Forgive me. Please?

Jacks POV

"Right then kiddies, go and get yourself ready for bed and go to our room." Alex said and sat up a little since he was lent against me and Isla and Archie was piled on top of Alex.
"Help me daddy." Archie said.
"I have to help Jack, why don't you go a steal one of my hoodies to go sleep in." Alex said.
Archie nodded and wondered off to our room.

"What's up?" I asked as Alex sat back and started to mess with my hand which was over his shoulder.
"I nearly lost him Jack." He said quietly.
"But you didn't okay. Don't think about what would of happened end if he choose the bitch. He chose you, that's all which matters." I said and kissed the side of his head.
"But I can't help think if he did choose her. I don't even think I could even live without him." He said.
He sighed and looked at me.
He moved his hand to the back of my head and pushed my head towards his and kissed me.
"What's that for?" I asked against his lips.
"Just wanted to kiss you." He said and kissed me again.
I smiled and heard someone walk into the room.

"Daddy?" Isla said.
I looked up and saw Isla in just her pants.
"What you doing without a top on?" I asked.
"Because you, Alex and Archie don't wear a top." She said.
Alex chuckled.
"That's because we're guys. You on the other hand have to cover your chest up." I said.
"That's stupid." She huffed.
"She won't hurt as long as she's inside." Alex said.
Isla looked at Alex.
"I've got your back kiddo." He winked at her and she smiled.
I sighed.
"You know she's gonna like the D when she's older." Alex chuckled.
"We are not talking about that in front of my 5 year old." I said.
Alex moved and sat on my lap.
"You know I'm right." He said quietly in my ear and bit it gently.
"Don't Alex." I said seriously.
Alex looked at me and smirked.
"I don't have a clue on what your thinking." He said and got off me and walked over to Isla and picked her up.
"Want one of daddy's hoodies?" He asked and she nodded.
"Let's go and find one then." He said and walked to our room.
I rolled my eyes and went to bed as well.

"So what we watching then guys?" I asked and climbed into bed.
Alex was having a shower leaving me with the kids.
"Home alone." Isla said.
"Christ she's your daughter alright." Alex chuckled as he walked into the room.
"Its a good film, hey Isla." I said and she nodded.
"Something else Jack. I'm not watching that rubbish." Alex said and got into bed and Archie went and sat on his lap.
"Frozen." Isla said.
"Nooooo." We all groaned part from Isla.
"I will literally shoot myself if I have to watch that again." I said.
Alex chuckled.
"Big Hero." Archie said.
"Yes!" Alex said and looked at me and Isla.
"Fall Out Boy. Its better than that other rubbish." He said.
I nodded and got off the bed and put big hero 6 on.

Alex had his head resting on my shoulder while Archie was asleep on his chest.
Isla was still awake and cuddled into my chest.
"What happened to your arm?" Isla asked and pointed to Alex's scared arm.
I looked down not really liking what he had to say because it was all my fault why he had the scars in the first place.
"I hurt myself." Alex said.
"Why did you hurt yourself?" Isla said.
"Isla stop." I said seriously.
"Its fine Jack." He said and lent towards me.
"I don't blame you okay. It wasn't your fault that I did this." He said quietly in my ear and kissed my cheek.
I looked at him.
"Don't blame yourself." He whispered and kissed me.
"I hurt myself because I was upset and angry with myself." He said.
"Why was you angry and upset?" she asked.
"Because I lost my mum and then lost the person I loved." He said.
I looked down.
Alex caught hold of my hand and squeezed it.
"What happened to your mum?" She asked.
"She was really poorly." Alex said and looked down.
"What was wrong with her?" Isla asked.
"Enough now Isla. Watch the film." I said and Alex looked at me and smiled.
Isla nodded and carried on watching the film.

The next time I looked Isla was asleep.
Alex was wide awake and was watching Archie sleep while messing with his hair quietly.
Archie was in the gap between me and Alex.
I moved and got off the bed and put Isla on my side of the bed.
I walked round and got on Alex's side of the bed.
Alex rolled over and faced me.
It was only then I noticed he was crying.
"Why you crying?" I whispered and pulled him close to me.
" I'm not." He sniffed.
"Your a terrible liar when it comes to crying." I said.
Alex chuckled a little.
"So? Tell me what's wrong." I said.
"Just thinking about mum." He said.
I just kissed the top of his head.
"Try and get some sleep." I said quietly.
Alex shook his head.
"I can't sleep." He said.
"Would say we could do something to help with that. But since we have little people in our bed we can't do that." I said.
Alex pushed me onto my back and sat on me and kissed me.
"We could always head to the shower." He said quietly and kissed me.
"Effort." I grumbled.
"Please." He said against my lips.
I sighed and kissed him as I sat up.
"The things I have to do." I chuckled.
"You love me really." He said.
"Yes I do." I said and got up with Alex still on me.

After our 'shower' we crawled back into bed.
The kids hadn't moved an inch so while the hogged my side of the bed me and Alex hogged his side if the bed.
"Can you sleep now?" I muttered falling asleep.
"Yes I can thank you." He said and kissed the end of my nose.
I smiled and got comfy.
"Love you." I whispered.
"I love you too." Alex yawned and we both fell asleep.

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