Jet Pack Blues
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Jacks POV It was Saturday which meant I could see Alex, Rowan and Sky and iws really excited about it for some reason. Pretty much everyone was ignoring me part from Kit and Tyler as I guess they felt sorry for me. I haven't seen Seth since Alex left. Aidan and Riley was giving me the serious slient treatment which I don't really blame them really. I hear my phone go off and I looked at saw Alex had texted me. Alex- 'Want to see Rowan Sky today? Don't feel pressured on seeing them.' I could literally feel the words being spat at me. 'Wouldn't turn down seeing them two.' I replied. 'The park at 11?' He asked. 'See you then.' I replied and managed to crawl out of bed which I haven't gotten out of since Alex left. I had a shower, got dressed and went downstairs. Everyone but Seth was downstairs. Riley looked down and walked out the room. "Don't you even want to see Rowan and Sky?" I asked him. "Not with you." He spat and walked upstairs. I looked at Aidan and she shook her head. "I'm sorry but I can't. Not with you anyway." She said quietly and walked out the room. I sighed and grabbed my keys and slowly walked to the park. When I got there Alex was already there pushing Rowan on a swing. Rowan spotted me straight away and shouted at me. I smiled and walked over to Alex who got Rowan ou the swing and he ran over to me and I picked him up and hugged him. I looked at Alex who had a bandage on his arm since he was only wearing a T-shirt a d he was ignoring me and was gently pushing Sky on the swing. "You just going to ignore me then?" I asked. Alex looked at me and looked away. " I have to be somewhere. You okay to look after these two for a few hours?" He said. "Yeah, but are you okay?" I said really wanting to know the answer. "Don't act like you care." He spat and walked over to me but was focused on Rowan. "You be good for da a d I'll be back soon and then I'll get you a ice cream." I said and Rowan smiled. "I'll be back by 4. If not I'll let you know." He said and walked off. He didn't even ask about Seth, Ri or Aid but I'm guessing they've been talking to him anyway. I couldn't shake this feeling off that he had hurt himself but Alex was good at hiding his feeing when he really needs too. I looked at Sky who wasn't in the swing by in her parm since Alex took her out. "Where do you want to go then?" I asked Rowan. "Ducks." He said and I put him on my shoulders and walked out the park. "Want to feed the ducks?" I asked him. "Yeah!" He said loudly and I chuxkled and we walked to the shops.
Alex's POV "It's perfect." I said to the person who was showing me round this really biggish flat which would be perfectperfect for me. "So are you going to have this please then?" She asked. "Yeah please." I said and she chuckled and handed me the keys. "You said you've already paid for the rent for the next 3 months." She said and I nodded. Me and Jack set up some sort of account that if I left for any reason the money in that account would be enough for me to life and not worry about working. I noticed he also put a load of money in the account as well. "Okay sir, well I hope you enjoy staying here." She smiled and walked out and left me alone. Which wasn't what I need right now as I haven't taken my meds as I forgot them and I didn't want to go back to the house and get them. I looked round and thought about when me and Jack first got a place and it looked a lot like this place. I didn't want to turn out and get the kids so I texted Jack my address and told him to bring the kids with him. I already had my stuff in my car as I said to Rian and Cass that I was getting this place and would be out of their hair. They told me not to go but I wanted to as I could tell Rowan was really starting to get on Rian nerves a little.
