I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls
Watching All My Friends Slip Away
Jack
“I can have 10 shots no problem!!” I exclaimed.
We were all in Rian’s basement, in the middle of band practice, even though none of us has picked up a instrument yet. We were talking about my Halloween party on Friday, that I was so ready for. I can’t wait to get drunk, get ALEX drunk.
They have not idea how much I can drink, and I can definitely drink a shit load more than anybody else here could. Cass and Rian were sitting on a bean bag together, and Zack, Tay, and Hayley were all scattered around the room, and of course I had Alex under my arm.
We are rarely apart from each other anymore, and I love it.
“You are not having 10 shots,” Alex told me, glaring with his big brown eyes.
“I bet he could handle it,” Zack chuckled.
“I could!”
“I’m not taking you to the hospital for alcohol poisoning at 3 in the morning.” Alex warned.
“Well, you won’t have to.” I smiled. He sighed, I wrapped my other arm around him in a hug and kissed his cheek.
“Ew, no more coupley stuff. From any of you!” Tay demanded, pointing at us, and Cass and Rian who were making out on the bean bag.
“You’re just mad cuz’ you’re not getting laid,” I smirked, making others laugh. It’s not like I was getting laid either, but I was satisfied enough. Kind of, not really.
Okay, it’s torture having a hot boyfriend and not being able to rip off all his clothes. I know he isn’t ready for that stuff yet. I’ll wait even though it’s fucking killing me.
“Okay, okay, let’s just practice.” Rian chuckled, always being the peacemaker he is.
I hopped off the couch and grabbed my purple guitar from its stand in the corner.
We still didn’t have a singer, the girls kind of quit once we told them we want a guy singer. They all just don’t fit well in the band, it seems too forced.
“Alex! You should go sing!” Cass exclaimed. I watched my boyfriend who was playing on his phone in the corner tense up, looking up with surprised eyes.
“N-no. I can’t sing.” he stated nervously.
“Please, Lex? Just one song.” I begged him, he shook is head violently.
“I didn’t know you could sing!” Zack exclaimed, excitedly.
“I’ve always wanted to hear your voice, Alex.” Hayley stated, walking over to him, and attempted to pull him off the couch.
Alex may have been small and light to me, but he was a lot bigger and heavier than Hayley, so he didn’t budge.
“Please!!!!” Cass begged, joining Hayley in her attempt to get him up.
“Please don’t make me,,” Alex whined, clinging onto the couch.
“Too late.” I said, grabbing his arm and tried to drag him off of the couch. He needed to see how much people loved his voice!
Alex was a phenomenal singer, and I know him, he won’t believe it until a billion people say that they love him.
He had his feet planted in the ground so I couldn’t make him stand.
Oh well, he asked for it.
“NO JACK, DON’T” he exclaimed as I slid my arms under him and picked him up bridal style, he flailed his body like a fish, but there’s no way I was letting go of him.
I laughed along with everyone else in the room as I carried him to the mic stand, and put him down beside it.
I picked up my guitar, Zack and Rian followed suit by setting up their instruments.
“Can I make a request?” Hayley asked.
Alex didn’t answer, he just stared at the three girls sitting on the couch wide eyed
“Of coarse,” I responded for him, he shot a glare at me for the second time tonight.
“American Idiot by Green Day.”
“Fuck yes!!” Zack exclaimed, and already started plucking the chords on his bass.
“You know how to play that, right Alex?” Rian asked.
“Uhh,”
“Yup, he does.” I smiled, handing him the other guitar that I had.
Practically whenever he comes over, the first thing he grabs my guitar and starts playing random songs, singing at the top of his lungs, I usually join him with another guitar.
We just did American Idiot last Monday.
We stared at him for a while, because we all knew that his guitar was what started off the song.
Once we finally started playing, I couldn’t contain a huge smile. He always blows me away, he’s perfect.
Alex is such a different person while he’s singing. His voice is so amazing and powerful, the opposite of his normal self that barely speaks at all. You can tell how much passion he has for the lyrics he belts out, he always sings with so much emotion. Singing is truly his strong suit, he has such an amazing talent. I bet a million dollars he’s going to be famous one day.
