Alex


Do you have any idea how hard it is trying to ignore Jack? It’s actually impossible. He is the most persistent person I’ve ever met, sending me messages practically every 5 minutes for 48 hours.
All weekend I’ve been ditching his calls and ignoring all his texts, I mean it wasn’t that hard because I avoided the bright light of my phone anyway because I was so hungover, but still.

I was dreading going to school, seeing Jack was the last thing I want to do right now.
All I remember from the party was my plan going terribly wrong, I don’t know what I did during her party but I can recall the end of it vividly. Me trying to hook up with Jack, and getting horribly embarrassed when he yelled at me to get away from him.
I can’t face him now, I don’t know if we’re having a fight or if he just wants to dump me at this point.

Maybe he won’t want to talk to me either, and we will just avoid each other until I have a mental breakdown and beg for his love and he will reject me again.
I shouldn’t have come to school today.
I wonder if Brendan will let me borrow his car to take myself home so I can bawl my eyes out.

“Alex!” I heard my name being called, thankfully it was not Jack’s voice. Hayley was gesturing for me to come over to her, Cass and Tay who were all in a girl circle. Oh no.

“Hayley, I’m so sorry about all that stupid drama with Jack I caused at your birthday party. I really hope it didn’t ruin your birthday.” I apologized, glancing down at the floor.

“No, it’s fine Bambi, I had a great birthday. The present you got me was really sweet and thoughtful.” she gave me a genuine smile. I gave her a box of these teas I use whenever I lose my voice, because I know she shares my love for tea, and she’s had trouble singing because it’s allergy season.
I opened my mouth to respond, but I felt a hand grab my wrist and forcefully drag me away from them. I looked up and saw Jack. No, I don’t want to talk to him!

“Let go of me!!” I demanded, pulling away from him but he was stronger. He totally ignored me, he’s such an asshole. Why am I dating him?

“Get away from me!” I ordered, but he just kept dragging me along.

“Stop it!!!” I begged, trying to pull away. Of course, he didn’t answer. I don’t want to speak to him
I guess now I had to resort to lying.

“Jack, you’re hurting me!!” I cried out in fake pain.
I knew that was the only way he would let me go, because he was a total sucker whenever I was in any pain.
His grip around my wrist disappeared, and I quickly turned around and hurried in the opposite direction.

“I can’t believe I fell for that,” Jack mumbled, grabbing me by my backpack, and pinned me up against a wall. No, I don’t want to converse with him.

“I don’t want to talk to you” I argued.

“Okay, then just listen.” he told me, I groaned and tried to push him off me.

“I don’t want to listen to you explain why you don’t love me anymore.” I whined.

“I’ve never stopped being in love with you, Alex!”

“Stop lying! I heard you in the hallway-”

“No you didn’t, you actually completely misheard me. Zack was wondering why all my past relationships were the opposite of you, and why the sudden change in type. I was telling him how much I love how sweet, innocent, and quiet you are, it might be why I lost interest in all the outgoing, loud, assholes, because i never really met someone like you. Once I did meet you, nobody else mattered. I never, ever want you to change, Lexy, I want you to stay the same guy I fell in love with, and who I’m still madly in love with.”

That’s what he said?! How did i mishear him so horribly?
How did I doubt him in the first place? I should’ve just talked to him and not acted like a stupid idiot, I’m probably the worst boyfriend on the planet.

“I’m so sorry, Jack. I just thought you were losing interest in me, I wanted to turn you on just as much as you turn me on. I felt like I wasn’t pleasing you-”

“There is no fucking person on earth that turns me on more than you. Even when you blush or bite your lip, it’s honestly enough to give me a fucking boner. You are the only person I love, and the sexiest person I’ve ever seen, and you please me every second of the day. No need to be sorry, Lexy.” Jack reassures. How did I ever doubt him?

“But… I am a little pissed at you.” he added, making me frown. Of course he’s pissed at me, I’m a sucky boyfriend that doesn’t deserve him.

“What did I do? Did I do something during the party?” I asked, puzzled.

