I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls
Why Can't you Just be Happy for me?
Jack
“Yeah but I can’t sing a Blink 182 song!” Tay argued.
“Sure you can, Cass does it all the time.” Rian said, sitting down on the couch next to his girlfriend. This band is not working anymore, we need a guy singer. They always complain about not choosing any songs they want to do, but they aren’t playing any instruments, and we already learned so many songs by Blink and Green Day, learning new ones we don’t even like for the girls is dumb
“Just have Cass do it then!” Tay yelled.
“You were the one who wanted to sing in the first place, Tay!” I argued.
“Yeah, a song I can actually sing well!”
“We aren’t going to sing any Britney Spears or Christina-”
“You’re such an asshole!” Tay interrupted me.
“Stop fighting guys, me and Cass are trying to write a song that we can actually sing, and that is simple enough for you guys to play” Hayley explained, with a pen and paper in her hands.
“And what is that supposed to mean?” Zack questioned, obviously offended.
“If you were willing to learn any new songs, maybe you would get better at playing the guitar” Tay said. Who did she think she is?
“Are you kidding me-” I was interrupted by my phone ringing, perfect time because Tay gets me so mad, I would’ve probably said something I would regret later. A picture of Matty Mullins popped up on my phone, followed by my obnoxious ringtone of American Idiot by. I turned off my phone, ignoring his call and sending Matty to voicemail. I know why he was calling, he just wanted to hook up, but even though we were getting pretty close, I’m through with him. I’m through with all of them.
I am focusing all my time and energy on getting closer with Alex, getting to know him better, and hopefully soon I will get the guts to ask him out. I’ve never spent this much time thinking about one certain person, for some reason I can’t imagine myself being with anyone else for the rest of my life but him.
It’s insane. I hate it, I’m so not used to this feeling of such strong attraction. But, just looking at Alex, or thinking about him makes up for it, he’s more than all of my hook ups combined, this feeling is terrifying but amazing.
“Well, who was that?” Zack asked, being his nosy self.
“I bet it was Alex.” Hayley giggled. I wish
“Oh please, if it was Alex, he would’ve ran to the phone and answered it right away.” Rian chuckled.
“It wasn’t Alex, it was Matty.” I said, causing everyone else to gasp and stare at me in shock.
“Jack! You’re still talking to him? You said you weren’t going to do this stuff with Alex, he’s better than that.” Cass commented.
“I know he’s better than that, and I’m not talking to Matty, I’m not talking to anybody anymore. I’m focusing on Alex, and only him.” I answered, staring down at my guitar, and lightly plucking at the strings. I wasn’t used to talking about my feelings out loud, and especially in front of all my friends staring at me. Geez, maybe I was spending too much time with Alex, I was becoming more reserved like him. Awws filled the room when I spoke about my feelings for the boy.
“I don’t know, I still think you guys aren’t good for eachother. Also, you don’t even know he’s gay.” Tay disagreed
“Seriously Tay? Jack finally finds someone he likes, and you don’t even support him? What’s your problem?” Cass stood up for me.
“It’s fine, Cass” I said. I don’t want them to fight, Cass always has my back, but sometimes she gets carried away in making sure nobody hurts me.
“I’m sorry, it’s just my opinion. You guys are just too different, literally opposites. You need to pick somebody better for you, Jack, he isn’t right for you.” she argued. Now I was getting pissed, she didn’t have the right to talk about him like that.
“Tay…” Hayley mumbled, trying to get her feisty best friend to back down. I wouldn’t let her get away from saying that without a fight.
“You don’t get to decide who I have a relationship with, why the hell do you even care? I really really like Alex, I don’t know why you want to keep me from him so bad!” I yelled.
“You don’t have a relationship with him! You just met, you deserve better than him.” Tay insisted.
“Stop arguing!” Hayley whined.
“You don’t even know if he’s gay!”
“Is this about the first time we saw him, you like him don’t you?” I accused. She’s jealous, that has to be why she’s being so rude about me and him.
“No, Jack! That’s not it!” Tay denied, getting even more angry than before.
“Just shut up, Tay! Jack and Alex are practically dating already!” Cass exclaimed. I wish that was true, I was flirting with him every chance I got, but we are nowhere near dating.
“Let’s be real, they are never actually going to date-”
“Everyone stop!” Rian shouted, disrupting the argument seconds away from me nearly strangling Tay.
I didn’t even bother getting my guitar, I just grabbed my bag and went upstairs, walking out of the house as fast as I could. How could she say that about him, about us? I was finally committing myself to someone, something I’ve never done before, and wanted a real relationship. I want Alex so bad, and if Tay doesn’t support it, than that’s her loss. I’m choosing Alex over her. Nobody is going to tell me who to be with, nobody is going to keep me from being with Alex, he’s mine.
“Yeah but I can’t sing a Blink 182 song!” Tay argued.
“Sure you can, Cass does it all the time.” Rian said, sitting down on the couch next to his girlfriend. This band is not working anymore, we need a guy singer. They always complain about not choosing any songs they want to do, but they aren’t playing any instruments, and we already learned so many songs by Blink and Green Day, learning new ones we don’t even like for the girls is dumb
“Just have Cass do it then!” Tay yelled.