Don't wanna be an American idiot.
Don't want a nation under the new mania
And can you hear the sound of hysteria?
The subliminal mind fuck America.
Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the alienation.
Where everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue
I watched him after the second chorus, he stopped playing guitar, I guess he forgot the rest of the lyrics.
“Um, that’s all I know,” he mumbled.
“You amaze me, Lex.” I smiled, hugging him close to me, he wrapped both hands around me.
I looked around at everyone’s surprised faces, so was I when I first heard him.
He’s only sang during music class, and all the times I’ve begged him to when he came over to my house.
It’s hard to imagine such a big voice coming from such a quiet guy.
“You said he was a good singer, but, holy fuck.” Tay said, smiling ear to ear. Hey, she’s not being a bitch for the first time in weeks!
“That was amazing, Alex. I never knew you could sing like that.” Rian complimented him, Alex gave him a shy smile, and put the guitar down next to mine.
I sat back down in the couch, pulling Alex into my lap.
His cheeks turned a rosy pink color, a face that I’ve seen countless times, and loved since the second I saw it. I kissed his forehead lightly, knowing it would make him even more flushed, and I was right.
He pressed his face into the crook of my neck, I kissed his hair repeatedly.
How have I lived so long without this boy in my life?
“Lately, I’ve never seen Jack so happy,” Hayley stated, staring over at us. Before I could answer, Cass interrupted me.
“I know right! Ever since he met Alex, he’s become this ray of sunshine instead of an asshole.” Cass giggled, making other people around the room laugh too, including Alex.
It’s true.
Alex makes me incredibly happy, happier than I’ve ever been in my life before. It’s insane how much this sweet boy affects me, I’m crazy for him, I don’t think my life would ever be the same again if I lost him.
He’s the missing piece that I didn’t even know I needed.
“You must be giving him really good sex, Alex.” Tay chuckled.
Shit.
I felt his body freeze with surprise, his gaze immediately hit the floor, not answering to her comment at all. I could practically hear the anxious thoughts going through his mind, I rubbed his back to try to get his attention on something else but it didn’t work.
“Wait… Oh, have you guys not-”
“None of our business.” Zack interrupted Tay, who was dragging out the conversation a lot more than necessary. I don’t think anyone wants to talk about our non existent sex life, ESPECIALLY me and Alex.
“Seriously?” Tay asked me in disbelief.
“Shut up, Tay!” Cass said.
“I was kidding! I just expected they’ve fucked already! I mean, with Jack’s record, he would’ve screwed Alex and left him weeks ago-”
“STOP!!!” Rian scolded, stopping the awkward conversation. Why the fuck does Tay have to ruin everything, all the time? What happened to her?
She used to be so sweet and fun, now she’s just a downer that judges everyone. I don’t know that the hell her problem is with me and Alex, but it seriously has to stop.
I don’t care about it bothering me, but now it’s bothering Alex, which is not okay with me.
“I thought you were over this stuff, Tay.” Hayley muttered. So she does have a problem with us! What kind of stuff is she talking about?
I glanced over at Alex, who was still just as stiff as before, staring at the ground lost in thought.
“Lex,” I mumbled, catching his attention. He looked so embarrassed and horrified.
“Um, maybe we should go.” I sighed out loud, Alex gave me a small nod, and with that, I helped him off the couch and grabbed his sweatshirt to give to him.
My friends are complete assholes.
“You ruin everything, Tay!” Cass started.
“I didn’t do anything!!” Tay protested.
I took Alex’s hand and dragged him upstairs.
“See you guys at the Halloween party Friday!!!” I heard Hayley’s voice just before I slammed the door shut.
Fucking assholes.
“I can have 10 shots no problem!!” I exclaimed.
We were all in Rian’s basement, in the middle of band practice, even though none of us has picked up a instrument yet. We were talking about my Halloween party on Friday, that I was so ready for. I can’t wait to get drunk, get ALEX drunk.
