Jacks POV I suppose I desvere a night on the sofa. I don't really blame Alex for what he's doing because we did make a promise that if I was stupid like this again then he would leave. But I didn't think he was that serious about it when he said it but I guess he was. I missed not being in bed and cuddling up to him and it was only the first night. God knows how its going to be like when he leaves in the morning with Rowan and Sky. After spending most of the night thinking I fell into a restless sleep. I was woken up by someone in the kitchen. I sat up and walked to the kitchen and saw Alex. He was lost in thought and he looked up and saw me and looked down and sniff loudly. "Alex can we just talk about it? Please." I said, well more like begging because I really didn't want him to leave. I couldn't function without him. "I'm leaving once everyone is up and said goodbye." He said his voice shaking. "Please Alex don't leave!" I pleaded. "Should of thought about that before you fucked someone else!" He spat. I sighed and looked down. "Am I suppose to just give up on you just like that? Tear this family apart, what about Rowan and Sky you can't cope with them." I said. "Yes! Give up on me! Because I have fucking given up on you. You torn this family apart not me. I didn't go of sleeping with someone else! I have been fucking loyal to you right from the fucking start, I have never looked at another man Jack! I can cope with them, had to since you have always been fucking off to work all the bloody time." He said trying not to shout. His words really hurt. "Babe please, don't give up on me. Give me another chance." I said. Alex sighed and looked at me. He looked tired and his eyes where puffy from crying. "I can't, I never fully trusted you after what you did them years ago. Now I know why. I have lost all my trust, lost everything. I thought you had changed Jack I really did. I lost my hope now, my reason to stay alive. You was my everything and now. Now I feel more alone than ever, its all your fault Jack." He said and a couple of tears fell down his face. "If you feel like that then don't go." I said. "I have no choice Jack! I can't stay under the same roof at you! I can't fucking look at you without feeling sick." He said a little louder than before. His words were like arrows which knew exactly where to hit me. Alex walked forward while taking his ring off and put it on the table. "I will always love you Jack. But maybe it's for the best if we're not together anymore." He said quietly. I felt tears fall down my face. "Alex please." I sniffed. "I'm sorry Jack." He whispered and walked out the room. I just broke down. I looked at his ring and picked it up and held it tightly in my hand. I walked over to the sofa and let everything just sink in. I've lost my best friend, my soul mate all because of me. I must of fell asleep as I was woken up by someone talking. I sat up and got off the sofa and saw Alex bye to the kids. "You know where I am if you need me. You can always call or text me as well." He said and pulled Aidan into a hug. "Don't go dad please." Riley said quietly. "I have too, its for the best I need you all too look after each other and keep and eye out on pa for me." He said and pulled Riley into a hug. I noticed Seth wasn't there. I looked towards the stairs and saw him sat on to top step watching looking broken. Him and Alex have always been close and I guess this was really hurting him. Alex looked at Seth and smiled. Then he looked at me he got down to Rowans level and said something to him and he came running over to me and I picked him up and hugged him tightly. "Me, dada and Sky are going on holiday." He said innocently. "Are you, wow, where you going?" I asked. "Dada didn't say, he said that we was going on a adventure." He said. Alex walked over and I hugged Rowan once more and handed him back to Alex. "You can see them every weekend at a place I say you can see them." He said quietly. "Don't go." I said in one last pathetic attempt to make him stay. "I have too. I'll see you around Jack." He said and turned round and kissed Aidan on top of her head and hugged Riley and walked out without a second glance. Alex has only been gone a few seconds and I already miss him like crazy. I looked at Aidan and Riley and Riley was hugging Aid for comfort. "You happy now? Because you couldn't keep it in your fucking pants he's gone! I fucking hate you!" Aidan shouted at me. "I hate myself as well so join the club on hating me." I said and went upstairs to mine and Alex's room. Seth had disappeared into his room.Once I got into the room and crawled into bed and cried.

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Alex's POV I went straight to Rian and Cass place. I knock on the door and waited. "Where's da?" Rowan asked. Sky was in her pram so I got down to his level. "Me and da have fallen out so we're staying with uncle Ri and aunt Cass for a while until I can find somewhere for us to live." I said. "But what about da?" He asked. "He'll be okay, you'll see him Saturday if you want to." I sniffed. "Is dada going to be okay?" He asked and looked at me. "I'll be fine. I have you and Sky and we'll be fine." I said and picked him up and held him close and I looked at saw Cass watching and giving me a sad smile. "Can we stay here until I find a place?" I asked. "You don't even need to ask." Cass said and we went inside. Rowan was annoying Rian and I was feeding Sky. "Wait he cheated on you?" Rian asked. "Rian!" Cass scolded. "Yeah he cheated. Thought I would feel better once away from him but I feel like shit." I said and looked at Sky. "Well you know you can stay here as long as you want." Cass said quietly as Sky had fallen asleep. "Thanks, I'll just warn you Sky likes to wake up at 2 in the morning and Rowan seems to like his 4 AM starts." I said and Rowan came over to me and cuddled into my side. "It's fine, he'll be a good alarm clock for Rian when he needs to go for work." Cass smiled. "He'll get knocked out if he wakes me up that early." Rian chuxkled. "You lay and hand on him and your dead." I growled. "I was joking Alex." Rian said taken back a little. "Still, don't threaten to beat him up. Only I can do that." I smiled and kissed the top of Rowan's head. "Pass Sky here. I want a cuddle with my niece." Cass said and I passed Sky over to her. Rowan was in bed and Sky was cooing to herself to sleep in Rian arms. Cass offered me a beer which I happily took. "So now your not with him, you can go and find someone better." Rian said. I sighed and looked down. "But I don't want to, I love him to bits. No one can fill the hole in my heart right now." I said quietly. "Which is understandable. But maybe this is what he needs to make him realize what he has lost." Cass said. "I hope so Cass." I whispered.
I was sat on the floor having a shower which turned into me getting lost in my thoughts looking at the blade I was messing with. I haven't cut myself since Rowan was born and that was almost 3 years ago. I sighed and brought the blade up to my arm and dragged it across my arm. I sat there and watched the blood leave the cut. "Fuck it, he doesn't fucking care anymore." I said quietly to myself and cut my arm until it was covered in cuts and the floor of the shower was red. It wasn't enough for my liking, I just wanted to be dead right now but Rowan and Sky was literally the only thing keeping me going. I got up off the floor and cleaned my arm up and put bandage on my arm and walked out and climbed into bed. It felt too big without Jack. I felt cold without him cuddling into my back, I always felt safe with him around and now I have never felt so unsafe since I got kicked out onto the streets when I was a teenager. I felt a tear roll of the end of my nose and that was it I just cried myself into another restless sleep.

Notes

I feel bad for breaking them up.... Oops the joys of feeling shitty and you just take it out on the fanfics...