“You were the one who wanted to sing in the first place, Tay!” I argued.
“Yeah, a song I can actually sing well!”
“We aren’t going to sing any Britney Spears or Christina-”
“You’re such an asshole!” Tay interrupted me.
“Stop fighting guys, me and Cass are trying to write a song that we can actually sing, and that is simple enough for you guys to play” Hayley explained, with a pen and paper in her hands.
“And what is that supposed to mean?” Zack questioned, obviously offended.
“If you were willing to learn any new songs, maybe you would get better at playing the guitar” Tay said. Who did she think she is?
“Are you kidding me-” I was interrupted by my phone ringing, perfect time because Tay gets me so mad, I would’ve probably said something I would regret later. A picture of Matty Mullins popped up on my phone, followed by my obnoxious ringtone of American Idiot by. I turned off my phone, ignoring his call and sending Matty to voicemail. I know why he was calling, he just wanted to hook up, but even though we were getting pretty close, I’m through with him. I’m through with all of them.
I am focusing all my time and energy on getting closer with Alex, getting to know him better, and hopefully soon I will get the guts to ask him out. I’ve never spent this much time thinking about one certain person, for some reason I can’t imagine myself being with anyone else for the rest of my life but him.
It’s insane. I hate it, I’m so not used to this feeling of such strong attraction. But, just looking at Alex, or thinking about him makes up for it, he’s more than all of my hook ups combined, this feeling is terrifying but amazing.
“Well, who was that?” Zack asked, being his nosy self.
“I bet it was Alex.” Hayley giggled. I wish
“Oh please, if it was Alex, he would’ve ran to the phone and answered it right away.” Rian chuckled.
“It wasn’t Alex, it was Matty.” I said, causing everyone else to gasp and stare at me in shock.
“Jack! You’re still talking to him? You said you weren’t going to do this stuff with Alex, he’s better than that.” Cass commented.
“I know he’s better than that, and I’m not talking to Matty, I’m not talking to anybody anymore. I’m focusing on Alex, and only him.” I answered, staring down at my guitar, and lightly plucking at the strings. I wasn’t used to talking about my feelings out loud, and especially in front of all my friends staring at me. Geez, maybe I was spending too much time with Alex, I was becoming more reserved like him. Awws filled the room when I spoke about my feelings for the boy.
“I don’t know, I still think you guys aren’t good for eachother. Also, you don’t even know he’s gay.” Tay disagreed
“Seriously Tay? Jack finally finds someone he likes, and you don’t even support him? What’s your problem?” Cass stood up for me.
“It’s fine, Cass” I said. I don’t want them to fight, Cass always has my back, but sometimes she gets carried away in making sure nobody hurts me.
“I’m sorry, it’s just my opinion. You guys are just too different, literally opposites. You need to pick somebody better for you, Jack, he isn’t right for you.” she argued. Now I was getting pissed, she didn’t have the right to talk about him like that.
“Tay…” Hayley mumbled, trying to get her feisty best friend to back down. I wouldn’t let her get away from saying that without a fight.
“You don’t get to decide who I have a relationship with, why the hell do you even care? I really really like Alex, I don’t know why you want to keep me from him so bad!” I yelled.
“You don’t have a relationship with him! You just met, you deserve better than him.” Tay insisted.
“Stop arguing!” Hayley whined.
“You don’t even know if he’s gay!”
“Is this about the first time we saw him, you like him don’t you?” I accused. She’s jealous, that has to be why she’s being so rude about me and him.
“No, Jack! That’s not it!” Tay denied, getting even more angry than before.
“Just shut up, Tay! Jack and Alex are practically dating already!” Cass exclaimed. I wish that was true, I was flirting with him every chance I got, but we are nowhere near dating.
“Let’s be real, they are never actually going to date-”
“Everyone stop!” Rian shouted, disrupting the argument seconds away from me nearly strangling Tay.
I didn’t even bother getting my guitar, I just grabbed my bag and went upstairs, walking out of the house as fast as I could. How could she say that about him, about us? I was finally committing myself to someone, something I’ve never done before, and wanted a real relationship. I want Alex so bad, and if Tay doesn’t support it, than that’s her loss. I’m choosing Alex over her. Nobody is going to tell me who to be with, nobody is going to keep me from being with Alex, he’s mine.
Notes
Sorry for making Tay such a bitch, she only is in this chapter :P
YAY MY SPRING BREAK STARTS TODAY SO I WILL BE WRITING ALL THE TIME AND POSTING A LOT YAYYY JALEX
so far in the story all of their friends do not ship jalex, which is sad... :(
but, prepare yourselves for next chapter because oh my god, i was dying while writing it, it's so cute
how can you not love them?
(ALEX KISSES JACKS HAND OMG CUTE)
Title Credit- The Irony of Choking on a Lifesaver
"Do you think Tay is going to sabatoge Jalex"
Considering this is my second time reading this, yes
7/11/17