You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

Me and Alex had been left alone for the whole weekend while mum and dad took everyone away for a few days.
Which was really nice because it meant Alex could come out of his shell a bit more since he's still hiding a lot of stuff but he was slowly getting there which was the main part.

Me and Alex was cuddled in bed since we was making the most of having the house to ourselves.
Alex was being the little spoon like normal and I was behind him and looked at the scars on his back wondering where they come from.
Alex sighed and rolled over to face me.
"Don't look at them. They're disgusting like the rest of my scars." He said seriously and looked down.
I made him look at me.
"There's nothing disgusting about you." I said.
"Everything about me is disgusting Jack. Your just too kind to say anything." Alex said quietly.
"Why would you say something like that about yourself? You are literally gorgeous and everyone was a bit of you." I said.
"Because who would want to be with me? My mum threw me out when I was 13 nearly 14 because she chose her fucking man friend over me. I lived on the streets for 3 years. I've been raped god knows how many times that I seriously have no clue what I should do about it. I'm a fucking drug addict and I self harm and my head is all over the place. I'm fucking toxic Jack. You shouldn't want to be with me." Alex said and moved away from me and sat up.
I sat up and pulled him to my side.
"I want to be with you. I don't care what has happened in your past because we can both look forward to the future. A future with us still being together and being happy. You got so much to live for, don't let your past drag you back." I said.
"Well when I say I don't care I don't really mean it because I do care. I care about you Alex. Even if no one else does I will always care." I said and Alex smiled a little.

Alex got up and I could help but look at his bare ass.
"I know my ass is good looking and all that but you joining me outside?" Alex said as he turned round pulling my pants on and my hoodie.
"Quite happy looking at you to be honest." I said and lead back on my bed as Alex walked over and sat on me.
"Are you now. Well sadly I have cigarette cravings and since I can't smoke indoors I have to go outside." He said and kissed me.
"Is it just a cigarette?" I asked.
Alex rolled his eyes at me.
"Damn you ratted me out since I was also going to have a joint as well." Alex said and looked for my reaction.
"You should cut down on the weed." I said and sat up.
"Want me to go and take a load of cocaine? I know where I can get some." Alex said and pointed behind him.
I just frowned at him.
Alex moved and kissed between my eyebrows.
"Love kissing that when you frown." He said quietly.
"Weirdo." I chuckled.
"You should know." Alex said and got off me.

I got up as well, quickly put my pants on and pulled Alex to my chest and just kissed his cheek which made Alex giggle which was a rare sound and I loved it whenever he giggled.
"Put me down will you." Alex said and turned round to face me.
"Nope." I said and picked Alex up and had him over my shoulder.
"Jack put me down!" Alex said loudly while laughing.
" Where you want to go?" I asked.
"On the floor." Alex said and slapped my ass.
I turn round and bit his leg.
"Ow you asshole!" Alex laughed and the doorbell went.
I went off and walked downstairs with Alex still on my shoulder.
"Don't you fucking dare answer the door with me over your shoulder." Alex said seriously.
"I won't don't worry since Zack normally knocks and not ring the door bell." I said and put Alex down and answered the door.
"Jack Barakat?" A police officer said and I felt Alex hide behind me while getting hold of my hand.
"Yeah that's me. What's wrong?" I said slowly starting to panic since I haven't heard from either mum or dad or even Bandit which wasn't like them.
"Can I come in?" The officer said.
"Um sure. You have to ignore the mess, we was just getting round to tidying the house." I said and walked to the sitting room where Alex disappeared to the kitchen.
"He's not much of a talker or people person is he?" The officer said as he took a seat on the sofa.
"He's had a hard past. He doesn't trust people." I said and looked to the kitchen and saw Alex gingerly walking over to me and sat next to me.
"Okay, there's no easy way of saying this but your family have been involved in a accident." The officer said.
I grabbed hold off Alex hand and held it tightly.
"Is everyone okay?" I asked quietly with this horrible feeling in my stomach.
"There were only two people who survived but its touch and go if they'll make it." The officer said.
I felt Alex pulled me into his chest and kiss the top of my head.
"I'm so sorry about this." The officer said and got up and showed himself out and once that front door shut and broke down and Alex just held me close to him and rocked me side to side.
"I'll be right by your side Jack." He said quietly and i looked at him.
Alex kissed me and got up and left me on my own for a while since I wanted some space.

Notes

Don't know where this is heading anymore...