Alex's POV "You're actually trusting me with your credit card?" I asked Jack as I sorted Sky out since I was being forced to get stuff for the house with Aidan, Rowan and Sky. "Yeah, dunno if its a good idea or not." He chuckled. I looked at him. "I'm not that bad thanks." I said and Jack walked over and wrapped his arms round my waist. "You spoil yourself okay." He said quietly. "With Aidan and Rowan you got to be joking." I said and sat Sky up. Jack reached over and rubbed her cheek with his finger. "Can't you just go? I'm seriously not in the mood." I said and picked Sky up and turned round and faced Jack. "Have you taken your meds?" He asked quietly. "Yes, its the same shit just different day. Get up take my meds and then go through the day with the fakest smile on my face." I said but it came across as me snapping. Jack took Sky from me and put her on our bed. Normally me and Seth seem to take it in turns when we have a episode or something but this time the whole house is suffering because we couldn't keep our cool and Riley wasn't happy about being here so I was feeling quite sorry for Aidan at the moment. Didn't help because I felt really distance from Jack as well. "I don't want to talk about it Jack." I said and got up but Jack got hold of my hand and pulled me back onto the bed. "What's up?" He asked quietly. I couldn't help what I was about to say. "You seeing someone else Jack?" I asked seriously. He looked at me shocked. "No! What the fuck is that even in your head?" He shouted at me. I looked down. "I'm sorry." I whispered. "I know you have problems but I would never thought you would say I was cheating on you!" He said loudly. "Well it wouldn't be the first while we are on this subject!" I snapped. "It was a fucking kiss! Why are you still bringing it up!?" He said loudly. I looked at him confused. "This is the first time I have brought this up since you done that! So there is someone else your seeing because I don't keep on about it!" I said and got up. "You know what I might as well just tell you the truth, yes I have been seeing someone." He said. I felt my heart break. "Get out." I said quietly. "Alex let me explain." Jack said. "Get the fuck out of this room I don't want to fucking see you right now!" I screamed at him and Sky started to cry and Jack went over to her. "Get away from her." I growled and Jack looked at me. "Babe..." He started. "Don't fucking babe me. Get out of this room, I don't want to see you." I said. Jack nodded and walked out the room and I waited until the door was shut when I started to cry and I went over to Sky and picked her up. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." I said quietly in her ear and held her close to me. I was sat on the bed thinking with Sky asleep on my chest. I heard the door open and I looked to see who it was and saw Jack. "Go away, I don't want to even look at you right now." I said and got up and put Sky in her cot we had in our room. "You have to eat something." He said quietly. "I'm too upset to eat." I whispered and watched Sky sleep while trying not to cry. "Alex I'm sorry I did that.." He started. I turned round and looked at him. "You not though. Remember that promise I made them years ago? If you fucking did it again I would be gone with the kids. Well I'm not leaving so you are. I want you out this house." I said. Jack looked at me shocked. "Alex please lets talk about this." Jack said. I walked out the room because I was about to blow my top and I didn't want to wake Sky up. I walked into the kitchen and went to the fridge ands grab a bottle of wine and drunk some. "Bit early to start drinking?" Riley said. "Never to early when you find out your other half has cheated on you." I said and had a big mouth full. Riley looked at Jack. "What's he's on about?" He asked confused. "Well Riley. Jacky here couldn't keep it in his pants and went and fucked someone else. That about right Jack." I said. Riley looked at Jack horrified. "Leave the room Riley." Jack said and Riley did. "Alex. Don't kick me out let's talk about it." Jack said. "If you don't leave then I will. I don't want to talk about it." I said and grabbed a wine glass and poured myself a bug glass and pretty much downed half of it. "Alcohol doesn't solve problems Alex." Jack said quietly. "No but it makes you forget. Makes me forget that my husband cheated on me on another bloke. What the fuck am I too you a bit of shit on your shoe? Is that what I am just a pile of shit!" I shouted. I saw Rowan come walking out but Seth picked him up and went off somewhere. "Your not a pile of shit on my shoe." He said quietly. "Well I defently feel like it Jack!" I snapped. "It's not you talking Alex." He said and looked at me. "It is me talking and don't you dare say its my BPD because its not! If it was I would be crying my fucking eyes out begging you to say it wasn't true but it is a Jack." I said. Jack moved towards me and I put my hand on his chest to stop him coming any closer. "I'll take Rowan and Sky and you'll have the others and I'll be gone in the morning." I said quietly. "Alex don't." Jack said and a couple of tears fell. "You left me no choice Jack." I said and down my half of glass and walked out the room. I went upstairs and saw Seth watching me. "Dad, what's going on?" He asked. "I'm leaving Seth. I'm taking Rowan anmd Sky and you'll be left here with Pa." I said quietly and felt a tear fall. "But I dont want to stay here with him." He said. "Please Seth, for me." I said and looked at him. "I don't want you to go." He said quietly. I walked over to him and pulled him into a hug. "It's for the best. I need you to look after everyone here for me." I said quietly. Seth hugged me tightly. "If you need me I'll be at Uncle Rians if you need me. Tell Ri and Aid that but not pa and once I get somewhere I'll tell you and you can and see me, Row and Sky and stay round." I said quietly. I heard him sniff. It was rare that Seth cried but when he did it broke my heart. I pulled back and looked at him. "Don't cry, I hate it when you cry." I said quietly and wiped his tears away. "I need you to promise me one thing though." I said and made him look at me. "Don't hurt yourself, speak to me or Ty and we'll help you." I said and kissed his forehead and walked to what was mine and Jacks room. Sky was cooing to herself so I left her too it and I picked a picture of me and Jack up. I felt a tear fall again and I threw it against the wall and made Sky cry. I just left her to it, I just lowered myself to the floor and started to cry. I heard the door open. "Go away Jack." I sniffed and I looked up and saw Riley. He sat next to me. "Did pa really do what you said he did?" He asked. "Yeah, I said to him when you was little that if he did it again I would take you and Seth with me but with Aid, Row and Sky on the scene I have to take Row and Sky and leave you with pa." I said. "I don't want to stay here with him." He said quietly. "You have too. I need you too keep an eye on Seth for me." I said. Ri nodded. I heard someone else walk in and saw Aidan who had mascara down her cheek. I put my arm out and she cuddled in my side. "Don't cry." I said quietly and kissed the side of her head. "Can we stay with you tonight?" Aidan asked quietly. "Course you can." I said and everyone got up and sat on the bed. Seth came in and joined Aid and Ri and I think Tyler and Kit just left them to it. Rowan came running in and jumped on us. I felt guilty because Jack was downstairs on his own but he shouldn't of done what he did. Everyone was asleep part from Seth who was having problems sleeping like me. He was holding Sky. I heard the door open and saw Jack walking in. "Get out." Seth growled. "I just want to say night." He said. "Get fucked." Seth said and got put Sky in her cot as she was asleep. "Just leave Jack before you upset anymore people." I said and messed with Aidan's hair. "Okay." Jack whispered and walked out the room. I got comfy and slowly fell into a disturbed sleep.

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What have I done....