My entire body froze as I stared at the sight in front of me.

My boyfriend had his arms around Tay, who had her arms around him, the two of them making out, lips moving passionately together in sync, completely infatuated by each other.

It felt like I had just been shot in the chest, ripping through my heart, tearing it to smithereens.

I stared in nothing but pure shock at what was going on in front of me, Jack pulled away at the sound the door made when it opened, Tay was staring up at him with a huge, satisfied smile on her face. I felt sick as I watched Jack’s head turn and his eyes meet mine.

“Oh god, Alex, it’s not what it looks-”

I couldn’t take another second of it. I closed the door and moved my shaky legs down the hall, not knowing if I’d had the strength to even take a few more steps because I felt like I was going to collapse on the ground.

I was so horrified that I had no idea how to react to what just happened.
Maybe this is all just a nightmare?

I will wake up in Jack’s arms, and he will hold me, rub my back, kiss my forehead softly and tell me everything’s going to be alright, and I will always be safe with him.

My heart was pounding like a hammer, so hard it physically hurt my chest. My breathing was speeding up rapidly, I tried to wipe a tear from my eye but another one fell right after it.

I just caught my boyfriend cheating on me. Jack and Tay, were kissing.

The last person I see when I fall asleep, the person I love more than anything, the person my world revolves around… cheated on me.

I felt my knees give out and I reached my hand out to lean on a locker, putting all my weight into the metal door as I tried to comprehend what I had just seen.

It felt like the world was collapsing around me, the ground had fallen out from beneath me and I was falling into this bottomless pit.

I was overwhelmed by all of the thoughts and emotions running through me, an infinate amount of questions filled my brain.

How could he do this to me? I thought he cared about me.

Why would he cheat on me?
What led up to them kissing?
Have they done this before?
How many times have they done this before?
Was I not satisfying enough for him?
Has he cheated on me with other people?

Did he ever love me in the first place?

I sucked in a shaky breath, trying to process that now my entire life has completely fell apart.

“Lex, oh fuck. Oh fuck, goddammit, baby I didn’t-”

The second I heard his voice, the voice that was so familiar that it was almost like my own, the one that made my heart skip a beat, the one that told me he loved me, the one that promised he’d never do anything to hurt me, I lost it.

A waterfall of tears poured from my eyes, I covered my face with two, sleeve covered hands, my body shook as I sobbed.

“Baby, please let me explain, oh fuck. I’m so sorry, beautiful. Please, please don’t cry. I love you so much Lex, listen to me.” Jack rambled, wrapping his arms around me in a hug, placing his forehead right by my head, kissing my hair softly.

I flinched away from him quickly, the image of him with Tay was burned into my mind
I felt a burning sensation where his lips met my forehead, knowing that I wasn’t the last one his lips had touched.
They kissed Tay. Fucking Tay.

Tay who has had a crush on him since the day I met him, probably longer.
Tay who has done nothing to support me and Jack’s relationship from the start, only giving us disgusted looks from afar, creating arguments, and putting bad thoughts about me into Jack’s head.
I guess her manipulation finally worked.

With her pretty big brown eyes, plump, lip gloss covered lips, perfect choppy brown hair, and a smile that could stop traffic. Of course he chose her over me, why am I so surprised?

“J-Jack, how c-could you do t-this to m-me?” I cried, my voice shaking just as much as my whole body was with shock. Hearing his voice made me feel queasy, but the questions were killing me.

“I don’t.. I didn’t think, I wasn’t thinking. I don’t know… what I was thinking.” Jack barely choked out, obviously dealing with something in his own head right now that was causing the usually smooth and charming, Jack Barakat, to fumble and stutter his words.

Then the thought crossed my mind. The reason why I went to the stairwell in the first place.

I tried to speak but my vocal chords felt like they’d been cut. I was just left gasping for breath, feeling like my head was being forced underwater.

Jack’s soothing voice came into my mind, telling me to breathe because I was having a panic attack. But Jack betrayed me. He doesn’t want me to breathe, he wants me to drown.

“B-Brendon… he t-told me you were h-hiding something from me… I f-find you… k-kissing...What the fuck is g-going on, Jack?” I struggled to get out, I watched the fear in Jack’s eyes as the sentence left my lips.

“Oh my god, I can’t fucking tell you this right now…” Jack’s panicked voice breathed, shaking his head as I stared up at him with blurry vision.

