.
"My family is dead Zack." I said quietly and felt tears come to my eyes.
"What?" He asked confused.
"My family is dead Zack. Some asshole drove them off the road and killed all of them." I shouted and felt the tears fall.
"When did this happen? And why didn't you come and talk to me?" Zack asked and went to move to hug me but I moved away from him because all I wanted now was my family.
"It happened 2 weeks ago, mum and Jake had a chance but they didn't make it. Now I'm on my own and I don't know what to do. Alex is literally losing his mind and I can't cope." I said.
"Maybe you should leave him Jack. You need to put yourself before Alex now." Zack said.
"I'm nothing without Alex. Without him I would be dead." I spat and looked at Zack hard.
"He is bringing you down Jack and you know this. I seriously don't see what you can actually see in him." Zack said.
"He's not bringing me down. I see everything what nobody else sees in him. I see someone who is full off life but doesn't know how to show it because he's been put down so many times in his life he doesn't believe in himself." I said loudly.
"Full of life? Jack, he was walking the fucking streets looking like he was ready to jump in front of a car. He has fucking cut himself, he takes drugs all the bloody time. He would rather go and have sex with someone else than have sex with you!" Zack said.
"So you wouldn't believe me when I say that him and I had sex right before he went wondering then?" I asked.
Zack looked at me.
"Well you better go and check yourself for STDs because I bet he's full of them." Zack spat.
I looked up and saw Alex.

"I will only say this once. I have no STDs and even I did I wouldn't risk Jacks life by giving them to him." Alex said quietly.
"I don't believe you." Zack growled.
"Whatever I don't give a shit what people think of me anymore." Alex said and walked out the room.
"Just get out of my house." I sighed.
"I'm not leaving you with him Jack." Zack said.
"Why? You scared he might kill me?" I challenged.
"He can't be trusted." Zack said.
"I fucking trust him with my life. He is literally the only thing which is keeping my heart beating." I said.
Zack just shook his head and turned round and walked out the house.
I just sunk to the floor and cried.

I heard someone shuffle out to the kitchen and sit next to me and a blanket being put over my knees.
I looked and saw Alex staring at the floor.
I rested my head on his shoulder and sniffed.
"Maybe its best if you listen to your friends." Alex said quietly.
"I can't lose you Alex." I whispered and looked at him.
"I have just made you lose another friend." He said.
"I don't care about them. All I need is you, and only you because I don't know what I will do if I didn't have you in my life. I fucking love you Alex. Without you I am nothing." I said and Alex smiled a little.
"I fucking love you too." Alex said and kissed me.
"Don't cry, I don't like it when you cry." Alex said and wiped my tears away.
"I can't believe their gone Lex. My whole family is just gone." I said and looked down.
I felt Alex pull me into his chest.
"I wouldn't wish it on anyone." Alex said quietly.
"I miss them already Lex." I sobbed into his chest.
"I know you do. But together we can get through this. Just one step at a time. If you need to talk about it then you can talk to me." He said.
I pulled away and looked at him.
"Under one condition." I sniffed loudly.
"Which is?" Alex asked.
"You talk to me as well." I said and Alex thought about it and nodded.
"But right now I'm not going to talk about it." He said and got up and offered me his hand which I took and he helped me up.
"I'm always here Jack." Alex said and hugged me which I returned.
"I know you are." I whispered and Alex picked me up and carried me to the sofa where he put a film on and cuddled into my back while messing with my hair to try and calm me down.

Notes

such a shit update.