Jack


This is it. My relationship is ruined.

I’ll never hold Alex in my arms again.

I’ll never hear his beautiful singing in the shower the mornings when he stays over.

I’ll never cuddle on the couch with him, eating chinese food watching Home Alone.

I’ll never fall asleep next to him, listening to the adorable sounds of his snoring.

I’ll never kiss his gorgeous lips one last time.

Brendon is going to obliterate both of our chances of first love. It’s all my fault.
I did this to myself, I did this to the both of us.

Not only did I fuck up a life’s worth of happiness for myself, but I broke Alex’s heart in the process.

Alex depended on me for everything. It’s hard for me to even think of Brendon being Alex’s best friend, well first of all because he’s a stuck up dick, and second of all because he did nothing for Alex.

Nothing.

Who protects him from all the assholes who want to beat the crap out of him for no reason? Me.

Who dries his tears and keeps him from hyperventilating when he’s having a panic attack? Me.

Who convinces him that his body is beautiful, and he should love it just as much as I do?
Me.

Who comforted him whenever his parents screamed at him? Me.

Who fucking stays awake at night wondering how the hell I’m going to keep Alex happy when his home life is such a fucking disaster?

ME.

I love him more than fucking anyone on this Earth. Not his parents, not Tom, not Brendon.

I’ve been there for everything. He needs me.

But Brendon is going to tell him.

I broke his heart.

Well, I haven’t yet. As long as Brendan keeps his mouth shut.


“Brendon!”

I watched as the boy with glasses turned around, and gave me a furious look.

“I fucking knew it from the start.” Brendon seethed, and turned around and walked towards the direction of Alex’s last class.

I quickly ran and stood in front of him, instead of going around me like I expected he grabbed both sides of my shirt and pushed my back hard into a locker.
Damn, I’ve never been on this side of a fight before.

“Brendon! Don’t fight!!” Hayley begged, her voice breaking from the crying she was doing.

“Dude, I was really, really drunk.” I tried to explain, with my hands up in surrender.

“That doesn’t fucking matter! You betrayed him! I’m going to have to be the one to pick up the broken pieces of his heart!” Brendon asserted.

“You don’t-”

“I told him months ago, I warned him about you. I said, ‘Don’t get a crush on Jack Barakat. He breaks everybody he touches.’ How could you do this to him? Are you trying to make him depressed. What the fuck is wrong with you?” Brendon went on.

“I didn’t mean to! I was drunk and I had no idea what I was doing! It didn’t mean anything.” I admitted, his face still showed only anger.

“He’s fucking done everything for you, dude. You have no idea how much he’s in love with you and you go off and fuck other people. I can’t believe that I thought you changed. I thought that you moved on from your stupid sleeping around, cheating on every person you attempt to commit to. You said that you loved him-”

“And I wasn’t fucking lying!!! I do love him! I made a mistake and I’m dealing with it. Alex doesn’t have to find out!” I argued, watching Brendon’s eyebrows pinch together in confusion.

“Jack, he didn’t know about that…” Hayley mumbled from behind me. Oh crap.

“Doesn’t know about what?” Brendon repeated, puzzled by the information we had and he didn’t.

“I’m doing this for him Brendon. I’m protecting him. He doesn’t need to know.” I tried to convince him, and I could practically see the light bulb finally go on in his head.

“Wait... Alex doesn’t know about it?” his grip around my shirt instantly got much tighter.

“I am just going to forget it ever happened, we all are. For Alex’s sake.” I tried to keep my voice less angry and more convincing.
If he doesn’t tell Alex, then there’s nothing more to worry about.

“Forget about it?!?! You already fucking cheated on him, he fucking deserves to know the truth! You’re his boyfriend for fuck’s sake, he fucking trusted you with anything and you cheated, and now you're seriously LYING to him about it? At the very least he deserves a little fucking honesty! He is worth so much more than you, he’s always been 10 times a better person then you ever will be.”

“If he finds out it will break his heart, for no reason anyway! I still love him!”

“Maybe it’ll be for the better. I will be doing him a favor by getting him the hell away from you.” he grabbed his backpack off the ground and storming away.

“Don’t you fucking go anywhere, Urie. You are not saying a word about this to Alex, I swear to god I will kick your ass. I don’t care if you're his best friend, because you sure aren’t fucking acting like it now.” I yelled, not caring how loud I was, or how big of a scene I may be creating.

“Are you actually stupid enough, to beat me up? Do you think Alex will love you then? If you lay a fucking finger on me, Alex will never speak to you again. Not that he will anyway, after he finds out-”

“Stay the hell away from him right now, unless you want to get the shit beaten out of you.” I threatened.

I didn’t really know what was coming over me, Alex brought out a protecting side of me that nobody else did.
I wasn’t going to let anyone hurt him, not even myself.

“I am going to fucking kill you.” Brendon growled, eyes filled with rage.

“I’d like to see you try.” I challenged.

Watched his fist raise to collide with my skull, but the grip around my shirt disappeared instantly.
Rian grabbed Brendon and pulled him away, grabbing his wrist with one of his hands to make sure he didn’t try to swing at him.

“Both of you, just walk away.” Rian was always the peacekeeper, with a hand on each of our chests to make sure we were separated.

“Have fun fucking your boy toy now, asshole!” Brendan sneered, ripping away from Rian's grasp and hurried off in the other direction, Hayley followed him with her tears still pouring from her eyes.

Boy toy? I lunged forward to follow him, so I could slam his fucking head into the metal lockers, but Rian grabbed me by my wrist preventing me to KILL Brendon.

Is that how he thinks I look at Alex? Just a hot body to fuck?
Are you fucking serious right now?

“Calm down, Jack!!” Rian told me as I tried to pull away from him to chase after my new arch enemy.

“Dude, you know that’s not how I think of him as, I’m not just screwing him because he’s cute.” I assured Rian, and he looked at me like I was crazy.

“Don’t be stupid, we all know how much you love that kid. He just said that to piss you off more, I didn’t think it would work-”

“Well first of all, nobody calls my boyfriend a fucking boy toy. Second of all, I am beyond fucking pissed! He’s going to tell Alex, and ruin everything! All he’s gonna do is hurt him!” I exclaimed, running my hands nervously through my hair, trying to find ways to fix this. Nothing came to mind.

“We will think of something, it’ll be okay Jack.” Rian patted my back.

“I just love him so much…” I mumbled, and again, that dreaded picture of Alex with fat tears forming in his eyes and rolling down his soft cheeks made me want to break something.
Or someone, particularly Brendon.

“I know, and I know that Alex knows that too.”

Notes

WHOA
THAT WAS A LOT OF DRAMA
this story is CRAZY
jack is SO PISSED
and brendon is also VERY PISSED
poor alex, his two favorite boys hate each other

the next chapter is a little bit mellower compared to this one XD
and it has Tay in it!
she gets to be a bigger character soon so that's exciting :D

BUT THIS CHAPTER THO
OH MY GOSH I WAS FREAKING OUT WHILE WRITING IT

okay
what do you guys think?

do you think Jack has gone a little too far? Do you think he's doing the right thing?
Do you guys like Brendon's character/reaction to all this? Do you agree with him?

so MANY QUESTIONSSS

Rians outfit
Jacks Outfit
Brendon's Outfit
Hayleys Outfit

IS ANYBODY ELSE FREAKING OUT
I REALLY AM
THIS GIF IS VERY ACCURATE RIGHT NOW

title credit- Bottle and a Beat