“W-What?” I coughed, trying to get a hold of myself for at least a second but failing.
Jack reached out to place a hand on my back, but I jerked away from him quickly.

I was not the last person he touched.

I felt more uneasy the more I thought about it.
His hands on her waist, where he touched me.
Her hands around his neck, where I touch him

“I can’t tell you, I won’t do it.” Jack shook his head, trying to fight me but I could tell he knew he was doing the wrong thing.

“J-Jack!” I exclaimed, my voice breaking causing him to stare at me with tears welling in his eyes.

He has been hiding something from me.

“You remember Rian’s birthday party? You had the flu, so you stayed home-”

“Oh god, n-no. P-Please tell me y-you didn’t.” I gasped, more tears streaming down my face as ideas of what he was going to say ran through my mind.
I had a thought, if it was true, I felt like killing myself.

Jack stared at me, I’ve never seen him look so broken, and a small sigh past his lips.

“I cheated on you.”

Someone kill me.

I felt my heart shatter into pieces, I watched Jack’s expression change as he watched me react to what he had just said, but all I heard was silence as I turned and stared at the ground.

My world was ending right before my eyes, it was crashing and burning and exploding into a fiery mess that destroyed the one thing I cared about most.

The one thing I put so much love into, love I didn’t think I could feel for someone.
But I did.

I really did.

Everything I’ve known is a lie.

My back slid down the locker till I landed on my butt, I pulled my knees up to my chest and bawled.

“No! No Alex, no baby! Please, I love you more than anyone. She meant nothing to me-”

“S-She? Who w-was she?” I choked out, I’ve lost count on how many times I’ve wiped my tears, my sleeves were getting damp.
I looked up at Jack who was crouched down next to me, he couldn’t even look me in the eye.

“Jack tell me!” I sobbed, grabbing onto his arm, he started shaking his head.

“It was Tay.”

That’s it.

“W-Wait… You slept with her?” I stared at him in shock.

Jack promised me. He promised me he wouldn’t cheat on me.
That’s the only fucking reason why I agreed to go out with this asshole.
At the beginning of the year, when I’d just rejected him completely saying we would never work out, but he still managed to have me cuddle up next to him, and fall asleep beside him.

He asked me out on a date. The only reason I agreed was because I had gained trust in him that night before. I had come out to him and he reacted the best way possible, he was the first person I had to come out to.

I believed him when he told me that I was the only person he wanted.

Why did I believe him?

“I’ll never be able to express how sorry I am, baby. I regret it so much, I was drunk. I was insanely drunk, babe, I couldn’t even stand. It’s the biggest mistake I’ve ever made, my biggest regret ever. Nothing has changed, I still love you more than anything-”

“You n-never told me? For a month?!” I pinched my eyebrows together, so many overwhelming emotions ran through my head.

I trusted Jack. I trusted him with anything. I’ve told him everything.
There isn’t one thing about me that he isn’t aware of.

He knows about my general anxiety disorder, he knows about Tom, he knows about my parents.
He knows my favorite flavor of ice cream, he knows how hard it is for me to fall asleep without him, he knows my plans for my dream wedding one day, he knows everything.

I told him everything, because I trusted him.

This entire relationship was built out of trust, and being honest with one another.
I’ve never lied to Jack, once.

Honesty is one of the most important factors of being a couple, you need to own up to your mistakes.

But no, he lied.

My trust that has grown everyday since I met him, has been demolished.

“The sex with Tay-”

“Oh,”

Images began to fill my head, my imagination got the best of me.

I could just picture Jack and Tay, in bed together.

Jack kissing all the same spots he kisses me that make me feel weak, but on her body.

His hands on someone else’s body that wasn’t mine.
His words making somebody else feel like the sexiest person alive, at least for a little while.
Him moaning someone else’s name as he climaxes.

I hid my face in my hands and sobbed once again, shoulders bouncing as I cried.
I’ve never felt more humiliated.

“The sex with Tay meant nothing to me! That’s why I didn’t tell you!”

“You think kissing other people while you’re in a relationship is nothing? You didn’t think it was important to tell your boyfriend that you screwed some other skank?” I scoffed, sniffling after.

That was rude of me, Tay wasn’t a skank. I can’t believe I said that.
No.
Anger, jealousy, and pain was pumping through my veins.
She slept with my boyfriend, she is a skank.