“We will get to that later, but baby… I had no idea that my opinion on you meant so much to you. You changed your clothes, your hair, you wore cologne, and changed your attitude because you thought it would make me like you more. I’d never tell you to change anything, but if anyone does they don’t deserve even knowing you. Don’t be so flexible with what other people want you to do and be, because you’re perfect the way you are. I’d never want you to be someone else.
What I’m saying is… just don’t try to be what other people want you to be.”

A blush grew on my cheeks at Jack’s serious tone about me, I glanced at the ground unable to look him in the eye I was so flustered. He’s so sweet.

“Okay, I won’t do it again.” I smiled, making him smile and give me a peck on the lips.

“I love you so much Lexy, don’t ever change.” he told me, I blushed more if it was possible and pressed my face into his chest.

“I love you too,” I mumbled, feeling him kiss my head gently.

“If it makes you feel better, I wrote a song about all this.” I told him, placing my chin of his chest as I stared up at him. His eyebrows raised in surprise, he didn’t look very excited.

“Was it about how angry you were at me?” he mumbled sadly, playing with my hip bones with his thumbs as he had his hands on my pelvis. I giggled and stood on my toes to kiss him.

“No, I will show it to you later.” I promised him, he nodded and pressed our lips together. We started making out with my back against a wall for a few minutes until he pulled away from me.

“Wait, so you don’t remember what you did at the party?” he asked.

“No, why?”

“Nothing at all?” he asked again.

“Did I do something bad? Because I seriously don’t remember-”

“Thank fucking god, and you’re never going to find out.” he chuckled, looking relieved.
What did I do?!

“What happened?!” I asked him, patting on his chest in urgency.

“Never telling you,” he said simply.

“Jack-”

“No, I never want it spoken about again, okay? I just want to erase it from my mind.” he dismissed me, making me groan. I can always find out from Brendon or Cass, I don’t know why he refuses to tell me. It can’t be anything that bad.

“Whatever,” I mumbled, looking down at the ground.

“Hey,” he said, tipping up my head to look up at him with a finger on my chin.

“Look, I don’t care if you ask Brendon or that shit, I just never want to talk about it. You didn’t do it on purpose, but thinking about it actually makes me want to throw up. I can’t stand the thought of it, so I just want to forget it happened because you were so drunk it wasn’t even the real you. Okay? I love you baby, you mean the world to me, and I never want to lose you.” he explained, making my heart flutter.
I wrapped my arms around his middle in a tight hug, and he did the same with me.

I could tell that I probably kissed or danced with someone else that wasn’t him. If I couldn’t even remember it now, and if he didn’t want to talk about it, I see no reason to even worry about it. It’s in the past.

“You’ll never lose me.” I promised.






Jack
(day later)

I don’t think there are many things that I hate more than fighting with Alex. Actually no, I hate Alex deliberately avoiding me like he was all weekend. I also hate the sight of him grinding too of my best friends.
But fighting with him is definitely one of the top 5 things I hate most in the world.

It usually always is a misunderstanding, or me being an idiot, and crawling back to Alex on my hands and knees. Alex never does anything wrong, he would never do anything to hurt me, and he knows whenever I hurt him, it’s usually in his head, with scenarios he made up by himself.

Alex wanted to come over today, but I have to buy his birthday present, I should probably get Rian one too since it’s only a few days after. Everyone is having so many birthdays lately, it’s nuts.
But I was so excited for Alex’s birthday, because I knew exactly what to get him.
I’ve always wanted to buy him his own electric guitar, and now is the perfect time to get him one.
I’m friends with a guy who owns a guitar store in the mall, and he always gives me discounts whenever I go there because he really likes me. We are pretty good friends, sometimes when his workers flake out on him, he calls me and I handle a few of their shifts.

He always says that he owes me a favor, and today is the day that I’ll be taking him up on that.

I knew just the guitar for him too. It was a black Fender classic ‘72 deluxe, and it was 300 bucks.
It sounds like an insane amount of money to spend on him, but I have money in my bank account to blow, and I know how badly Alex has been wanting this guitar.

When I took him into this store, he stopped and stared at it for a good 10 minutes. At that time he had no idea that the reason I brought him there was to let him pick out his own guitar that I was going to buy him, even though he had no idea. I knew this was the perfect gift for him.

He is so incredibly talented, he really deserves this.

