Alex

If Jack wanted me to be a jerk, then I’ll be a jerk.

Except I have no experience being a jerk, for fuck’s sake my two nicknames are ‘Bambi’ and ‘teddy bear.’ I don’t know how to be mean, I guess I should just act like Jack when he’s around other people.

I still have no idea why he got bored with my normal personality, he said that it was his favorite part about me. Was he lying when he told me that?
Did he just lie to sleep with me or something, and I got too clingy?

Ugh, I can’t think about this, I will just start crying, and Jack will probably be even less attracted to me. I just can’t be nice, or sensitive, or just anything like myself.
I am really going to have to get super drunk at Hayley’s party, which I wasn’t planning on doing, I just don’t think I will be able to spend a whole night being rude to Jack while sober.

Maybe I will just ignore him, even though that also sounds really hard too. Knowing Jack, he’s just going to back me up against a wall demanding to know what was the matter with me.
Wait, this is what he wants, so i guess he might enjoy it. I’m so confused, it’ll all be easier once I’m drunk.

Hopefully I don’t do anything stupid.

This whole situation that I was in even inspired me to write a song. As soon as I got home I scribbled down lyrics that were popping up in my head. It’s about being a nice guy, but acting like a jerk for someone to like him.
I called it ‘Bad Enough For You,’ and I think it’s pretty catchy.

I tried to dress a little less ‘Alex,’ so instead of wearing a nice t shirt and a beanie, I put on a pair or skin tight camo jeans, combat boots, a black skull shirt, a necklace and a black jacket.
I really liked it, it looked a lot more edgy than my usual fashion, I’m sure Jack will like it

I snuck into Tom’s room and used some of what he calls his ‘sex cologne.’ Apparently it just makes people want to fuck you, so that would be helpful.
I used hairspray to make my hair look a little bit more messy and sexy, and stared at myself in the mirror.
I look nothing like myself, but I think Jack will love it. Now I just have to be an asshole to him and he will like me again.

I said bye to my parents, and quickly left before they could catch a glimpse of my appearance. They would’ve commented on my jeans being too tight, or my hair looking like I just woke up, and I can’t afford anything but confidence right now.

“DAMNNN,” Cass rolled down the passenger window and shouted.
I blushed as I got into the backseat. I tried to ignore the fact that this was the first time I will be getting into a car with Rian ever since the accident. It’s a good thing that the driver that hit us had insurance to pay for the repairs of this car, or we all would be out of a ride.

“Whoa Alex you look really hot.” Cass told me, and I blushed even more.

“What?!” Rian whined, gesturing to his body, waiting for a compliment from his girlfriend.

“You look hot too Rian,” I chuckled.

“Thanks Bambi, at least somebody thinks I’m hot.” Rian glared at his girlfriend.

“Ri! You always look hot!” Cass told him, leaning over to kiss his cheek.

“You guys are the cutest,” I smiled. That’s what people say about me and Jack, but I think it’s really Cass and Rian. At least they accept each other for who they are.



When we walked in I tried to go into full on douchebag mode, because I knew that I would most likely ruin my whole plan by just being super nice with Jack.

There was already 50 or more people here, great, this means I have to socialize. The entire house was decorated with colorful streamers and balloons, the lights were dimmed so the flashing neon lights would be more intense, and the music was blaring from the stereo.
I hope nobody has a seizure from all of this.

I watched as Jack came out of the kitchen with a plastic cup in his hands, shockingly he didn’t seem completely wasted like he usually was when I first showed up to parties.
His eyes widened and his jaw dropped when he saw me, and reached out to wrap his arm around my waist but I took a step back.

“Holy shit! You look really sexy, babe!!” he told me, not even slurring. I don’t know if being mean to him would be easier or harder with him not being drunk, but I do know it would be a lot easier if I was.

“It’s just a jacket,” I shrugged, Jack ran his hand down my arm making me cringe.

“And you look really good in it… are you wearing cologne?” he asked, confused.
I usually never wear that kind of stuff, I should’ve known he’d notice.

“Yeah,” I gave him a one word answer, not looking at him in the eyes.
I got to get away from him.

“It smells really good,” Jack put a hand on my lower back, leaning in to sniff my neck but I quickly pulled away and took a few steps away from him.

“Uh, I’m going to hang out with Vic and Kellin.” I told him, pointing with my thumb to where the couple were dancing on the edge of the huge crown in the living room.
Jack looked really confused, I don’t know why, this is what he wanted.

“Oh o-okay, do you want me to get you a drink?” he asked thoughtfully.

