"Your fucking joking right!?" I said to Alfie and looked at him seriously and shocked.
"Nope. I'm being deadly serious. I want to marry you." He said with a huge smile on his face.
I smiled and pretty much jumped on him and kissed him hard.
Alfie chuckled.
"I take that's a yes?" He chuckled and looked at me.
"Of course it's a yes!" I said and kissed him hard again.
Alfie smiled.
"I'm sorry I've been ignoring you. I didn't know what your answer would be and I was trying to grow a pair and ask Jack and then asking you." He said quickly.
"It's fine. I really do forgive you especially because of this. Ask Jack? What did you ask Jack?" I said confused about nthe whole asking Jack thing.
"I know you haven't got any family and that Jack is pretty much family to you so I asked him if he would be okay if I asked you to marry me." He said.
"Well he must of said yes as I now have a ring on my finger, but what else did he say?" I said.
"He said that I was pretty much the only boyfriend of yours he liked." He said.
I laughed as it was true and Jack was always good at showing people he didn't like them and told them to fuck all the time.
"Its not funny." He grumbled.
"Yeah it is. Because even he can tell the good from the bad and im glad that he likes you." I said and kissed him.
Alfie smiled and wrap his arms round my neck and kissed my cheek.
"Now I can definitely call you mine." He said and pushed me towards the bed.

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"So what's new in the land of Gaskarth?" Jack asked as we sat in the hospital with him having chemo.
I smiled and showed him my hand.
"Fuck off he didn't!" Jack said loudly and grabbed my hand and looked at the ring on my finger.
"Fuck off he did!" I smiled widely.
"Ah Alex I'm so happy for you!" He said and let me have my hand back.
"And Alfie said I was allowed to have you as my best man." I said.
Jack looked down and smiled a sad smile.
"Hey, don't smile that smile." I said seriously.
"But what if I'm not around?" He asked quietly.
"You will be because I know you won't miss this for the world because you have been nagging me for the last 3 years when me and Alfie are gonna get married." I said.
He smiled a bit more of a happier smile.
"Even if I'm bald?" He asked.
"I don't give a shit if your bald. As long as your at my wedding I dont care what you look like." I said.
Jack chuckled.
"So.. Will you be my best man?" I asked.
"Course I will you ass wipe!" He smiled.
I sqealed a little which made a few people look at us.
"Don't mind him he's gay." Jack said.
I chuckled.
"We need to have drinks! After this we're gonna get fucked." Jack said.
"Do you think that's wise?" I asked seriously.
"Yeah, what the docs don't know won't hurt them." He said.
"Jack, it's 11 in the morning. It's too early to start drinking." I sighed.
"Never to early for a dying man." He spat at me.
I looked at him.
"Lex I'm sorry." He said.
"I have to be somewhere." I sniffed and stood up.
"Lex don't go I didn't mean it." He said.
"I'll see you later okay." I said and walked out the hospital.

It never really bothered me that Jack could die because in my head Jack wasn't going to die. He was going to be okay and me and him would grow old and still be the best of friends like we are now.
But when Jack said what he said it really hit home that me might not make it. He might not make it to the wedding.
And it really hurt.

I was sat at the park when i heard someone sit next to me.
I wiped my nose in Alfie's hoodie i had stolen this morning.
"Sorry for what I said eariler." Jack said quietly.
"Its fine." I whisped and sniffed and used Alfie's hoodie and wipe my eyes and nose again.
"Its clearly not fine because your crying and i hate it when you cry at the best of times but knowing ive made you cry makes me feel like right bastard." He said and pulled me to his side.
"Im fine honestly." I sniffed and wiped my eyes again but the tears just keep on rolling which was beginning to annoy me.
"Tell me what's up. Dont say nothing because something is wrong." He said.I pulled away and looked at him.
"When you told me that you had cancer I thought you would be okay and you'll get over it and we'll carry on like nothing happened. But when you said what you said it really hit home. That you might be dead before I even get married and i wouldn't know where to even start without you." I said but it came out as a sob and a new load of tears began to fall.
Jack pulled me to his side and held me close to him.
"I'll be there for your wedding. I'm not going to miss that for anything. You was there for mine and I'll be there for yours. I promise Lex." He said and kissed the side of my head.
I nodded and sniffed.

Since it was cold Jack took me home.
Since I didn't have my keys and Jack didn't have any keys he knocked on the door and we waited for Alfie to open the door.
"Hey babe." He said happily but looked serious when he saw how puffy my eyes was since I've only just about managed to get my shit together.
"Babe what's the matter?" He said and looked at Jack.
"He's just a bit emotional, he gets like it sometimes." Jack said.
"Think I do know my fiancé ." Alfie spat.
"Don't fight please." I said and stood between them.
"I'm just saying." Alfie said.
"I know you are, but I really can't cope with you two fighting." I said.
"Sorry Lex." Alfie said and kissed me.
"Sorry Alex." Jack said.
I nodded and walked over to Jack and hugged him tightly.
He returned my hug.
"I'll text you to show you I'm not dead." He said quietly in my ear.
I nodded and hugged him tighter once more and walked in side.
"Let Alex know when your home." I heard Alfie say.
"I will. See you later." Jack said and the door shut.
"Bath with me?" Alfie asked and offered me his hand.
I nodded and took his hand and went to the bathroom.

I was lead in bed with Alfie watching him do some late night work.
"Did you tell Jack?" He asked quietly and put an arm round my shoulders and traced his finger in circles.
"Yeah, he was really happy." I said quietly.
"That's good then." He said quietly.
I smiled.
"Your scarily quiet tonight, you sure your okay." Alfie said and looked at me.
"I'm fine. Just have a down that's all. I'll be fine tommorow." I said and kissed his cheek.
He turned his head so I kissed his lips instead.
He pulled back and looked at me and smiled which I returned.
Alfie sighed loudly.
"Fuck off its late enough as it is." He muttered and shut the his laptop down.
I lead down and so did Alfie and I cuddled into his side.
"Can we talk about weddings tommorow?" Alfie asked.
"Yeah, can always make a start on things." I yawned loudly.
Alfie chuckled.
"Night Lex." He muttered.
"Night Alf." I smiled and slowly fell asleep.

Notes

Can we talk about how fucking perfect Missing You music video is...