I had just finished making Rowans bed when I heard someone knock on the door. I answered it and saw Jack who had Rowan asleep in his arms and Sky was wide awake. "Can I come in?" He asked quietly. I nodded and moved out there room and he walked in. I picked Sky up out of the pram and put her on the floor and she rolled around the place. "So this is what you was doing?" Jack asked quietly and handed me Rowan. "Don't act so surprised. Can't exactly sleep on the streets with two young children." I said and Rowan sighed loudly and wrapped his arms round my neck. "Did you use that account?" Jack asked. "Yes, I didn't want to but I seriously don't have the money in mine to support me and these two and keep up with bills and food." I said. "Use it. It was for this reason it was set up for. I'll put money in it every week so you'll always have enough money." He said. "You don't have too do that." I said quietly. "Your still my husband and you have my kids so I will do whatever I want with my money." He said seriously. I sighed and looked down. "Can you leave please." I said quietly. Jack nodded and walked over to Rowan and kissed his head. He went to walk out the door. "How the others?" I asked quickly. "They hate me, I haven't seen Seth for the last 3 days. So I guess their okay." He said. I nodded and Jack shut the door. I looked at Rowan and went and put him in bed and went back to Sky and picked her up. "You hungry?" I asked and got a bottle which I had already made and sat on the sofa and gave her the bottle while messing with her mop of hair she had. I smiled and just watched her.
Rowan and Sky was in bed which left me alone. I looked around hoping that Jack would come and sit next to me and I could cuddle into his side and watch shitty movies together. I sniffed and wiped my eyes. "I'm better of without him." I whispered to myself. I knew it was a lie as I haven't eaten since I left or if I did eat something I would just stick my fingers down my throat and make myself sick. I've cut myself a lot I'm just basically destroying myself and nothing could stop me. Not even Rowan and Sky. I got up and walked to Rowans room and watched him sleep. I felt a couple of tears roll down my cheek. I couldn't cope with them. It wasn't because they was naughty because they weren't naughty children, I couldn't cope with myself. I'm on the verge of a huge mental breakdown and I didn't want Rowan and Sky to suffer because of me. I walked out his room and picked my phone up and called Jack. After the 3rd ring Jack answered. "Alex?" He asked confused. "I need you to pick Rowan and Sky up and look after them for me." I said and sniffed quietly and wipped my eyes as I could feel the tears come falling down my cheek. "Why? I thought you could cope?" He said. "Please Jack. I need you to do this one thing for me." I begged him. I heard him sigh. "I'll be there in 10 minutes." He said and hung up.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and got up and picked up the toys I took with me and put them in a bag. I walked into Rowans room and sat on his bed and watched him sleep. "I'm so sorry buddy. I've let you down." I said quietly and kissed his forehead and walked out and got Sky and put her in her pram without even waking her up. "I love you. Whatever happens I'll always be here." I said and sniffed and kissed her forehead. I heard someone knocked on the door. I went over and answered it and Jack was there. "What's going on?" He asked and he walked in. "You was right, I can't cope. I need you too look after the kids for me." I said trying not too cry. "Come home Alex. I can look after everyone then." He said. "I can't. The kids are all who you need to worry about. Forget about me Jack." I said quietly and went to get Rowan. I hugged him until I handed him to Jack. Jack could clearly see the tears in my eyes. "Lex, please come with me." He said. I shook my head. "Leave Jack, tell the kids I love them." I said and turned my back to him. I heard him sigh and he walked to the door. "Be safe Lex. I love you." He said and sht the door behind him. As soon as that door was shut I just broke down into ugly sobs until I made myself sick from crying. I crawled onto the sofa and turned the TV on and tried to fall asleep.
Alex's POV "It's perfect." I said to the person who was showing me round this really biggish flat which would be perfectperfect for me. "So are you going to have this please then?" She asked. "Yeah please." I said and she chuckled and handed me the keys. "You said you've already paid for the rent for the next 3 months." She said and I nodded. Me and Jack set up some sort of account that if I left for any reason the money in that account would be enough for me to life and not worry about working. I noticed he also put a load of money in the account as well. "Okay sir, well I hope you enjoy staying here." She smiled and walked out and left me alone. Which wasn't what I need right now as I haven't taken my meds as I forgot them and I didn't want to go back to the house and get them. I looked round and thought about when me and Jack first got a place and it looked a lot like this place. I didn't want to turn out and get the kids so I texted Jack my address and told him to bring the kids with him. I already had my stuff in my car as I said to Rian and Cass that I was getting this place and would be out of their hair. They told me not to go but I wanted to as I could tell Rowan was really starting to get on Rian nerves a little.