“I can get it myself,” I said shortly, watching Jack’s face fall before I walked away.
I instantly felt a pang of regret, I didn’t want to make him feel bad.
No, this is for him, if he doesn’t want me to be nice, then that’s what he’s getting.

I felt Jack’s eyes burning my back, I knew he was watching me as I went over to Kellin and Vic. On my way there I took two shots of vodka that were on the kitchen counter. I didn’t even know them too well, but I knew they were both partiers, and that’s what I’m gonna be tonight.

“Hey guys!” I greeted, already feeling buzzed.

“ALEX!!!” Kellin yelled, giving me a hug and practically jumping into my arms even though he was taller. Vic started ripping off my jacket I was wearing and he tossed it on the floor.
Alright then.

“You need to be more drunk,” Vic slurred, going to the coffee table that we were next to, picked up two shots of a clear liquid that I assumed was tequila.
Gross, I hate tequila.
I bent my head back and swallowed both shots of the disgusting drink, feeling the back of my throat start to burn.
Fuck, now I was really getting drunk.

“That’s better,” Vic laughed, I was practically swaying on my feet already.

“Dance with us,” Kellin begged, grabbing both of my hands and bringing me closer to the crowd.

“I can’t dance,” I slurred as I tripped over air, Vic caught me immediately before I face planted.

“Sure you can! Come here you,” Vic grabbed me by the hips, and started grinding up on my ass, and soon enough Kellin was pressing his ass up on my dick.

Shit, this escalated quickly.

This can’t be good, Jack will actually kill the both of them if they seeing me in the middle of Vic’s dick and Kellin’s ass. I glanced around for my boyfriend but he was nowhere to be seen, wait, this is good.
It’s what Jack wanted.

It was a little uncomfortable being in a grind train, or a grind sandwich, a grinder. I giggled to myself at the thought of my wordplay. Wow, I’m drunk.
I wrapped both of my hands around Kellins waist, pressing him closer into me as we moved our hips in circles in sync.
I could feel Vic’s boner being pressed up against my ass, and it wasn’t helping my situation either.
I was having a lot of fun without Jack, Vic and Kellin seriously know how to party.

I looked up from placing kisses on Kellin’s neck when I had a tap on my shoulder, and saw a girl with bright orange hair staring back at me.

“HAYLEYYYY!” I screamed, detaching myself from the both of them making them whine, so I could give her a hug.

“Hi Bambi!” she exclaimed.

“Happy Birthday!!!” I slurred, leaning on her so I wouldn’t fall over. Vic handed me a red plastic cup of whiskey, and instead of sipping it I bent my head back and swallowed it all.

“Thanks! Have you talked to Jack? He’s been looking for you.” she told me with concerned eyes. What’s her deal? I’m just trying to have a good time.

“Why would I… want to talk to him?” I burped unintentionally in the middle of my sentence.

“Because I think you misunderstood what you heard before-”

“All I know, is that Jack doesn’t love me.” I interrupted her, throwing my arms up in the air with defeat.

“I LOVE YOU ALEX!!!” Kellin screamed.

“I LOVE YOU KELLIN!” I jumped into his arms.

As I wrapped my arms around his neck, he placed his left leg in between my legs, put his hands on my lower back to push my closer into him, and started swaying his hips in circular motions, pressing onto my dick.

Oh, front facing grinding, dirty dancing style, I’ve never done this before. Oh well, I’ve been told I’m a really good dancer by multiple people, so I’m sure I’ll do it right.

I rolled my hips in sync with him, and I felt his both hands slip down from my back and groped my ass. It felt really weird this being close, and having my ass being squeezed by another dude that wasn’t Jack.
I started to feel a bit uncomfortable until Kellin started kissing my neck. I gasped lightly making him chuckle, and closed my eyes, enjoying the sensation of him biting and sucking on my neck.

He grabbed one of my legs so it was lifted up my his hip, and continued grinding onto me as he held my thigh in his hand.
I moaned as he sucked behind my ear, and I could feel his boner on the inside of my thigh.
Our hips grinded together in unison, at this point I think we were just dry humping.

“Alex… what the fuck do you think you're doing?”

My eyes widened as I turned at saw my boyfriend, looking extremely pissed off, seconds away from throwing punches into Kellin. Damn, I’ve never seen him look so angry. I looked down and pulled my leg away from Kellin’s greedy grasp, realizing I shouldn’t have done this.

“Oh shit it’s my boyfriend,” I slurred, unable to stand up without Kellin supporting me.

My legs fell out from under me, until Jack quickly caught me before I hit the ground. I leaned into him and he held me close to his body tightly, as he looked like he was contemplating kicking Kellin’s ass.

