Jacks POV

I was sat in drama bored shitless like normal as I hated this lesson.
By the look on Alex's face he hated it as well.
We was only watching a film but Alex was sat on his phone behind this prop thing and by the looks of things he was listening to music.
I looked at the screen and saw it was the same film we've been watching for the last 3 weeks.
"Seriously?" I muttered and got up and went over and joined Alex.

He was sat on the floor using his phone as a light and was drawing something.
He looked up and saw me and pulled his headphone out.
"Yes?" He asked and carried on what he was doing.
I sat opposite him and looked.
"Your good." I said quietly.
He snorted.
"Fuck off." He said and looked at me.
I looked at him seeing if he was serious about what he said but he wasn't by the looks of things.
The lights turned on and Alex rolled his eyes and stood up and stood by the edge of the prop and lent against it.
Couldn't help but check his arse out and just check him out in general.
Now I knew I wasn't the only one who was gay made me feel less alone about it.
"I need you too get into groups of 4 and act this sence." Sir said.
"Fuck that." Alex said and grabbed his bag and walked out the class.
Drama was the only lesson I had with Zack and Rian so we really took this time to talk and not do any work.

"So, what did you get up too this weekend then?" Rian asked.
"I spoke to a drunk Alex." I said quietly and looked at them.
"Drunk?" Zack asked confused.
"Yeah, drunk." I said sarcastically.
"Where the fuck does a 14 year old get alcohol?" Rian asked and a few minutes later Alex was dragged back into this lesson.
"Get your fucking hands off me!" He shouted as he was pushed back into class.
"You do not go walking out of this lesson." Sir said.
"I can and I will." He said and walked out again.
The teacher grabbed hold off him and Alex spun round and punched him.
"Don't fucking touch me again." He growled and walked out the class and slammed the door behind him.
"3 guesses on who kneed Armstrong in the bullocks." Rian said.
Something was seriously wrong with him if he did this and had scars and drinks.

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Alexs POV

I couldnt go home as no one was home and we all agreed that i wasnt allowed to go home unless someone was in.
It was stupid in my eyes but i can see where everyone was coming from.
Since i punched that teacher i decided to go too the office and confess my sin.

I walked to the office and waited for someone.
"Hello Alex, your face is coming a regular." The woman said.
"'Ello." I said.
"What have you done this time?" She asked.
"Punched the drama teacher so I thought I might as well hand myself in before he does." I said and the teacher showed up.
"Your not coming back to my lesson." He said and walked off.
"Good, I don't give a shit." I said.
"Go and wait in the corridor, I'm sure the head will want to speak to you." She said and I walked too the corridor.

They decided that I weren't going to go to my lessons so I was sat in the heads office doodling and listening to my music.
They walked in.
"Alex what a surprise." She said.
"Well surprise." I said not looking up as I was quite happy doodling.
"You can't keep on doing this Alex, it isn't fair on the teachers or you." She said and sat down.
"Life isn't fair, if it was fair then I wouldn't be fucked up." I said.
"Your not fucked up, just missed understood. I know what has happened to you and what is wrong with you." She said.
I stopped what I was doing and looked at her.
"What?" I asked.
"Your mother came in and explained to us what is wrong with you and why you act the way you do." She said.
"Fucking woman can't keep her mouth shut." I muttered.
"She's just looking out for you." She said.
"I can look after myself, I don't need anyone no one was there when I needed them the most so why should it change now!" I said loudly.
"Because that was then and this is now." She said.
"But its not your fucking past it is mine now keep your fucking nose out of my business." I said and got up and got my bag and walked out.

It was lunch so I went looking for Fred and Eric and I couldn't find them so I went and sat outside.
It was cold outside but I didn't care.
I was watching the people who was playing football while I was freezing my balls off.

I saw someone sitting next too me.
"It's fucking freezing out here." They said.
"It's fine once you get used to it." I said quietly.
"How come your not going home? Normally once you disappear we don't see you till tomorrow." They said.
"No one is home and I'm not trusted to be home." I said and looked through my bag and got my meds I needed to take.
"What they for?" He asked.
"Stopping me going crazy." I said and downed the pills with a bottle of mountain dew.
"About the other day.." They started and I looked at them.
It was Jack but I knew it was Jack since he seemed to be the only one who was brave enough to come and talk to me.
"You don't say nothing about what you saw or what I said!" I growled and looked at him seriously.
"I was just gonna say, your serect is safe with me." He said.
"Why you even talking too me, no one else in this place want to talk to me, is this so you can go spilling anything I say to everyone?" I said.
"What the fuck is wrong with you? Like one minute your perfectly fine and the next you go all crazy on anyone wanting to talk to you." He said.
"You know what, just fuck off and don't even fucking bother talking to me." I said.
He sat there and looked at me.
"Well go on, fuck off will you!" I shouted.
"Your fucking mental." He said and got up and walked off.
"If only you knew." I said quietly and hugged my knees and watched people walking to their lessons.

