Miss You Already

"What a fine example your gonna be sending the kids." Alfie said as I watched him get dressed from the bed which I haven't moved from yet.
"I wasn't the one who gave me these hickies. I believe that was you." I said.
"But I wasn't the one who answered my phone while in the middle of having sex." Aflie said and looked at me.
"Technically your dick never went in me while I was on the phone. You was just covering me in bloody hickies!" I said seriously.
Alfie just smirked at me.
"Fucking hate you sometimes." I grumbled and got out of bed and got dressed.
I felt a pair of arms wrap round my waist.
"I'm really really sorry for covering you in hickies. I just went a bit over the top." He said and kissed my neck.
"A bit? My neck looks like a fucking black man." I said and Alfie chuckled.
"But your my black man." He said and turned me round and kissed me.
I smiled and slapped his ass.
"We better get going to your other half." Alfie chuckled.
"My straight other half." I said.
"Then what am I?" He asked.
"My gay other half." I said.
"Slutting yourself to two people where do your get the energy." He chuckled.
"Actually I only slut myself out to you. I just cheer Jack up and put a smile on his face and just be a really really good friend to him." I said.
"Which you do. Now we have to go." Alfie said and we walked to Jacks.

"Uncle Alex!" Oliver said loudly and ran over to me and I picked him up.
"Jesus Oliver your heavy." I groaned as I picked him up.
He laughed at me and hugged me.
"I've been replaced." Jack said.
"With your mini me." I chuckled.
Oliver seemed to like me more than the others but all of Jacks kids loved me.
"How about you go and give Alfie a big hug and see if you can knock him over." I said and in Oliver's ear.
He nodded and I put him down and he went running over to Alfie and knocked him to the floor and all them jumped on him.
I laughed.
"That was mean." Jack chuckled.
"Revenge for these." I said and pointed to my neck.
"Christ your neck has literally turned into a black man." He said and looked at my neck closely and poked it.
"Ow, don't they hurt." I said and smacked his hand away.
He chuckled and Rosie came out.
"Stealing my husband Gaskarth?" She chuckled and pulled me into a hug.
I kissed her cheek like I normally do when we saw each other.
"Yeah, but your can steal my boyfriend that way we're even." I said.
"Might just have to do that." She chuckled and went off to tell the kids to get of Alfie.
Jack walked off upstairs and naturally I followed as it meant he wanted a serious chat about something.

He was sat on the bed and I sat next to him.
"I can't tell them." He said quietly.
"Jack you have to." I said.
"I know but I don't know how to. How to I begin on telling them that I could die from this." He said and a couple of tears fell.
Normally it was me who cried so seeing Jack like this always took me by surprise.
I pulled him to my side and rested my head on top of his.
"You tell Rosie first. You have the exact same chat as we are having now. Then you can both tell the kids. Your not going to die because you kick ass all the time and you can kick cancer ass." I said.
Jack pulled away and looked at me.
"How can you be so sure?" He asked.
"Because I know my best friend." I said and put my hand on his leg.
He smiled and rested his head on my shoulder.
"Come with me next week when I start chemo." He said quietly.
"You don't even have to ask me." I said quietly and kissed the top of his head and rested my head against his.
"I'll be here for you every step of the way." I said.

We was all chilling in the sitting room watching some film the kids wanted to watch.
I cuddled up to Alfie and watching Jack and Rosie closely.
Jack looked at me and I smiled and cuddled closer to Alfie.
Basically telling him to grow a pair and tell Rosie on his own while I stayed here.
He said something quietly in her ear and they both went upstairs.
Erin went to follow them.
"Erin come and give me and Alfie a cuddle." I said and she nodded and wondered over to me and Aflie.
I heard Rosie shout and everyone looked towards upstairs.
"Why is mummy shouting?" Oliver asked.
"I don't know bud." I said.

By the time Jack and Rosie came downstairs Erin had fallen asleep on my and Aflie and we both had to go home since Aflie had to go to work and I had to go with Jack to chemo.
Rosie came over and picked Erin up and went upstairs and didn't look at me.
"Go and get ready for bed and go to bed. Me and mummy will come and say goodnight to you when your all ready." Jack said and he sounded worn out.
The kids got up and gave me and Aflie a hug and went upstairs.
"I'll let you two have a minute." Aflie said and kissed my cheek and got up and I went to nthe kitchen and Jack was drinking a beer.

"I'm in the dog house because I have cancer." He said.
"Just let it sink in. I promise you she'll come round." I said.
Jack looked at me.
"How do you know?" He asked.
"Because Rosie wont stay mad for long. Just give her some space and time to let it all sink in and then you two will be fine. Trust me." I said.
Jack smiled.
"What would i do if i didnt have you in my life?" He asked.
"I dont know. Wish i was in your life." I said and Jack chuckled.
"That's true." He smiled.
"I have to go, but I'm only a call and a text away." I said.
"Okay." He whispered.
I pulled him into a hug.
"Everything is going to be okay." I whispered and kissed his cheek.
"Fuck off gayboy." Jack laughed.
"Fuck off yourself big nose." I chuckled.
"Mature." Rosie said as she walked in the room.
"On that note I'm gone." I said and Jack stuck his middle finger up and I did the same until I was round the conrer.

"Is Jack okay?" Alfie asked as he climbed into bed.
"No he isn't." I said quietly and cuddled into his side.
"What's wrong with him?" He asked and started to mess with my hair.
"He has cancer." I whispered.
"Lex I'm so sorry." He said quietly.
"I'm not the one who you have to say sorry to." I said.
"But Jack has been your best friend since you where little." He said.
"Alf. I seriously don't want to talk about it. All we have to is be supportive and act like nothing is wrong." I said and wiped my nose in the covers.
"Don't cry babe. Jack will always be Jack." He said and kisses my forehead.
"I know he will." I said and kisses his chest.

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