I'm Gonna Break Down These Walls
Your Lips Are Like a Hot Flame, Baby
Alex
“Hey Tom! Can you help me fix my hair?” I called, at the same time as I was trying to squeeze through my tightest black jeans.
I had no idea where we were actually going on this date, so I don’t know what to wear. I just assumed we were going out to dinner, so I wore something nice. I had a glossy black button up shirt, with black skinny jeans, and black converse. It was a little dark, but I thought it looked nice.
“Ooo! Why do you look all sexy?” Tom exclaimed, I sighed and quickly closed the door he left wide open, with my parents downstairs.
“Do I really look sexy?” I asked, looking back unsurely at the mirror.
“Yeah! Again, why do you look hotter than usual?”
“I’m going on date.” I smiled
“With Jack?!?!” he scream whispered.
“Yup!” I answered, and went on and on about how perfect he is.
I told him about how I nearly stayed the night, and we just snuggled and I fell asleep on him. I also told about a few days ago, when he pinned me up against my locker, promising me that he’s going to prove to me how special I am to him. I still can’t believe he did that, it still gives me goosebumps just thinking about how passionately he was talking, and ABOUT ME.
Just plain old Alex from Essex, England, somehow caught the eye of Jack Barakat, and something making him want to stick around with me. Tom screamed into a pillow, reacting to the adorable stories I explained.
“HE’S SO PERFECT FOR YOU ALEX!!!” Tom shouted.
“Shhh!”
“Is he picking you up for the date?” he asked.
“Yeah, at 7.”
‘I’m meeting him, I need to see this boy for myself.” Tom decided, and ran his hands through my freshly washed mop of hair. His loose long sleeves rolled down a bit when he reached up, I saw small red lines plastered on his pale wrists. What?
“Uh, Tom?”
“How tall is he, like 6 feet?” he asked, and I just realized what he’d said just before.
“6 foot 2, and there’s no way you’re meeting him. I told mom and dad that we were just going to Brendon’s birthday party, if you come outside they will be suspicious.” I explained.
“First of all, I follow Brendon on twitter, and his birthday is in April, it is October. They won’t care anyway, I just really want to meet him, and make sure he is as good as you tell me he is.”
“Why do you follow Brendon on twitter?”
“He’s your first American friend, and he’s not ugly!” he argued.
“Look, maybe you will see Jack next weekend. I can’t risk them finding out, I’m not reckless like you are.” I explained, trying to be sympathetic. He’s just being a big brother.
“Don’t think about them right now, you have an amazing first date to get to. Did you shave?”
he asked, and pointed a finger down at my crotch.
“Tom!” I whined.
“Well, you never know, I will cover for you if you come home a little late.” he winked at me, I rolled my eyes. My phone buzzed, and I got a text from Jack telling me that he’s here.
“Is he here?!” Tom squealed.
“Yup, my hairs good?” I just had to make sure, and looked in the mirror one last time.
“Yeah, you look great. I’m gonna go say hi!!” he said, and ran out the front door. I sighed.
“Bye Mom, Bye Dad! I’m going to Brendon's!” I called up to them, thankfully they were upstairs, so they didn’t see or hear the big deal that Tom made about my ride.
“Bye Alex, have fun!” my mom yelled.
I opened the door to see Tom just unwrapping his arms around Jack, like he had hugged him. Oh god, they were having a casual conversation, this had to be stopped.
“Tom, if you said anything embarrassing, I swear…” I muttered, catching both of their attention.
“I just asked him where you guys were going, geez!” he answered, and backed away from Jack.
I finally got a good look at him, he was wearing a white v neck, layered with a black zip up hoodie, then leather jacket, and black skinny jeans. Oh, he looks a lot more casual than me.
“Wow, Alex… You look amazing” Jack breathed, with his jaw wide open like dramatic people on tv.
“I’m overdressed aren’t I?” I asked, and wrapped both hands around his waist.
“No, you’re perfect, but really, you look really really handsome, Lex.” he told me. He bent down and kissed my cheek, I blushed.
“AWW, MY BABY BROTHER.” Tom squealed.
“Can you go?” I asked him rudely.