“Alex, can I talk to you in private.” Jack muttered angrily.

Oh boy, it’s getting serious, he always gives me a nickname, he never calls me Alex.

“Whatever you have to say, you can say it infront of us!” Kellin slurred, in attempt to start fighting Jack.
Jack got ready to punch Kellin in the jaw until once he let go of me, my legs became weak again, and Jack caught me right before I fell the second time. Whoa, I didn’t think I was this drunk.

I squealed as Jack picked me up bridal style, I wrapped my arms around him and placed kisses all over his neck as he brought me upstairs to his room.
Oh, now it’s time to fuck.

He gently laid me down on his bed, too gently. I don’t want gentle sex.
Oh yeah, he wants me to be more dominate, I can be more dominate.

“Listen to me Lex, what you heard-”

“Shhh, don’t talk.” I interrupted him.
I sat up and ripped off my shirt and tossed it on the floor, Jack stared at my chest with wide eyes. I know how much he loves when I take my shirt off, I can’t blame him, I know I’m irresistible.

“But-” I pressed my lips to his before he could talk anymore, pinning him down so I would be on top for once.
I pulled off his shirt and started kissing his neck, grinding my hips down on his to turn him on. Being assertive is fun, Jack’s enjoyment was practically all in my hands.
I was in charge now. Is this what it was like having sex with myself?

He opened his mouth to protest but I kissed him before he had the chance to speak. I pushed my tongue into his mouth, but he started shaking his head, and pushing me away.

What the hell? I sat down on his hips and stared at him confused.

“Alex, stop! Please!” he told me.

“I’m trying to give you what you want!” I argued, leaning back in trying to kiss him once again.

“What do you mean?” he asked.

“I heard you talking about how you hate how timid I am, and how unassertive I am in our relationship, I’m trying to be more dominant so you will like me back” I explained drunkenly, and reached down and started kissing his neck again.

“This isn’t what I want Alex! Get off me!” Jack argued, pushing me back onto the other side of the bed.
Wow, he really is done with me. I just try to give him what he’s been wanting and he doesn’t even enjoy it. I guess Jack has completely lost interest in me.
He doesn’t want me to have anything to do with him. This is unbelieveable.

I stood up, thankfully regaining some control over my legs, and picked up my t shirt and put it back on. He doesn’t like me at all, he doesn’t even want to have sex with me.

“Please let me explain, baby.” he begged, getting up from the bed to stop me.

I don’t want to hear why he doesn’t love me anymore. I felt tears roll down my cheeks, Jack quickly reached out to comfort me but I jerked away from him.

I left, and slammed the door on the way out.




Jack

(earlier that night)

I seriously didn’t understand why Alex didn’t want to hang out with me.
I’m his boyfriend, and he chose to go off and dance with Vic and Kellin, two guys that he barely knows.

What is going on with him? Did I do something to piss him off?

I don’t know what I did, but he has never been that rude to me before. Usually when he’s mad he just gets emotional and tells me what’s going on, I would rather him do that than be an asshole and ignore me.

What has gotten into him?

I stood up on my toes to look around for the three of the boys but they disappeared into the crowd.

“Would it be awkward if I turned off the music just to shout ‘ALEX’ so I could find him?” I asked Rian and he rolled his eyes and scoffed.

“That’d be extremely awkward.” he responded, with his arm around Cass who hasn’t left his side. Why can’t Alex stick next to me like Cass and Rian?

My eyes widened as Hayley walked over to us, I immediately wrapped my arms around her in a big hug.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” I shouted obnoxiously, making her giggle.

“Thanks!! Thanks for letting me have my party here too, but… Jack… do you know what Alex is doing right now?” she asked me with concerned eyes.

“No, he’s been ditching me all night.” I told her.
I just figured I should give him some space if that’s what he wanted.

“Where is he anyway?” Cass asked, squinting her eyes to see through the crowd.

Hayley sighed, grabbing onto my hand and dragging me a few feet away, and pointed to the middle of the crowd.

Oh my fucking god.

Alex, my innocent, sweet, boyfriend, is in the middle of a fucking grinding train.

I watched as Vic grinded against Alex’s ass, while Alex had his hands around Kellin’s waist, grinding on him.
I felt like I was going to throw up.

“WHAT THE FUCK, IS HE SERIOUSLY-”

“He’s drunk, they all are, he can’t be doing that on purpose.” Cass told me. Well obviously.

“He told me earlier today that he heard you talking about how you told like him anymore, apparently you get turned off my his personality.” Hayley stated.

“What?! I literally said the opposite of that!” I argued.