I had just finished making Rowans bed when I heard someone knock on the door. I answered it and saw Jack who had Rowan asleep in his arms and Sky was wide awake. "Can I come in?" He asked quietly. I nodded and moved out there room and he walked in. I picked Sky up out of the pram and put her on the floor and she rolled around the place. "So this is what you was doing?" Jack asked quietly and handed me Rowan. "Don't act so surprised. Can't exactly sleep on the streets with two young children." I said and Rowan sighed loudly and wrapped his arms round my neck. "Did you use that account?" Jack asked. "Yes, I didn't want to but I seriously don't have the money in mine to support me and these two and keep up with bills and food." I said. "Use it. It was for this reason it was set up for. I'll put money in it every week so you'll always have enough money." He said. "You don't have too do that." I said quietly. "Your still my husband and you have my kids so I will do whatever I want with my money." He said seriously. I sighed and looked down. "Can you leave please." I said quietly. Jack nodded and walked over to Rowan and kissed his head. He went to walk out the door. "How the others?" I asked quickly. "They hate me, I haven't seen Seth for the last 3 days. So I guess their okay." He said. I nodded and Jack shut the door. I looked at Rowan and went and put him in bed and went back to Sky and picked her up. "You hungry?" I asked and got a bottle which I had already made and sat on the sofa and gave her the bottle while messing with her mop of hair she had. I smiled and just watched her.
Rowan and Sky was in bed which left me alone. I looked around hoping that Jack would come and sit next to me and I could cuddle into his side and watch shitty movies together. I sniffed and wiped my eyes. "I'm better of without him." I whispered to myself. I knew it was a lie as I haven't eaten since I left or if I did eat something I would just stick my fingers down my throat and make myself sick. I've cut myself a lot I'm just basically destroying myself and nothing could stop me. Not even Rowan and Sky. I got up and walked to Rowans room and watched him sleep. I felt a couple of tears roll down my cheek. I couldn't cope with them. It wasn't because they was naughty because they weren't naughty children, I couldn't cope with myself. I'm on the verge of a huge mental breakdown and I didn't want Rowan and Sky to suffer because of me. I walked out his room and picked my phone up and called Jack. After the 3rd ring Jack answered. "Alex?" He asked confused. "I need you to pick Rowan and Sky up and look after them for me." I said and sniffed quietly and wipped my eyes as I could feel the tears come falling down my cheek. "Why? I thought you could cope?" He said. "Please Jack. I need you to do this one thing for me." I begged him. I heard him sigh. "I'll be there in 10 minutes." He said and hung up.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and got up and picked up the toys I took with me and put them in a bag. I walked into Rowans room and sat on his bed and watched him sleep. "I'm so sorry buddy. I've let you down." I said quietly and kissed his forehead and walked out and got Sky and put her in her pram without even waking her up. "I love you. Whatever happens I'll always be here." I said and sniffed and kissed her forehead. I heard someone knocked on the door. I went over and answered it and Jack was there. "What's going on?" He asked and he walked in. "You was right, I can't cope. I need you too look after the kids for me." I said trying not too cry. "Come home Alex. I can look after everyone then." He said. "I can't. The kids are all who you need to worry about. Forget about me Jack." I said quietly and went to get Rowan. I hugged him until I handed him to Jack. Jack could clearly see the tears in my eyes. "Lex, please come with me." He said. I shook my head. "Leave Jack, tell the kids I love them." I said and turned my back to him. I heard him sigh and he walked to the door. "Be safe Lex. I love you." He said and sht the door behind him. As soon as that door was shut I just broke down into ugly sobs until I made myself sick from crying. I crawled onto the sofa and turned the TV on and tried to fall asleep.
Notes
I don't know where this is even heading now.... But I feel guilty for doing to this and want them to get back together buuuuut I'm on a serious down and feel like shit... So yeah... Don't even like this...
@Kids-in-the-dark
Already read all the chapters so far and I'm in love with that story as much as I was with this one
3/29/16