“Ugh, fine, have fun! Take care of him! He is allergic to bananas, and gets cold easily!” Tom called as he walked through the door.
“Oh my god.” I sighed and Jack was laughing.
“Bananas?”
“I don’t know!”
Jack ended up taking me on a haunted hayride, which was terrifying, and just sat on his lap and hid my face in his shoulder, while he was cracking up the entire time. Literally every time a ghost or skeleton jumped out from the bushes, I screamed and Jack squeezed me closer to him. I thought it was pretty fun, even though it was cold, and scary, Jack was snuggled up next to me kept me warm, and safe.
After that, he took me out to dinner, he knew I didn’t like all the fancy places that he actually wanted to take me, so we went to some chain pizza restaurant and ate a large pepperoni pizza all by ourselves. It was perfect, the whole time we just talked about our likes and dislikes, such as he wasn’t actually a big fan of pepperoni, and ordered it just because I liked it. He didn’t even tell me till we were done eating, and since he paid for the whole pizza, I bought dessert for us to share. I felt really bad he didn’t even tell me he didn’t like the pizza, but he sure ate a lot of it.
“I don’t want to go home yet,” I told him, he looked over at me smiling.
“I hoped you would say that,” he said, and turned the car in the other direction.
“Where are you taking me now?”
“It’s a surprise!”
“I hate surprises!” I argued.
“What? Who hates surprises?” he said in disbelief.
“Me,” I answered.
“Well, you’ll like this surprise, I promise,” he told me, I believed him.
After about 10 minutes of driving, we pulled up to a place I’ve always wanted to go to.
“H-How did you know I’ve always wanted to ice skate?” I gasped, my voice was practically breaking from the shock and excitement I was feeling.
“You told me! Remember, when we were texting?”
“Yeah, how did you remember?”
“Because you said it, so it’s important to me.” he stated, making me smile, and him smile back.
“You’re amazing, Jack!” I gushed.
“No, you are.” He wrapped an arm around me, and pulled me closer to kiss the top of my head.
It only took us a few seconds to put our ice skates on, because I was rushing to get out there. I’ve never ice skated before, I’ve always wanted to, but everyone in my family thinks it’s dumb. I never had any friends that would be willing to take me, I almost went alone once, but some assholes that played hockey at my old school bullied me for having no friends. I never went back, but now I have Jack.
“Before you go, it’s a lot harder than it looks. I’ve never been before, but I’ve heard stories of people breaking their arms or even legs from falling down on the ice.” Jack warned me, I smirked at him.
“Are you scared?” I questioned him.
“No! I know you’re clumsy and I don’t want you to get hurt!” he insisted, I stood up on my tip toes to kiss his cheek. He’s such a fucking cutie, always worried about me.
I stepped out on the ice, and my feet immediately slipped out from under me, and soon enough, I was staring at the dusk sky. Jack was crouched on the ice, laughing hysterically.
“Shut up!” I whined. I grabbed onto his shoulders to help me up. He stood up, wobbling.
“See, it’s hard!” I said.
“That’s what I told you!”
I started to feel a lot colder than before, probably because my back was on solid ice for a good minute. Brisk October wind blew through the air, making me shiver even more than before.
“Come here, you.” Jack took off leather jacket, and I slipped my arms through the sleeves that were too long for me.
“Are you sure? You have to be cold-”
“I’m fine, and Tom said it himself, I gotta keep you warm.” he smiled, and bend down to kiss my cheek. I blushed, grabbing onto his hand to steady me while I stood.
We both could barely ice skate, I was a little better than Jack, because his lanky body was bent over trying to make sure he didn’t fall. I was still really bad, and whenever either one of us slipped just a little, we landed hard on the ice.
“Wait! Don’t pull on my arm, I think I’m doing it!” Jack exclaimed.
“But my skates are taking me this way!” I protested.
“Your suppose to be the one in charge, not the skates.”
“They seem pretty in charge to me!”
“Just turn!”
“I can’t! Pull me towards you!” I responded.
Jack’s foot slipped out from under him, making him land hard on his back, dragging me down with him. I crashed in between his legs, making him groan in pain, I was wiping tears from my eyes from laughter. I haven’t laughed this hard, ever.
Now we were both laughing till our stomach’s hurt, grabbing onto each other for warmth.