I don't have a clue how long I was sat outside for but someone came over and sat next too me.
"Here, you must be fucking freezing." They said and handed me a hot drink.
I looked and saw Jack.
"Thanks." I muttered and wrapped my hands round the mug.
"Come inside and warm up, can't stay put here and freeze too death." He said.
"Ever been river walking?" I asked and looked at him.
"No, if you haven't guessed already there's hardly any rivers." He said.
"River walking in the summer is fun, but its even better in the winter." I said.
"I'm confused, why would you walk in freezing cold water?" He asked.
I shrugged my shoulders.
"Too see if I'm alive and not some fucked up dream." I said.
"Your messed up aren't you?" He asked quietly.
"You don't fucking say." I said sarcastically.

He was going to say something but Eric came over.
"What you doing sat out here? It's freezing." He said and kneeled beside me.
"I told him that but he doesn't listen to me." Jack said.
Eric looked at him and smiled.
"Come on, let's get you indoors so you can warm up." Eric said.
I shook my head.
"Alex don't do this too me, you need to warm up as your hands are blue." He said seriously.
"Don't care." I muttered.
"You, I don't know what your name is but right now I don't care, can you hunt Freddie down for me." Eric said.
"I don't know what he looks like." Jack said.
"Basically look for someone who has brown hair and eyes, stretched ears, lip pircing, wearing a black beanie, shirt black skinny jeans and boots." Eric said.
"Do you know what lesson he is in?" He asked.
"Maths I think but I dunno." Eric said.
Jack got up and left.

"You can't keep on doing this Alex, I know you can't help it but you can't do this, winter here is harsher than in England." Eric said.
I stayed quiet.
Eric took his coat off and put it over me.
"Have you taken your meds?" He asked.
I looked at him and nodded.
Freddie showed up.
"How long has he been sat out here?" Fred asked.
"A while, he was sat here at lunch." Jack said.
"And you didn't think on taking him indoors?" Eric asked.
"He told me too fuck off so I did, I thought that once he was really cold he would move inside like normal people do." He said.
Fred moved getting ready to pick a fight with Jack.
"Fred don't." Eric said.
Freddie just glared at Jack.
He moved so he was next to me.
"If you stay out here you'll get ill and we can't have that." Fred said.
"Did you see him take his meds?" Eric asked and looked at Jack.
"Yeah." He said.
"Give me a hand to get him up." Eric said and him and Fred put an arm under mine and made me get up.
"Get off me." I said quietly but teeth where chattering too much for them too hear me.
"He's frozen." Freddie said.
"This really isn't good, walk Alex." Eric sad and we walked indoors.

We sat in the food hall.
Jack followed since he was carry our bags for us.
Freddie and Eric went and got us drinks which left me with Jack.
I had Freddie's really thick coat on and I just wrapped myself up in it.
"They really care about you." Jack said.
I nodded and looked down.
"What was that all about?" He asked.
"I dunno, I sometimes just do things which I don't understand." I said quietly.
"What is wrong with you?" He asked.
"Dunno, docs dunno, no one knows so I'm just some crazy kid who struggles with everything." I said.
"What are your meds for?" He asked.
"I don't know but their fucking useless." I said.

A teacher walked in.
"Boys why aren't you in lesson?" He asked.
"It's fine Mr Fawkes, these boys have a reason." The head said and walked in with mum.
She came over too me.
"What have you been doing?" She asked.
"Trying to freeze himself to death." Eric said and handed me a hot drink.
I took it and smiled at him.
"Alex." Mum sighed.
"I'm sorry." I said quietly.
"Come on let's take you home." She said and I slowly moved taking Fred's coat off.
"Leave it princess, you need it more than me." He said and smiled.
I got off the table and slowly walked off.

We got back and I went and sat on the sofa.
Mum sat next too me.
"Your not gonna tell me off?" I asked sheepishly.
"No, you can't help what goes on in your head sometimes." She said quietly.
I moved so I was close to her and stealing her body heat.
"Go too sleep, you'll feel better and hopefully you will warm up a little." She said and pulled the blanket over me.

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