They have not idea how much I can drink, and I can definitely drink a shit load more than anybody else here could. Cass and Rian were sitting on a bean bag together, and Zack, Tay, and Hayley were all scattered around the room, and of course I had Alex under my arm.
We are rarely apart from each other anymore, and I love it.
“You are not having 10 shots,” Alex told me, glaring with his big brown eyes.
“I bet he could handle it,” Zack chuckled.
“I could!”
“I’m not taking you to the hospital for alcohol poisoning at 3 in the morning.” Alex warned.
“Well, you won’t have to.” I smiled. He sighed, I wrapped my other arm around him in a hug and kissed his cheek.
“Ew, no more coupley stuff. From any of you!” Tay demanded, pointing at us, and Cass and Rian who were making out on the bean bag.
“You’re just mad cuz’ you’re not getting laid,” I smirked, making others laugh. It’s not like I was getting laid either, but I was satisfied enough. Kind of, not really.
Okay, it’s torture having a hot boyfriend and not being able to rip off all his clothes. I know he isn’t ready for that stuff yet. I’ll wait even though it’s fucking killing me.
“Okay, okay, let’s just practice.” Rian chuckled, always being the peacemaker he is.
I hopped off the couch and grabbed my purple guitar from its stand in the corner.
We still didn’t have a singer, the girls kind of quit once we told them we want a guy singer. They all just don’t fit well in the band, it seems too forced.
“Alex! You should go sing!” Cass exclaimed. I watched my boyfriend who was playing on his phone in the corner tense up, looking up with surprised eyes.
“N-no. I can’t sing.” he stated nervously.
“Please, Lex? Just one song.” I begged him, he shook is head violently.
“I didn’t know you could sing!” Zack exclaimed, excitedly.
“I’ve always wanted to hear your voice, Alex.” Hayley stated, walking over to him, and attempted to pull him off the couch.
Alex may have been small and light to me, but he was a lot bigger and heavier than Hayley, so he didn’t budge.
“Please!!!!” Cass begged, joining Hayley in her attempt to get him up.
“Please don’t make me,,” Alex whined, clinging onto the couch.
“Too late.” I said, grabbing his arm and tried to drag him off of the couch. He needed to see how much people loved his voice!
Alex was a phenomenal singer, and I know him, he won’t believe it until a billion people say that they love him.
He had his feet planted in the ground so I couldn’t make him stand.
Oh well, he asked for it.
“NO JACK, DON’T” he exclaimed as I slid my arms under him and picked him up bridal style, he flailed his body like a fish, but there’s no way I was letting go of him.
I laughed along with everyone else in the room as I carried him to the mic stand, and put him down beside it.
I picked up my guitar, Zack and Rian followed suit by setting up their instruments.
“Can I make a request?” Hayley asked.
Alex didn’t answer, he just stared at the three girls sitting on the couch wide eyed
“Of coarse,” I responded for him, he shot a glare at me for the second time tonight.
“American Idiot by Green Day.”
“Fuck yes!!” Zack exclaimed, and already started plucking the chords on his bass.
“You know how to play that, right Alex?” Rian asked.
“Uhh,”
“Yup, he does.” I smiled, handing him the other guitar that I had.
Practically whenever he comes over, the first thing he grabs my guitar and starts playing random songs, singing at the top of his lungs, I usually join him with another guitar.
We just did American Idiot last Monday.
We stared at him for a while, because we all knew that his guitar was what started off the song.
Once we finally started playing, I couldn’t contain a huge smile. He always blows me away, he’s perfect.
Alex is such a different person while he’s singing. His voice is so amazing and powerful, the opposite of his normal self that barely speaks at all. You can tell how much passion he has for the lyrics he belts out, he always sings with so much emotion. Singing is truly his strong suit, he has such an amazing talent. I bet a million dollars he’s going to be famous one day.
Don't wanna be an American idiot.
Don't want a nation under the new mania
And can you hear the sound of hysteria?
The subliminal mind fuck America.
Welcome to a new kind of tension.
All across the alienation.
Where everything isn't meant to be okay.
Television dreams of tomorrow.
We're not the ones who're meant to follow.