Jack finally got up and held out two hands to help me up too, and being the absolute klutz that I am, I slipped. Jack caught me, and wrapped two arms tightly around my waist, keeping my body firmly pressed against his.
I watched in awe as Jack came at me with the same face he had a few weeks ago, when he tried to kiss me before. Crap, this is my first kiss, what do I do? When our lips attached, a chill ran through my body. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him deeper into the kiss. His lips were really soft, the same ones that kissed me literally everywhere on my face but my lips, until now. Jack was so gentle and patient, I wonder if he knows this is my first kiss. Can he tell? I really hope I was doing this right, he wasn’t trying to shove me away in disgust so that’s a good sign.
I pulled away, and stared at Jack, who had a star stroke look on his face. That’s probably another good sign. Another gust of wind came, I leaned on Jack in attempt to shield myself from the cold. I didn’t even notice how bad I was shivering till now, it’s honestly probably nerves from just having my first kiss.
“Let’s go, you’re freezing” Jack said, and pecked my lips one more time.
I didn’t respond, but just gave him a small nod in agreement. Did I just screw that up? I wonder if I kissed him wrong. We both shuffled out of the ice rink, took off our skates, and walked to the car while holding hands, without saying a word.
I couldn’t stop worrying. Did he like the kiss as much as I did? Is he going to kiss me again tonight? Before anything else happened, I really needed to clear something up. I had to make sure he knew.
“Jack?” I asked quietly.
“Yes, angel?” he responded sweetly.
“That was my first kiss.”
“I know,”
I smiled, and he returned it the same big grin that I’m falling so hard for. We got in the car, blasted the heat, and didn’t speak for the rest of the ride home. We weren’t mad at each other or anything, just happy we kissed. No words had to be said.
“Thanks for everything Jack, I still think I should’ve paid for dinner.” I said.
“Of course not! I took you out, it was my treat.” he insisted.
“Still-”
“Lexy, can I ask you something?” he interrupted, staring at the steering wheel.
“Of coarse, baby.” I answered, and for the first time ever he seemed really nervous. Oh no, he’s going to tell me how terrible of a time he just had. The kiss ruined it! I knew it.
“I-I don’t really know how to say this but…” Jack started, I couldn’t stand to hear the rest.
“Oh… I understand, it’s fine. You don’t have to say it. I’ll just go.”
“Alex! I’m not breaking up whatever we have here! I was going to ask if you would be my boyfriend!!” he protested.
“Really?!”
“Yeah! Look, I’ve never had a REAL boyfriend before. All the others don’t mean anything compared to how I care about you. I really haven’t felt this way about anyone before, you are really important to me, and all I want to do is spend time with you and make you happy. I know your parents are homophobic but I-”
“I don’t care about my parents. Of coarse i will be your boyfriend!!!”
We kissed for the second time, I was much more excited for this one because its the first time i will be kissing my BOYFRIEND. It’s going to take me a long time to get used to that, boyfriend. Jack Barakat is my boyfriend. The hottest freaking guy in my school, somehow became interested in me.
I pulled away, realizing we were going a little too fast. I just had my first kiss, and I was about to fully make out with him. I’m not ready for that, Jack is a little too ready for it. Jack pouted, looking disappointed, and making me feel bad.
“Look, you are my first boyfriend too… I’ve never done any of this before, and I have no experience, and you have mountains. I don’t know if I’m as good as you expect me to be.” I mumbled, not looking at him in the eyes.
“Alex, you are beyond my expectations, everyday. I like you, not your experience.
I don’t care if you’ve never had a boyfriend before, I’m proud to be your first, and hopefully I’m going to be your only.” Jack explained gently.
I smiled, and kissed Jack for another few seconds. At first I just thought he was some jerk, but he really amazes me. I didn’t want to leave, I wanted him to take me home, and we could spend the rest of the night cuddling till we fell asleep. But, I would get murdered by my parents.
“Goodnight Jack.” I breathed, staring into his dark brown eyes before I went inside, and we would be separated for the weekend.
“Night Alex,”
“Hey Tom! Can you help me fix my hair?” I called, at the same time as I was trying to squeeze through my tightest black jeans.