How could he think I get turned off my his personality? I’m in love with him!
I love his innocence, I found it completely charming and adorable.
His kind heart makes me want to be a better person, his sweet and easygoing temperament is a huge part of why I love him so fucking much.

Me, Rian, and Zack were talking about the exact opposite from what we heard. I had no idea he was even listening, I wish I did know because he obviously didn’t hear us right.

So he was trying to act like an asshole on purpose for me to ‘like’ him? Oh my god, Alex.

Seeing what Vic and Kellin were doing to him made me even more pissed off. He has no idea what he’s doing because he’s drunk, and Kellin and Vic don’t seem to give a fuck if he’s my boyfriend.

I could practically see Vic’s boner from here as he rubbed his dick all over Alex’s ass.

MY ALEX. MY BOYFRIEND’S ASS.

They didn’t care because they were both really into threesomes, and they were just getting close with an extremely hot and horny guy.

MY extremely hot and horny guy.

“Aww, don’t go scream at them Jack, Alex will just get more upset.” Cass told me.

“Are you kidding?!? I’m gonna beat the fucking shit out of them! Do you see that they are doing to my boyfriend?!” I exclaimed, clenching my fists trying to contain my rage.

If I go over there and start throwing punches, Alex will just get terrified and probably try to go home, but with each second I was just getting more and more pissed off.

“Do you see what your boyfriend is doing to Kellin?” Rian scoffed

Alex was leaning over Kellin who had his knees bent, kissing his neck and biting his ear while his hips rolled to to the beat of the song.
Damn, I had no idea he could dance that well.

But it was with Kellin fucking Quinn, who was basically the biggest gay slut in our school.
I felt like throwing up, hitting Vic and Kellin, hugging Alex, and crying at the same time.

“He thinks you don’t love him anymore,” Hayley explained.

“I can’t believe he heard it like that… I’m going to murder Kellin.” I tried to walk over there but Cass grabbed my arm.

“You’re just going to end up beating them up if you go over there, just calm down first.” Cass told me. What’s wrong with beating them up?!

“I can’t calm down!! Someone other than me has their hands on Alex!” I exclaimed, and ran my hands frustratedly through my hair.

Some else has their hands on my boyfriend’s hips.
My boyfriend’s ass is fucking backed up into their crotch.
This isn’t fucking okay.

“I’ll grind with you if it makes you feel better,” Rian offered jokingly.

“Thanks Rian, I’m so sorry if this is ruining your birthday party Hayley, this was supposed to be all about you, I always fuck everything up.” I sighed.

“You didn’t do anything wrong, Alex just misheard you, it’s nobody’s fault here.” she shrugged. She’s so chill, I have to get her another thing for her birthday because this party sucks.
At least for me. Vic and Kellin are having a great time.

My eyes widened as Vic started slipping his hand down Alex’s pants. What the actual hell.

“DO YOU SEE HIS FUCKING HAND?” I jumped forward to run over there and tackle the long haired guy, but Rian grabbed both my arms holding them behind me, holding me back from killing Vic.

“LET ME GO!!! He has his hands on Alex! I’m going to fucking kill him!!” I yelled, trying to fight my way out of Rian’s tight grip.

“You’re drunk, and so are they. You will just make everything worse, and hurt them, hurt yourself, and you might even accidentally hit Alex.” Rian told me, trying to calm me down but I was way too riled up.

“Here, I will go talk to Alex.” Hayley stated, and squeezed through people to get to the three guys.

I sighed with relief as Alex thankfully got away from the both of them to hug Hayley. They were handing him drinks and he automatically chugged them down.

No babe… He’s going to be so hungover and sick tomorrow.

I wish I could hear their conversation, they only talked for a minute before Kellin was screaming for Alex’s attention.
Alex turned around and Kellin pulled him close and started front facing grinding with him.

Hayley stood wide eyed, and with her jaw wide open in shock as their legs interlocked and Kellin humped his dick all over Alex’s hips, hands on his ass to keep him close.
They were practically having sex with clothes on

“Whoa,” Rian’s eyes widened.

That kind of behavior is completely unexpected and surprising from Alex, seeing that he would barely make out with me in public. Now he’s humping practically a stranger.

My perfect, gorgeous, sweet, loving little boyfriend, is a fucking animal when he’s drunk.

“I can’t fucking watch this,” I mumbled, ripping my arm away from Rian’s grip, and stormed over to confront my drunk boyfriend. I tried to remain as calm as possible, reminding myself how confused and heartbroken Alex must be right now, thinking that I’ve lost interest in him.

I watched Kellin grab Alex’s leg and hold it by the thigh, Kellin devouring his neck.
Alex choked out a turned on moan that made even the hairs on my arms stand up I was so enraged.