“No! I didn’t want to hurt you for no reason! The sex was a drunken mistake and it will never happen again, so I thought you might as well not know because you’d be devastated! I didn’t want to break your heart!” Jack explained, he seemed that he has convinced himself that he was right in his argument.

“B-Break my heart, Jack? Too fucking late now.” I breathed, making Jack frown and lean towards me but I leaned away.

“Baby-”

“Who knew? Everyone?” my eyes widened as everything started to make so much more sence.

That’s why everyone was acting so strange, they were trying to hide the fact that Jack had cheated.
At least, some of them did. Memories started bubbling to the surface, where Cass had made subtle hints in front of Jack, that I was oblivious to, Brendon breaking Jack’s nose.

Brendon was the one who told me that there was something going on behind my back. Not even Jack, not even my boyfriend who I trusted more than anyone. Nope.

Jack nodded, making me feel even sicker.

It wasn’t just Jack. Rian, Cass, Hayley, Zack, Brendon, Tay, maybe even Vic.
All of my friends, lying.

“How could you do this to me?” I cried, Jack reached out to wipe my tears but I pulled away again, wiping them off my cheeks myself.

“I am so deeply sorry for hurting you, Lexy.”

“Are you sorry for what you did?”

“Yes! Of course I am!”

“You’ve been cheating this entire time.” I accused, my eyes widening as the idea came into my mind.

“No! I haven’t, I swear to god-”

“Why should I believe you? All you do is lie,” my voice cracked, I watched a tear fall from Jack’s eye.

I annoyed me how much it hurt to see him cry.
I’m the one hurting.
I’m the one crying my eyes out, sitting on the dirty school ground.

“I promise you, baby. Please, trust me on this, I know you don’t have any reason to trust me anymore but just believe me. I haven’t been cheating on you this entire month.” he moved his head, desperately trying to make eye contact with me.
Usually he would’ve just grabbed my chin and made me look at him, but I wouldn’t let him touch me.

“You lied about everything. You’ve been kissing her in stairwells, screwing her behind my back.”

“N-No! That was the only other time I kissed her!”

I had too many things to be upset with him about I was starting to lose track.
He cheated on me, and lied, making all of my friends lie to my face, and cheated again!

“Y-You just k-kissed her.” my jaw dropped as I finally started to process what happened.

Why would he kiss her again if he still ‘loved’ me?

“Baby-”

“Oh my god, I have no idea who you are.” I cried.

“I’m still me, I’m still the same Jack. Nothing’s changed.” he tried to calm me.

“Everything’s changed! My whole life is a fucking lie! You cheated on me, then lied, and cheated on me again! You lied about everything. You’ve lied about loving me.” I stopped talking because all I could do now was cry.

I don’t want to talk to him anymore. I can’t deal with this.
I placed my hands on the ground and tried to stand up, but fell over back on my butt seconds later.

“NO! Alex… don’t think like that, please. Things have happened, but my feelings for you haven;t changed at all. I’m still just as much in love with you as I was when I first told you. I lied because I wanted to avoid you being this hurt. Oh my god, I love you, please don’t cry. ” Jack sat in front of me, trying to talk sense into me but I barely heard anything he said.

“Y-You told me you loved me.” I breathed, staring at the ground, unable to look Jack in the eyes now.
I have no idea who the boy I was dating was.

“I do, you’re the only person in the world I love. You’re the only person I truly care about, I don’t give a fuck about Tay or what she thinks. It’s only you.”

“Stop wasting your breath lying… You don’t love me. You’ve lied all this time. You never loved me for a second, you used me, and got bored so you moved onto someone else. Just like what you did to everyone in your past, and what you promised you’d never do to me!” I sobbed, desperately trying to get away from him but I felt weak, my body felt like it was a million pounds.

“Shhh, Alex. I never lied about loving you for a second. Please don’t think like this baby, I’m in love with you. I don’t love anyone as much as I love you. I made a huge mistake, please let me try to fix this.” he told me gently, scooching closer to me.

“You lied about everything!” I pushed him away from me, finally getting the strength to stand up on wobbly legs.

I watched Jack get up, and I stared at the boy I used to know.
The handsome boy I fell in love with, the one who everyone falls in love with.

The charming man that makes you feel like the happiest person in the world until he finds someone else to use his charm on.