I had no idea where we were actually going on this date, so I don’t know what to wear. I just assumed we were going out to dinner, so I wore something nice. I had a glossy black button up shirt, with black skinny jeans, and black converse. It was a little dark, but I thought it looked nice.
“Ooo! Why do you look all sexy?” Tom exclaimed, I sighed and quickly closed the door he left wide open, with my parents downstairs.
“Do I really look sexy?” I asked, looking back unsurely at the mirror.
“Yeah! Again, why do you look hotter than usual?”
“I’m going on date.” I smiled
“With Jack?!?!” he scream whispered.
“Yup!” I answered, and went on and on about how perfect he is.
I told him about how I nearly stayed the night, and we just snuggled and I fell asleep on him. I also told about a few days ago, when he pinned me up against my locker, promising me that he’s going to prove to me how special I am to him. I still can’t believe he did that, it still gives me goosebumps just thinking about how passionately he was talking, and ABOUT ME.
Just plain old Alex from Essex, England, somehow caught the eye of Jack Barakat, and something making him want to stick around with me. Tom screamed into a pillow, reacting to the adorable stories I explained.
“HE’S SO PERFECT FOR YOU ALEX!!!” Tom shouted.
“Shhh!”
“Is he picking you up for the date?” he asked.
“Yeah, at 7.”
‘I’m meeting him, I need to see this boy for myself.” Tom decided, and ran his hands through my freshly washed mop of hair. His loose long sleeves rolled down a bit when he reached up, I saw small red lines plastered on his pale wrists. What?
“Uh, Tom?”
“How tall is he, like 6 feet?” he asked, and I just realized what he’d said just before.
“6 foot 2, and there’s no way you’re meeting him. I told mom and dad that we were just going to Brendon’s birthday party, if you come outside they will be suspicious.” I explained.
“First of all, I follow Brendon on twitter, and his birthday is in April, it is October. They won’t care anyway, I just really want to meet him, and make sure he is as good as you tell me he is.”
“Why do you follow Brendon on twitter?”
“He’s your first American friend, and he’s not ugly!” he argued.
“Look, maybe you will see Jack next weekend. I can’t risk them finding out, I’m not reckless like you are.” I explained, trying to be sympathetic. He’s just being a big brother.
“Don’t think about them right now, you have an amazing first date to get to. Did you shave?”
he asked, and pointed a finger down at my crotch.
“Tom!” I whined.
“Well, you never know, I will cover for you if you come home a little late.” he winked at me, I rolled my eyes. My phone buzzed, and I got a text from Jack telling me that he’s here.
“Is he here?!” Tom squealed.
“Yup, my hairs good?” I just had to make sure, and looked in the mirror one last time.
“Yeah, you look great. I’m gonna go say hi!!” he said, and ran out the front door. I sighed.
“Bye Mom, Bye Dad! I’m going to Brendon's!” I called up to them, thankfully they were upstairs, so they didn’t see or hear the big deal that Tom made about my ride.
“Bye Alex, have fun!” my mom yelled.
I opened the door to see Tom just unwrapping his arms around Jack, like he had hugged him. Oh god, they were having a casual conversation, this had to be stopped.
“Tom, if you said anything embarrassing, I swear…” I muttered, catching both of their attention.
“I just asked him where you guys were going, geez!” he answered, and backed away from Jack.
I finally got a good look at him, he was wearing a white v neck, layered with a black zip up hoodie, then leather jacket, and black skinny jeans. Oh, he looks a lot more casual than me.
“Wow, Alex… You look amazing” Jack breathed, with his jaw wide open like dramatic people on tv.
“I’m overdressed aren’t I?” I asked, and wrapped both hands around his waist.
“No, you’re perfect, but really, you look really really handsome, Lex.” he told me. He bent down and kissed my cheek, I blushed.
“AWW, MY BABY BROTHER.” Tom squealed.
“Can you go?” I asked him rudely.
“Ugh, fine, have fun! Take care of him! He is allergic to bananas, and gets cold easily!” Tom called as he walked through the door.
“Oh my god.” I sighed and Jack was laughing.
“Bananas?”
“I don’t know!”