For that's enough to argue
I watched him after the second chorus, he stopped playing guitar, I guess he forgot the rest of the lyrics.
“Um, that’s all I know,” he mumbled.
“You amaze me, Lex.” I smiled, hugging him close to me, he wrapped both hands around me.
I looked around at everyone’s surprised faces, so was I when I first heard him.
He’s only sang during music class, and all the times I’ve begged him to when he came over to my house.
It’s hard to imagine such a big voice coming from such a quiet guy.
“You said he was a good singer, but, holy fuck.” Tay said, smiling ear to ear. Hey, she’s not being a bitch for the first time in weeks!
“That was amazing, Alex. I never knew you could sing like that.” Rian complimented him, Alex gave him a shy smile, and put the guitar down next to mine.
I sat back down in the couch, pulling Alex into my lap.
His cheeks turned a rosy pink color, a face that I’ve seen countless times, and loved since the second I saw it. I kissed his forehead lightly, knowing it would make him even more flushed, and I was right.
He pressed his face into the crook of my neck, I kissed his hair repeatedly.
How have I lived so long without this boy in my life?
“Lately, I’ve never seen Jack so happy,” Hayley stated, staring over at us. Before I could answer, Cass interrupted me.
“I know right! Ever since he met Alex, he’s become this ray of sunshine instead of an asshole.” Cass giggled, making other people around the room laugh too, including Alex.
It’s true.
Alex makes me incredibly happy, happier than I’ve ever been in my life before. It’s insane how much this sweet boy affects me, I’m crazy for him, I don’t think my life would ever be the same again if I lost him.
He’s the missing piece that I didn’t even know I needed.
“You must be giving him really good sex, Alex.” Tay chuckled.
Shit.
I felt his body freeze with surprise, his gaze immediately hit the floor, not answering to her comment at all. I could practically hear the anxious thoughts going through his mind, I rubbed his back to try to get his attention on something else but it didn’t work.
“Wait… Oh, have you guys not-”
“None of our business.” Zack interrupted Tay, who was dragging out the conversation a lot more than necessary. I don’t think anyone wants to talk about our non existent sex life, ESPECIALLY me and Alex.
“Seriously?” Tay asked me in disbelief.
“Shut up, Tay!” Cass said.
“I was kidding! I just expected they’ve fucked already! I mean, with Jack’s record, he would’ve screwed Alex and left him weeks ago-”
“STOP!!!” Rian scolded, stopping the awkward conversation. Why the fuck does Tay have to ruin everything, all the time? What happened to her?
She used to be so sweet and fun, now she’s just a downer that judges everyone. I don’t know that the hell her problem is with me and Alex, but it seriously has to stop.
I don’t care about it bothering me, but now it’s bothering Alex, which is not okay with me.
“I thought you were over this stuff, Tay.” Hayley muttered. So she does have a problem with us! What kind of stuff is she talking about?
I glanced over at Alex, who was still just as stiff as before, staring at the ground lost in thought.
“Lex,” I mumbled, catching his attention. He looked so embarrassed and horrified.
“Um, maybe we should go.” I sighed out loud, Alex gave me a small nod, and with that, I helped him off the couch and grabbed his sweatshirt to give to him.
My friends are complete assholes.
“You ruin everything, Tay!” Cass started.
“I didn’t do anything!!” Tay protested.
I took Alex’s hand and dragged him upstairs.
“See you guys at the Halloween party Friday!!!” I heard Hayley’s voice just before I slammed the door shut.
Fucking assholes.
Notes
ooooo this chapter is awkwarddd
why do you guys think Tay is being so weird with Jalex? :o
you will find out soon enough, in a few chapters i think
also - if you guys have never heard of Against The Current, they are a really good band, and they have an album coming out tomorrow, so you should give them a listen
they went on tour with ATL a little while ago
HERES A VIDEO OF ATL DOING AMERICAN IDIOT
its great i highly suggest you watch it
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YQBPpAD5tkg
heres babe
Title credit- Sick Little Games
"Do you think Tay is going to sabatoge Jalex"
Considering this is my second time reading this, yes
7/11/17