“You promised me you wouldn’t break my heart Jack. 5 months ago.” I sniffled, looking up at him with teary, red eyes.

“Baby, I’m so sorry.” he breathed, reaching a hand up to cup my cheek in his hand like he always does.

“Don’t touch me,” I flinched away from him.

“We can work through this, we’re strong enough. You need to believe that I’m in love with you Lex. Tay means nothing to me compared to my feelings for you. You’re the love of my life.”

“I can't believe a word that comes out of your mouth. We are done, Jack Barakat.” It pained me to say the words, but not more than knowing that he had betrayed me, and broke me beyond what I thought was possible.

“Baby…”

“Don’t call me that, I’m not your baby anymore. Never speak to me again.” my voice cracked with pain, a tear rolling down my cheek.

I turned around, pushing through the door of the school and walking outside.
School was over 20 minutes ago, I missed the bus because I was busy sobbing over Jack.

I have no ride home.

I sat down on a bench under a blossom tree, dead from the cold of Winter.
I placed my elbows on my knees and cried more than I ever thought I could.

I am finished with Jack Barakat.
He’s only history.

I flinched at the sound of the door opening, dreading opening my eyes, because I didn’t want to see Jack as he walked to his parked car. I never want to see him again.

I heard light footsteps walking toward me and I looked up, relieved that it was definitely not Jack.

“Oh shit, Alex? What happened?!?” the person asked me worriedly.

“Um, Jack cheated on me, then lied about it for a month, and I just caught him kissing the girl he cheated on me with. We broke up.” I admitted with a shaky voice, feeling weird talking about it because it was so soon, it literally just happened.

“Wow, that’s… That’s a lot. I’m so sorry.” he told me sounding genuine, I shrugged, feeling numb to his sympathy.

My eyes widened as he hugged me, and I was shocked when I didn’t push him away, and I hugged him back. I laid my head down on his shoulder, sniffling, trying to keep it together but failing as I let the tears fall once again.

He gripped onto me tighter, gently moving his hand up and down down my spine.

I was surprised how much this person was comforting me and calming me down.
Especially because this person was Kellin Quinn.

I didn’t even know him that well, he was in a few of my classes and we talked occasionally.
Not to mention, we both totally grinded with each other at Hayley’s birthday party.

Plus, we both through went through a similar experience. We just broke up with our boyfriends.

“Why are you sitting alone on a bench?” Kellin asked me.

“I don’t have a ride home…”

He nodded, pulling away from me, and placed a hand on my cheek, taking me by surprise.

No boy other than Jack has touched my face like this. His hand felt so much different compared to Jack’s. It was smaller, his fingers were thinner, and his palm was cooler to the touch, but it was comforting to my burning hot face, blotchy and covered in tears.

Kellin gently dragged his thumb along my cheek, wiping away the waterfalls that escaped from my eyes.

He leaned in and placed a sweet, gentle kiss on my cheek, a small smile appeared on my lips.

“I will take you home.”

Notes

oh
oh wow
wow
WOW

well that was heartbreaking

this is very much a lot
im in a little bit of shock right now, just like alex is, and some of you guys are

um
yeah
jalex broke up offically
and um
kellin and alex

kellin's going to be a huge character in this story guys
and remember the stuff that vic and jack said in the other chapter
(kellins a bit of a bitch)

i dont know if any of you guys predicted this happening
i mean maybe you did and your good at predicting stuff
maybe you didn't
oh well, it may be WAY too soon but you'll see how it turns out

the title of this chapter hurts me its so accurate
and the title of this story is obvious
the timebomb JUST WENT OFF

alex thinks jack just used him like what he used to do to people
alex thinks jack never loved him at all because he cant believe a word he says
"i'm not your baby anymore"
UGHHHHHHHHH MY OTP WHAT HAVE I DONE

i gotta admit i cried while writing this chapter
i have no shame
started crying very hard at the last parts alex and jack say oH MY BABIES

sorry this comment isnt as INSANE as my other ones

but PLEASE let me know what you think about all this in the comments
tell me your opnions on what alex said, what jack said, them breaking up, what you think about kellin, what you think about jalex right now

THIS STORY WONT BE INSANELY DEPRESSING FOREVER DONT WORRY GUYS

GOD DAMMIT THIS GIF
TOO REAL



title credit- Dancing With A Wolf