You've got to hold on.

Alex's POV

Jack hasn't moved from the sofa for 3 days. He's even refusing to eat and drink. We found out that Joyce and Jake are both in a really bad and everyone else was killed in the accident.
I think it's really hard on Jack since no one can take us up to where Joyce and Jake so its making it even harder for Jack to cope.

I walked to the sitting room with a drink and something to eat.
"Babe wake up for me." I said and sat on the edge of the sofa and kissed the side of Jacks head.
Jack woke up and looked up.
"Sit up so I can give you something to eat and drink." I said and Jack sat up.
I smiled because at least he moved to sit up with is a first.
"Have a tea first, it cheers me up a little when I'm down." I said and handed Jack his drink and he sat back and I got my tea and did the same and cuddled into Jacks side.
"Have you ever lost someone?" Jack asked quietly.
"Yeah." I said and looked down.
"Who?" Jack asked again.
"My brother and sister." I whispered and looked down
I felt Jack look at me.
"What happened?" Jack asked.
"I don't know, I was on the streets and just barely talking my mum when she told me and after that I've haven't seen her." I said.
"I'm so sorry Alex." Jack said and I looked at him.
"It's fine. Anyway, I have to worry about you at the moment and we don't need me losing my marbles." I said and Jack smiled at little.
"You can lose your marbles if you want." Jack said.
"Well I'm pretty good at the moment, but we both know how quick it can all change." I said.
"That's true." Jack said.
"Come with me." I said and put my tea down and caught hold of Jacks hand and we went outside.

"You need to give yourself a break Jack. Having one joint isn't going to hurt you." I said and sorted a line of cocaine out for myself and did the line.
"I don't need drugs to give myself a break." Jack said.
"You hadn't moved from that sofa for 3 days, you didn't eat and your barely drunk anything. You have also been mute, you haven't had a bath or a shower. You are killing yourself with your mind. You need to give yourself a break." I said.
"And your not? Alex you take drugs nearly everyday, you can't go a week without self harming. You lose your mind nearly everyday. So don't tell me I'm killing myself with my mind because that is something you are doing because you won't open up and talk to me." Jack said.
I looked away from him.
"This is what I mean Alex. As soon as I say something about your family, your physical and mental health you switch off. I don't know if I can keep this up Alex. It feels like you don't trust me enough to talk to me." Jack said.
I looked at him.
"Don't leave me please. I trust you, but its hard to talk about it Jack. I really want to talk about it and when I get to talk about it I can't. Please believe me. I can't lose you." I said and Jack looked away.
"I don't know Alex." He whispered.
I sighed and got up.

"Where you going?" He asked and sniffed.
"Well I'm guessing that I fucked our relationship up by not talking and just fucking everything up so its just better if I go because I can't stay here knowing you don't love me anymore." I said.
Jack got up and walked over to me.
"You haven't fucked anything up." Jack said quietly and put his thumb and finger under my chin and made me look at him.
"I feel like I have though." I sniffed and felt some tears fall.
Jack wiped the tears away and kissed me.
"I can't lose you Lex. Not now, your literally the only thing which is keeping me alive and clean." Jack said and rested his forehead against mine.
I wrapped my arms round Jacks waist and held him close to me and Jack did the same to me.
"You still going to smoke that joint?" Jack asked.
"Yeah, you having some as well?" I asked and Jack nodded and we sat back down and passed the joint between us.

We was sat in the bath with Jacks phone looking through his social media like we always do when we're in the bath because we're oddballs like that.
"You seriously need to sort this out." I said as we looked through his Facebook.
" What do you mean?" Jack asked.
"Well for starters your not single." I said and sorted that out for him.
"Oh yeah." Jack said and kissed my cheek which made me smile.
"And you need to update your picture since you no longer look like this anymore." I said and looked through his pictures and used one of us as his profile picture.
"You can just be in charge of that shit now." Jack yawned.
"Well I will do that." I said and got up and got out the bath.
I turned round and saw Jack looking at me.
"Find something you like?" I asked and Jack just nodded and got out the bath.
"I do but I'm too tired to do anything." He said.
"Well get yourself dry and put some pants on and we'll go to bed and watch a film and go to sleep." I said and gave Jack my towel as I put some pants on.
"I like that idea." Jack said and threw the down on the floor and got some pants and put them on and we walked to his room and put a film on climbed into bed and fell asleep.

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