Jack ended up taking me on a haunted hayride, which was terrifying, and just sat on his lap and hid my face in his shoulder, while he was cracking up the entire time. Literally every time a ghost or skeleton jumped out from the bushes, I screamed and Jack squeezed me closer to him. I thought it was pretty fun, even though it was cold, and scary, Jack was snuggled up next to me kept me warm, and safe.
After that, he took me out to dinner, he knew I didn’t like all the fancy places that he actually wanted to take me, so we went to some chain pizza restaurant and ate a large pepperoni pizza all by ourselves. It was perfect, the whole time we just talked about our likes and dislikes, such as he wasn’t actually a big fan of pepperoni, and ordered it just because I liked it. He didn’t even tell me till we were done eating, and since he paid for the whole pizza, I bought dessert for us to share. I felt really bad he didn’t even tell me he didn’t like the pizza, but he sure ate a lot of it.
“I don’t want to go home yet,” I told him, he looked over at me smiling.
“I hoped you would say that,” he said, and turned the car in the other direction.
“Where are you taking me now?”
“It’s a surprise!”
“I hate surprises!” I argued.
“What? Who hates surprises?” he said in disbelief.
“Me,” I answered.
“Well, you’ll like this surprise, I promise,” he told me, I believed him.
After about 10 minutes of driving, we pulled up to a place I’ve always wanted to go to.
“H-How did you know I’ve always wanted to ice skate?” I gasped, my voice was practically breaking from the shock and excitement I was feeling.
“You told me! Remember, when we were texting?”
“Yeah, how did you remember?”
“Because you said it, so it’s important to me.” he stated, making me smile, and him smile back.
“You’re amazing, Jack!” I gushed.
“No, you are.” He wrapped an arm around me, and pulled me closer to kiss the top of my head.
It only took us a few seconds to put our ice skates on, because I was rushing to get out there. I’ve never ice skated before, I’ve always wanted to, but everyone in my family thinks it’s dumb. I never had any friends that would be willing to take me, I almost went alone once, but some assholes that played hockey at my old school bullied me for having no friends. I never went back, but now I have Jack.
“Before you go, it’s a lot harder than it looks. I’ve never been before, but I’ve heard stories of people breaking their arms or even legs from falling down on the ice.” Jack warned me, I smirked at him.
“Are you scared?” I questioned him.
“No! I know you’re clumsy and I don’t want you to get hurt!” he insisted, I stood up on my tip toes to kiss his cheek. He’s such a fucking cutie, always worried about me.
I stepped out on the ice, and my feet immediately slipped out from under me, and soon enough, I was staring at the dusk sky. Jack was crouched on the ice, laughing hysterically.
“Shut up!” I whined. I grabbed onto his shoulders to help me up. He stood up, wobbling.
“See, it’s hard!” I said.
“That’s what I told you!”
I started to feel a lot colder than before, probably because my back was on solid ice for a good minute. Brisk October wind blew through the air, making me shiver even more than before.
“Come here, you.” Jack took off leather jacket, and I slipped my arms through the sleeves that were too long for me.
“Are you sure? You have to be cold-”
“I’m fine, and Tom said it himself, I gotta keep you warm.” he smiled, and bend down to kiss my cheek. I blushed, grabbing onto his hand to steady me while I stood.
We both could barely ice skate, I was a little better than Jack, because his lanky body was bent over trying to make sure he didn’t fall. I was still really bad, and whenever either one of us slipped just a little, we landed hard on the ice.
“Wait! Don’t pull on my arm, I think I’m doing it!” Jack exclaimed.
“But my skates are taking me this way!” I protested.
“Your suppose to be the one in charge, not the skates.”
“They seem pretty in charge to me!”
“Just turn!”
“I can’t! Pull me towards you!” I responded.
Jack’s foot slipped out from under him, making him land hard on his back, dragging me down with him. I crashed in between his legs, making him groan in pain, I was wiping tears from my eyes from laughter. I haven’t laughed this hard, ever.
Now we were both laughing till our stomach’s hurt, grabbing onto each other for warmth.
Jack finally got up and held out two hands to help me up too, and being the absolute klutz that I am, I slipped. Jack caught me, and wrapped two arms tightly around my waist, keeping my body firmly pressed against his.