Even though his parent’s would never get him an electric guitar, that doesn’t mean I wasn’t.
If they found out I bought it for him they would probably get super pissed, so he could keep it at Rian’s where we have band practice, or at mine, because he goes to either one everyday. I knew I couldn’t not get Rian anything either, so I got him a new kick pedal for his drums and a Ravens sweatshirt. It’s not nearly as good as Alex’s gift, but no other gift that I would give to other people would be anyway.

I got a really good discount on the guitar, and just as I walked out of the store, guitar case in my hand, my phone rang. I groaned as I looked at the caller Id, but answered it anyways.

“Go fuck yourself,” I answered.

“I can’t even begin to tell you how sorry we are, Jack.” Vic said through the phone, I rolled my eyes.

“I don’t want to talk to you asshole.”

“We were really, really drunk dude.” he said, but I knew he could barely convince himself that it was okay.
I already told him to imagine me grinding with Kellin, and he yelled at me for mentioning the thought.

“You were humping my boyfriend,”

“I’m sorry,”

“Do you even remember what you did to Alex? You totally just used him as a hot body to try to get lucky with.” I argued.

“We didn’t use him!!” I could hear Kellin’s voice from near Vic’s phone.

“He couldn’t even stand!!”

“Yeah, but he sure could dance.” At this point I think Kellin had just taken Vic’s phone completely.

“You totally fucking took advantage of my innocent boyfriend.”

“Oh, well your INNOCENT little boyfriend was grinding with me just as much as I was with him, and he’s a lot dirtier and less innocent than you think-”

“Shut the fuck up! I’m going to kill you the next time I see you Kellin, you better fucking watch your back. I seriously can’t believe you guys.” I interrupted him.
I can’t stand hearing him talk about Alex like that.

“I’m sorry dude, you know we wouldn’t have that shit while we were sober.” Vid had taken the phone back and apologized.

“With you two being such assholes right now, I find that fucking hard to believe.”
I hung up the phone, shoving it back in my pocket.

How am I friends with them? At least, why am I friends with Kellin.?
I never realized how much of a dick he was until now, he just walks all over Vic and does what he wants.
I could tell that Vic was actually being sincere, but I know Kellin had no regrets.
He’s always had a thing for Alex ever since he first moved here, he would’ve grinded with him like that if he hadn’t had a drink in days.

I don’t want to be in a bad mood, so I called the only person who really knows how to cheer me up.

“Guess who just got your birthday present?” I asked, and heard a giggle on the other end.

“Jack! Seriously, I don’t want anything for my birthday! You don’t have to get me anything.”
Alex tried to convince me, but I know that’s a lie. I’ve seen the way he gawks at my guitars, he wants one so bad.

“Well, too late now. I know you’re going to love it, baby. Gotta go, not done shopping for you, my birthday boy.” I chuckled, and walked into a store that looked like Alex would shop at.

The lights were dimmed, there were weird pictures on the walls, and the whole placed smelled like cologne. I swear he’s dragged me in here before, so maybe I should just get him some clothes too. I swear, my bank account is huge.

“Please don’t spend money on me!” he begged, and I scoffed. Too late for that.

“Love you!!!” I told him.

“Love you, Jacky.” I could hear the smile in his voice, and I hung up the phone.

Yup, instant mood booster.

I found a pair of grayish denim jeans, with a white american flag printed on the thighs, i thought it was kind of funny because he’s from england, and they would also look really good on him
I knew his pants size by heart, which was weird, but i memorized everything about him.

He’s going to love it.

Notes

awhhhh
cute chapter for a cute jalex
see, i wont let them be mad at eachother for too long, i think it's impossible XD
whenever they fight it only lasts a chapter lol

GUYSSSSSSSSS
THERE IS 3 FUCKING CHAPTERS LEFT
THREE
ONLY THREE

THIS STORY IS MY BABY
IT'S GROWN UP SO FAST

and i know im rapid fire posting i just want to
okay, okay

i want everyone to prepare themselves for the ending
get ice cream, get tissues, get something to smash
its gonna be CRAZY

but the next two chapters are super nice and awesome so its okay
i will just leave you
with this lovely gif
cuz jack just baught the american flag pants
and LOOK AT ALEX HES THE BEST



Title Credit- Holly Would You Turn Me On