You've got to hold on.

Jacks POV

It was safe to sat everyone was one big hungover mess.
Alex was still flat out asleep and so was Zack and Rian really but since I was up I went downstairs and got myself and Alex a drink.
I went to the bathroom as well to get some painkillers as Alex head has to hurt after what he drunk last night.
I walked quietly back into my room and quietly climbed into bed which must of woken Alex up a little.

"Where'd you go?" He mumbled as he rolled over to face me.
"To have a drink since my mouth is really dry." I said.
Alex opened his eyes and looked at me and he really did look hungover.
"Hungover?" I chuckled and moved so hair from his eyes.
"Yeah, which is why I'm going back to sleep." He said and moved closer to me and flung his leg over me and did the same with his arm and moved his head onto my chest.
"Comfy by any chance?" I chuckled and started to mess with his hair.
"Very." Alex mumbled and was back asleep.
I thought while everyone else was asleep I would try and go back to sleep which I did.

When I woke up again I heard Zack and Rian talking and someone tracing patterns on my chest.
I looked and saw it was Alex tracing patterns on my chest looking really lost and looking like he was crying.
"What's the matter Lex?" I asked and wiped some tears away from his cheeks.
Alex shook his head and got out of bed and pulled my PJ bottoms on along with one of my hoodies and grabbed his tin which had all his weed and stuff in and he walked out the room and the back door slammed shut.
I sat up and looked at Zack and Rian trying to look innocent but something told me that they have said something to him which must of upset him badly.

"What did you two say to Alex?" I asked quietly since my head really hurt.
But Rian and Zack didn't answer me.
"What did you say to Alex!?" I said more loudly which made me wince along with Rian and Zack.
"We just told him not to hurt you." Rian said.
"Then how come he is in tears? He hardly cries unless something has been said to him which makes him feel unsafe." I said and looked at them hard.
"We are just looking out for you Jack. After what happened to your Grandparents you weren't yourself anymore. We don't want you going back to hurting and blaming yourself for what happened." Zack said.
"Have you even seen how happy I am with Alex? Yes I know its only been a few weeks, but I am starting to feel like my old self again." I said.
"He's a fucking mess Jack, you can do so much more better than him." Rian said and I shot him a glare.
"I know he is a mess. Despite how much of a mess he is in I fucking love him. After seeing what he had to go through every single day it makes me see how lucky we are to have a roof over our heads. He makes me see the different side of everything. I don't want anyone better because no one can be better than Alex in my eyes." I said.
"So you want to be with a person who smokes weed all the time because he can't cope? I never saw you as that sort of person." Rian spat at me.
"If you know what he has been through then you will understand why he smokes it, he does it so he can fucking forget and its the same with his drinking. He does weed and drinks to forget. I don't care what you see in me Rian, because if you can't respect my choice of being with Alex then I want fuck all to do with you and you can get out of my fucking house." I said seriously which made Rian look at me.

"He doesn't have to leave." I heard Alex say and we all looked at him.
"Your not losing your friends because of me. Which is why after thinking I think its best if I just go." He said and you could see the tears in his eyes.
"Lex, you don't have to go." I said feeling tears in my eyes.
"You are not losing your friends because of me Jack. I mean that you friends have been there for you and I haven't. You need your friends more than you need me." He said and walked over and picked his jeans up and took my PJ bottoms off and put his jeans on.
"I need you more Lex." I said quietly.
"I know and I need you too but I am going to come in between you and your friends." Alex said and walked over to me and kissed my forehead.
"I'm so sorry." He whispered against my forehead and turned round but I caught hold of his hand.
"Don't go please." I said feeling tears fall from my eyes.
"I love you." Alex said and moved his arm out of my hold and walked out.
I got up and went over to my window and watched Alex walk off.
"Jack.." I heard Zack say from behind me.
"Get the fuck out." I growled.
"Jack we didn't want him to leave you." Rian said.
"Well guess what he did! And its all your fucking fault! I fucking hate you, and I want nothing to do with the pair you so get the fuck out of my house and never come near me again!" I shouted and looked at them with running down my face.
Rian was going to argue with me but Zack caught hold of his arm and they walked out of the room.
I just cried harder and sat in my window hoping Alex would come home.

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