I watched in awe as Jack came at me with the same face he had a few weeks ago, when he tried to kiss me before. Crap, this is my first kiss, what do I do? When our lips attached, a chill ran through my body. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him deeper into the kiss. His lips were really soft, the same ones that kissed me literally everywhere on my face but my lips, until now. Jack was so gentle and patient, I wonder if he knows this is my first kiss. Can he tell? I really hope I was doing this right, he wasn’t trying to shove me away in disgust so that’s a good sign.
I pulled away, and stared at Jack, who had a star stroke look on his face. That’s probably another good sign. Another gust of wind came, I leaned on Jack in attempt to shield myself from the cold. I didn’t even notice how bad I was shivering till now, it’s honestly probably nerves from just having my first kiss.
“Let’s go, you’re freezing” Jack said, and pecked my lips one more time.
I didn’t respond, but just gave him a small nod in agreement. Did I just screw that up? I wonder if I kissed him wrong. We both shuffled out of the ice rink, took off our skates, and walked to the car while holding hands, without saying a word.
I couldn’t stop worrying. Did he like the kiss as much as I did? Is he going to kiss me again tonight? Before anything else happened, I really needed to clear something up. I had to make sure he knew.
“Jack?” I asked quietly.
“Yes, angel?” he responded sweetly.
“That was my first kiss.”
“I know,”
I smiled, and he returned it the same big grin that I’m falling so hard for. We got in the car, blasted the heat, and didn’t speak for the rest of the ride home. We weren’t mad at each other or anything, just happy we kissed. No words had to be said.
“Thanks for everything Jack, I still think I should’ve paid for dinner.” I said.
“Of course not! I took you out, it was my treat.” he insisted.
“Still-”
“Lexy, can I ask you something?” he interrupted, staring at the steering wheel.
“Of coarse, baby.” I answered, and for the first time ever he seemed really nervous. Oh no, he’s going to tell me how terrible of a time he just had. The kiss ruined it! I knew it.
“I-I don’t really know how to say this but…” Jack started, I couldn’t stand to hear the rest.
“Oh… I understand, it’s fine. You don’t have to say it. I’ll just go.”
“Alex! I’m not breaking up whatever we have here! I was going to ask if you would be my boyfriend!!” he protested.
“Really?!”
“Yeah! Look, I’ve never had a REAL boyfriend before. All the others don’t mean anything compared to how I care about you. I really haven’t felt this way about anyone before, you are really important to me, and all I want to do is spend time with you and make you happy. I know your parents are homophobic but I-”
“I don’t care about my parents. Of coarse i will be your boyfriend!!!”
We kissed for the second time, I was much more excited for this one because its the first time i will be kissing my BOYFRIEND. It’s going to take me a long time to get used to that, boyfriend. Jack Barakat is my boyfriend. The hottest freaking guy in my school, somehow became interested in me.
I pulled away, realizing we were going a little too fast. I just had my first kiss, and I was about to fully make out with him. I’m not ready for that, Jack is a little too ready for it. Jack pouted, looking disappointed, and making me feel bad.
“Look, you are my first boyfriend too… I’ve never done any of this before, and I have no experience, and you have mountains. I don’t know if I’m as good as you expect me to be.” I mumbled, not looking at him in the eyes.
“Alex, you are beyond my expectations, everyday. I like you, not your experience.
I don’t care if you’ve never had a boyfriend before, I’m proud to be your first, and hopefully I’m going to be your only.” Jack explained gently.
I smiled, and kissed Jack for another few seconds. At first I just thought he was some jerk, but he really amazes me. I didn’t want to leave, I wanted him to take me home, and we could spend the rest of the night cuddling till we fell asleep. But, I would get murdered by my parents.
“Goodnight Jack.” I breathed, staring into his dark brown eyes before I went inside, and we would be separated for the weekend.
“Night Alex,”
Notes
I just realized, first kiss on chapter 10! XD Thats cool
YAYYYYY THEY ARE TOGETHER OFFICIALLY!!!
this chapter isn't as cute as I wanted it to be, but I still love it, and them
<3
Title Credit- Noel
"Do you think Tay is going to sabatoge Jalex"
Considering this is my second time reading this, yes
7/11/17