Kellin, one of my good friends, grinding with Alex, kissing his neck, and making him MOAN. I clenched my fist ready to rip Kellin away and beat him down into the ground.
That fucking sound is for my ears only, he isn’t just some slut that can be passed around the school.
He is my boyfriend, I am the only fucking person that is supposed to make him moan.

“Alex, what the fuck do you think you’re doing?” I said, and watched him gasp, looking up and staring at me with wide, glazed over eyes.

“Oh shit, it’s my boyfriend...” he slurred, and pushed Kellin away from him.

He was really drunk…
The second he parted from Kellin he collapsed, I quickly caught him before he face planted into the ground.
He can’t even fucking stand, oh my god. He wrapped his arms around me and I held him to my body for support.

“Come on Alex, I got to talk to you in private.” I urged him, he was falling asleep on my shoulder.

“Whatever you have to say, you can say in front of us!” Kellin declared, the slurring in this speech made his words very hard to understand.

Alex stumbled again, I quickly put both my hands under his armpits and caught him before he fell down completely.

Oh my fucking god, he seriously can’t even stand! Did they drug him or something?
He’s really wasted, this is all my fault. I should’ve talked to him before he got like this, this never would’ve happened.

I reached down and picked Alex up bridal style, making him squeal with excitement and latch onto me. Kellin glared at me, and I walked out of the room, down the hallway, up the stairs to my room, and laid him down gently on my bed. He’s going to fall asleep in 3 seconds, I don’t even know if it’s worth explaining to him when he’s this wasted but I will try anyways.


“Listen to me Lex, what you heard-”

“Shhh, don’t talk.” he interupted, and ripped off his shirt. Dammit, I can’t resist shirtless Alex.

“But-” he pinned me down, and pulled off my own shirt before I got a chance to stop him Soon enough, he was nibbling on my neck, and grinding down on me, but I wasn’t turned on at all. Maybe a little, only because drunk Alex was really sexy, but he was doing this for the wrong reasons.

I opened my mouth to protest, but he kissed me, not a good kiss that we usually share, an wide open, sobbery, messy kiss. His mouth tasted like a shockingly strong drink, he probably had so many shots to get this way. He’s already a light weight in the first place...

“Alex! Stop, stop, please!” I protested, pushing him off me, so he sat down on my lap.
He looked very offended, and confused, I started to feel bad again.

“I’m trying to give you what you want!” he argued, pushing back down on me, my skull hit the headboard on the way down.

“OW, what do you mean?” I questioned.

“I heard you talking about how you hate how timid I am, and how unassertive I am in our relationship, I’m trying to be more dominant so you will like me back” he slurred, and continued sucking on my neck.

Hearing that broke my heart, I can’t believe he thought that. He just listed two things I love about him, thinking they are characteristics I find unattractive about him. I felt him unbutton my pants, and I knew I couldn’t let this go any further.

“This isn’t what I want, get off Alex!” I argued, pulling away from my newly aggressive boyfriend.

His face looked devastated, like he thought I hated him or something. He probably thought i did. He quickly got off me, putting his shirt back on and grabbing his jacket without a word.

“Please let me explain, baby.” I begged, getting up, I made quick eye contact with him, and saw the tears flooding out of his eyes.

No!!

I tried to grab his hand, but he slammed the door right in front of me.
I listened to his stomping footsteps flee downstairs. He can’t drive home like that, he has Rian’s keys, he was planning not to drink tonight and drive everyone home.

I took a few deep, but shaky breathes to hold back tears, pulled my shirt over my head, and ran downstairs. Please tell me he didn’t leave yet.

“Jack? What happened?” Hayley asked me, she was at the end of the steps.

“Did you see Alex?” I questioned.

“Yeah, Brendon just drove him home, he was crying, what did you say to him?”

“I didn’t say anything, but I think I ruined everything…”

Notes

OHHHHHHHH SHITTTTTTTT
this chapter is insanly long holy crap
but
OH MY GOD
I dont even know what to tell you guys

so that just happened
ALEX, WHY MUST YOU BE SO SLUTTY WHEN YOUR DRUNK BABE
YOU DO NOT GRIND WITH OTHER BOYS YOU HAVE A JACK
jalex is crazy right now
so um, yeah.

"Confident Alex Outfit

i might post again tonight, i want to, but i wanted to yesterday but i didn't think this chapter would be so long
but the next one is shorter and less insane
so it might be up tonight, cuz i want the story to be done by friday/saturday

i have no words, so i will just leave you with this gif
i feel like it's appropriate for this chapter



Title Credit- Bad Enough For You