Miss You Already

Since Alfie's job was way better paying than what my stupid little job was so I became a house bitch as Jack calls me.
I had the TV on with the radio on loud singing away while tidying the sitting room since it was messy.

I just about heard someone knock on the door and I turned the TV down and went over to the door and opened it.
"What you doing here? Shouldn't you be at work?" I asked as I looked at Jack confused on why he was at my doorstep.
"Can I come in please?" Jack asked and looked at me and his eyes was puffy looking like he's been crying.
"You don't even have to ask Jack, you know that." I said and moved out the way and Jack walked in taking his shoes and jacket off but not his hat he was wearing.
"I know for a fact my flat isn't cold Jack. What's with the hat?" I said and Jack looked down.
'Want a coffee and we can sit on the sofa and talk about it?" I asked softly and Jack nodded.
"Go make yourself at home. I'll there in a second." I said and Jack turned round and walked in the sitting room and sat down.
I was worried since Jack was never this quiet even when he's ill, he would still be cracking jokes not being dead silent especially round me.
I put a shot of whiskey in our coffee and I went over to Jack and gave him his coffee.
"I put a shot of whiskey in your coffee. Our little secret." I said quietly and Jack smiled and put his coffee down and sat sideways and I did the same.
"Tell me what's wrong. I'm worried about you." I said and Jack smiled a little.

Jack took his hat off and his hair was all patchy and not like Jacks hair and he didn't have his signature blond strip in his hair.
"I'm losing my hair Lex." Jack said quietly and sniffed and I saw a few tears roll down his cheeks.
"Hey don't cry on me okay." I said and made Jack look at me as I wiped his tears away and pulled him to my side.
"I'm going bold." Jack sniffed.
"Your going to be the sexiest bold guy I know." I said and Jack chuckled and I kissed the top of his head.
"I'm going to be looking disgusting." Jack said quietly.
"At least you don't have to shave your pubes anymore." I said and Jack laughed which made me smile.
"Is that a plus side to having cancer?" Jack asked.
"Yes. Because now you don't have the problem of having the worry of cutting yourself while shaving." I said and Jack chucked.
Jack went quiet which was never good.
"Hey, if it bothers you that much then we can get you a wig. I'm sure they make wigs for men in your shoes." I said and moved some hair out of Jacks face and some fell out in my hand.
Jack moved his head and rested it on my shoulder and I put my head on top of Jacks.

"I have an idea." I said after we spent a while in silence and Jack looked at me.
"Instead of you seeing your hair fall out all the time how about we shave it all off." I said and Jack looked down and I made him look at me.
"It will help you come to then terms you are going to be bold instead of you having patches all over the place looking like some spotted animal." I said and Jack smiled and thought about it.
"Do it." Jack said and I smiled and got up and Jack followed my lead.
"We'll steal Alf clipper things." I said and I walked into my really messy bedroom.
"Jesus Lex when was the last time you cleaned your bedroom." Jack said and sat on the bed.
"Well considering we're pretty much fucking when Alfie is home I hardly have time to sort this room out." I said and Jack just rolled his eyes at me.
"Come on don't tell me you and Rosie aren't the same." I said and looked at Jack who looked down and away from me.
"Jack, come on buddy talk to me please. I hate it when you go mute on me." I said and walked over and sat next to Jack.
"She doesn't even want to be round me anymore." Jack said quietly.
"Jack that can't be true. Rosie loves you and I know you love her as well." I said and Jack looked at me.
"Maybe we aren't to be together anymore." He whispered.
"Here you fucking listen to me. You are not giving up on your marriage. You fucking worship Rosie and yeah the boldness will be something we all have to get used to. You two need to go out with just you two and maybe even spend the night away with just only you two." I said.
"What about the kids? We have 4 of them remember." Jack said.
"I'm pretty sure me and Alfie can look after them." I said and Jack smiled.
"You are really the best Lex." Jack said.
"Hey, we have each others backs don't we." I said and Jack smiled and stuck his middle finger up and I did the same and wrapped my finger round his.
"We do." Jack said with a smile which I returned and found what I was looking for.
"You ready?" I asked and Jack got up and nodded.

After half an hour Jack was completely bold.
"Christ your nose looks even bigger than before." I said and Jack slapped my chest with a smile on his face.
"Can I have my hair back now?" Jack asked and I chuckled.
"I'll just got and find the supper glue and glue all the hair back on your head." I said and Jack chuckled.
"I can now finally call you slap head." I said and playfully slapped the back of Jacks head which made him chuckle.
"Am I going to stay bold forever now?" Jack asked.
"I don't know Jack. Guess you'll have to find that out." I said.
"I don't know how I can thank you Lex." Jack said and looked at me.
"Just stay alive for me please. I need you Jack just as much as I need Alfie." I said and it was my turn to look down.
I felt Jack pull me into a hug which I returned.
"I need to go and pick the kids up. I'll let you know about the Rosie and that trip and see if we need yours and Alfie's services." Jack said.
"Okay. If you need to talk I'm here you know." I said and Jack nodded.
We both let go off each other and Jack looked at me.
"You okay Lex?" Jack asked seriously.
"I'm fine." I said quietly.
"You have my number if you need me okay. I might have cancer but I need to make sure your okay as well." Jack said.
"I'll be okay Jack. You need to go and pick your kids up." I said and Jack smiled and put his hat on and he felt.
I went back to clean the bathroom up only to find myself crying.

I managed to clean the bathroom and pull myself together before Alfie came home.
I was sat on the sofa playing my guitar lost in thought when I felt Alfie sit next to me.
"You've been crying." Alfie said quietly and made me looked at him.
"It doesn't matter." I whispered and looked away from him.
"Lex talk to me. You can't bottle what's going on in your head up. I know that it's probably something to do with Jack. But you can talk to me about him. I know how much he means to you." Alfie said.
I looked at him.
"You mean more to me." I said and Alfie moved and kissed me which I returned and moved and sat on his lap while deepening the kiss.
"I know I do. But talk to me." Alfie said and pulled back a little and looked deep into my eyes.
"Jack has no hair. The chemo has made it fall out and then I shaved the rest of it off." I said and looked down.
"At least you was there for him." Alfie said and I smiled a little.
"He's very lucky to have a friend like you." Alfie said and I again smiled.
" I'm sensing your in no mood to cook, so as a treat I will cook you your favourite and all you have to do is sit here and look pretty." Alfie said and I smiled and kissed him.
"But first you need to put me down." Alfie said and I smirked at him and got off him and just lead on the sofa.
"I might even treat you if your lucky." Alfie said as he got up and walked round the sofa and bent down and kissed me.
"It all depends on how well your behave." Alfie said quietly in my ear and it sent shivers through me.
Alfie chuckled and walked off and left me to my own imagination.

Notes

feel like I should start this story back up again...