Miss You Already

Jack and Rosie had gone away for the weekend meaning that the kids was going be running rings round me and Alfie which was going to be very entertaining.

"You guys be good for uncle Alex and Alfie." Rosie said to their 3 boys and 1 girl and they just looked at her.
"If you can't cope with them then just call me or Jack and we'll come home." Rosie said and I caught hold of her hand.
"You and Jack have had a rough few weeks. You two just need to have some time to yourselves and just feel normal for a few weeks." I said and Rosie smiled and pulled me into a hug.
"Your too good for us Lex." Rosie said quietly.
"You two just go and enjoy yourselves." I said and spun Rosie round.
"Right guys say goodbye to your mum and dad!" I said loudly and the kids came running out and said goodbye to Jack and Rosie.
"No trouble." Jack said seriously and quickly hugged me and they went off to wherever they where going.
"Are you and Alfie sleeping over?" Jacob asked who was the third oldest.
"Yeah we are. Is that okay?" I said and Jacob nodded and I picked him up as Alfie picked Erin up.

We had dinner which was a takeaway pizza with a beer for me and Alfie and lemonade for the kids.
After we had eaten we all bundled onto the sofa where I had Oliver and Erin cuddled in my side and in my chest while Alfie had Jamie and Jacob cuddled in his side and we watched boy Disney films and the odd girl one for Erin as the poor girl was out numbered.
"Is daddy still poorly?" Jamie asked and Alfie looked at me and I nodded.
"Yeah he's still poorly Jamie." Alfie said.
"Why doesn't daddy have any hair anymore?" Jacob asked.
"Because daddy is on some really nasty medicine and that medicine makes his hair fall out and makes him really poorly." I said.
"But its meant to make him better not make him poorly." Oliver said and looked at me.
"Some medication make people poorly before they can get better." I said.
"Is daddy going to die?" Jacob asked quietly.
We all stayed quiet for a while and I looked down and messed with Erin's hair since she was asleep.
"Being honest with you 3 boys now because I feel that you are old enough to understand this to some level." I said and Alfie looked at me.
"Alex don't. Its for Jack to tell them." Alfie said.
"Has daddy told you anything?" I asked and Oliver nodded.
"He said that he has something wrong wrong and that he has to have nasty medicine to make him better but it might not work." Oliver said and I looked at Alfie who just rolled his eyes at me.
"So daddy is going to die?" Jacob asked.
"No poo head daddy is going to be okay because the medicine is going to make him better!" Oliver said and got off the sofa and ran off upstairs.
I sighed loudly and got up being careful not to wake Erin up.
"Look after her a second. I need to check on Oli." I said and put Erin on Alfie's chest.
"You two be good. I don't want to hear a bad word from Alfie." I said and kissed Alfie and went to check on Oliver.

"Knock knock can I come in?" I asked quietly and Oli looked up and sniffed and nodded.
I walked in and sat on his bed and Oliver climbed onto my lap and hid his face in my chest.
"Your not going to die are you uncle Alex?" Oli asked and looked at me.
"I'm going nowhere because I need to keep an eye on your dad and Alfie." I said and Oli sighed.
"What if daddy does die?" He asked.
"Hey, we're not talking about that okay. Your dad is still alive and kicking and he is going to beat cancer butt. Just don't think about it okay. I know its hard but we have to think about the positive." I said.
Oli sniffed and I kissed the top of his head and held him close to me.
I was always close to Oliver, he was pretty much a son to me since I had him most of the time when he was a baby because Jack and Rosie was so busy with work.
"I promise that I will always be here for you Oli. Family sticks together." I said and kissed the top of his head again.
We stayed like this for a while and I stood up and carried Oli downstairs so we could watch films.

"Is he okay?" Alfie asked I sat down as close as I could to Alfie.
"Yeah, nothing what a uncle Alex cuddle can't fix hey buddy." I said and Oli nodded which made me smile.
I looked over and saw that Jacob and Jamie was both having problems keeping their eyes opened and Erin was sound asleep snoring quietly.
"Hey Oli you tell me what happens in the film while me and Alfie put the others to bed and you can stay up a little longer how does that sound." I said and Oli nodded and climbed off me and I reached over and picked Erin up.
"Jamie do you want to go to bed?" I said quietly and Jamie nodded and moved from Alfie and he got up and sleepily walked off upstairs and Alfie picked Jacob up who sighed loudly.
We went upstairs and put them to bed and went downstairs.

"Maybe it wasn't a good idea to talk about Jack like we did." Alfie said quietly as we was getting ourselves another beer and Oliver a milkshake.
"They know something is up Alf. I don't know how much Jack and Rosie have said to them." I said.
"Its not our place to tell them." Alfie said.
"They are all my godchildren. I wouldn't see them getting hurt and if we do have to explain to them what is happening then I am more than happy to tell me. I will not see them go through the hell I did when I lost mum and dad." I said and looked at Alfie.
"You guys are my family. And its breaking my heart that I could be losing not only my best friend but a brother as well." I said and Alfie pulled me into a hug and kissed the top of my head.
"I know, you are being so strong for Jack and for the kids. But you have to open up on how your feeling otherwise it will eat at you and you'll do something and I can't have that." Alfie said and I looked at him and he kissed me softly.
I smiled at him and got the drinks and went back to the sitting room.
I cuddled into Alfie's side and Oil sat on Alfie's lap cuddled into his chest.
"Well I know that you two are very good at keeping me warm." Alfie said and I couldn't help but chuckle and looked at Alfie who had fallen asleep.
"Bed?" Alfie asked and I nodded and moved and picked Oli up from Alfie.

I put Oli to bed and I went to Jacks room since that was wearing me and Alf was crashing.
I walked over to Alf and hugged him from behind and kissed between his shoulder blades since he was taller than me because I'm a short ass.
"You okay?" Alf asked and I nodded.
"Just tired. I don't understand how Jack and Rosie can cope as I'm bushed from those 4." I said and Alf chuckled and turned round.
"Well we better go to bed as Erin will be up early knowing her." Alf said and I yawned and nodded which made him smile.
Before I knew it Alf had picked me up which made me giggle and Alf kissed me which I returned.
Alf placed me on the bed and it was odd that the side I sleep on was also the same side as Jacks so all I could smell was Jack, not that I don't mind but I would rather have the smell of Alfie.
"All I can smell is Jack." I pouted which made Alf chuckled.
"Thought you would of like that." He said and I moved and rested my head on his chest and was quite happy listening to his heart beating.
" You smell better." I muttered and kissed his chest and Alf started to mess with my hair which made me smile.
" Sleep Lex. You really need your rest." Alf said quietly and I was fast asleep.

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