Many Of Horror

Alex's POV

When I woke up I was still in Fred's bed and there was a arm round my middle.
"Please tell me I wasn't fucked out my face and fucked someone who was much older than me." I muttered.
"No you wasn't princess, its just Eric flat out asleep." Freddie said from the floor.
"He never does this." I said and rolled over and looked at Freddie.
"He's been acting strange, you noticed that." He said and looked at me.
"Explain to me as acting strange, Eric is strange." I said.
"That's true, but I mean like really cuddley and shit. He hasn't been like that since doing drugs. You don't think he's doing it again." He said and looked down.
"I've noticed as well. I don't know because he was serective when he was doing that shit but he isn't now, I dunno the only way is too ask him suppose." I said.
"So was you, and you still are Alex." He said seriously.
"I'm not even gonna talk about it especially when I've only just woken up and its the weekend so excuse me I'm going back to sleep." I said and got comfy and fell asleep again.

When I next woke up I was in my bed.
"Well this sucks." I muttered and sat up and looked round.
I got out of bed and walked downstairs.
"And he finally wakes up." Eric said and walked to the sitting room in just his pants like any normal weekend really.
"It's only 2 in the afternoon." I yawned and walked to the kitchen and Fred was out there looking lost.
"You okay?" I asked and walked up to him.
"Yeah, just thinking." He said and looked at me
"Wanna talk about it?" I asked.
He shook his head.
"Na, I don't want to burden you with my problems." He said and walked off but I caught hold of his arm and he stopped and looked at me.
"You'll never do that Fred, I've told you my problems you can tell me yours." I said quietly.
He smiled.
"Don't do what I did, promise me." I said and suck my little finger out.
"I wouldn't, but I promise." He said and wrapped his little finger round mine.
I pulled him into a hug which he returned.
"Your too cuddley." He chuckled.
"Rather be that than be a stone cold hearted person." I said quietly.
"So do I." He said and pulled away and walked to the sitting room.

Eric finally managed to get dressed and we went to this store place to see what trouble we could get into.
I was sat in the trolley listening to music and Fred was sat on the front of the trolley and Eric was pushing.
"Here Alex this is your thing don't you think?" Freddie said and got off the trolley and got this thing.
"The fuck even is it?" I asked confused.
They laughed and Eric stole my hat and put it on.
"Hey!" I said and looked at him.
"Sorry princess, but its mine now since you have stolen my jumper." He said.
"He's still a baby after all." Fred said and sat on the front of the trolley but was facing us.
"Duh, I'm only 14 unlike you old farts." I said and chuckled.
Eric slapped the back off my head.
"Cheeky." Freddie chuckled.

"This place is huge." Eric said who was now sat in the trolley and listening to my music with me while Freddie was pushing.
"Right there's a free alcohol testing thing right there, out of us who looks like their 21." I said.
Eric and Fred looked at each other.
"Your on your own with that, its bad enough that you drink and smoke at your age." Eric said.
"Ugh, whatever mum." I said and rolled my eyes.
"Never got caught tho did I?" I said.
"Yeah you did, remember when you woke up in a cell?" Fred asked.
"Nope, remember a padded cell if that's what your one about." I said and looked at him.
"That was another time, one which I don't want to remember." Fred said sadly and looked down.
"Why's that?" Eric said.
"Because I almost lost my brothers. One too drugs and the other to suicide, not the happiest time in my life." He said.
"Fuck it I'll go up and get us some alcohol, boys we are getting fucked before mum and dad return from wherever." He said and climbed out the trolley and walked off somewhere.
Fred was still looking down.
I put my hand on top of his.
"I'm not going anywhere, I know I don't feel any better and that but I'm not leaving you two." I said.
"Me and you are gonna have a serious talk when we get back." He said and Eric showed up with a bottle of vodka.
"Right what we're gonna do is look at the toilets and see if they have them bleeper things if not then we meet by the clothes and we go there and drink this." He said.
"Or, you can run out of here while I go into one of my crazy modes." I said.
"Yeah, but that means we have to leave without you." Fred said.
"Duh, I go crazy distract people you run off, I stop going crazy and walk out the shop like nothing has happened." I said.
"Don't like the sound of this." Eric said.
"I'm not gonna do nothing stupid." I said and looked at him.
"You said that last time and nearly fucking jumped." Freddie said.
"But the last time I did that I was in a bad place. I mean a really bad place, please I'll be fine. I have my phone and if anything happens I'll call you." I said.
"No, its not happening Alex." Eric said seriously.
I rolled my eyes and grabbed the bottle and opened it and took a big mouthful.
"Alex!" Freddie said.
"Look, you might not think I'm not okay but I am, so I'm gonna take this and walk out this shop with it, then I'm gonna run and drink this too myself." I said and got out the trolley and walked out the shop.
As soon as the alarm went off I pegged it as fast as I could to a park which was on the other side of town.

I was sat in the park on a swing drinking when someone sat next to me.
"Drinking and smoking damn your mum must be so proud off you." They said sarcastically.
"Fuck off you don't even fucking know me." I said.
I had my sleeves rolled up as the running had made me really hot.
"Really? Then how come your drinking and have some lovely looking scars." He said sarcastically again.
"Want to fucking say that again!" I said loudly and got up.
"Cool it man, I don't want a fight." They said.
"Then don't say fucking nothing about my scars, I know they are there." I said and sat back down again.
"Do you even remember my name?" He asked.
"Well I have taken my drugs I need to take and I have been drinking and I have been asleep." I said.
"You do drugs?" He asked shocked.
I laughed.
"Noo, why would I do that? I mean a normal 14 year old would never do that now would they." I said and took another big mouthful of vodka.
"Somehow I don't think you are normal." He said.
"Ever tried to kill yourself?" I asked and sat sideways on the swing and passed him the vodka.
He took it and drunk some and pulled a face.
"No, somehow I never wanted to kill myself." He said.
"I have, 5 times. They even sent me away to the nut house." I said and got up and stood on the swing.
"Why you even telling me this?" He asked.
I shrugged my shoulders.
"Dunno, I'm drunk and I'm very chatty when I am." I said and started to swing on the swing.
"So do you remember my name?" He asked.
"Sure, its Jack ain't it?" I asked and looked at him.
He smiled.
"Ah! I got it right, fucking awesome I am." I said.
He laughed.
I smiled and sat back down on the swing.
"So tell me Jack, you bent as a round about like me or are you a straight edge like my brothers." I asked.
"Bent as a round about." He said.
I was going to say something but Freddie came over.
"Fuck off its a two man party cant ypu see?" I said.
"Your in fucking deep shit when ypu get home." He growled.
"Nothing new there then." I sighed and grabbed my vodka of Jack.
"You, whatever my intoxicated brother has told you you are not going to say too anyone else, got it? Because if you do I will beat the living shits out of you and then I'll keep on doing it. Understood!" He growled.
Jack nodded.
"Good, now fucking get your arse home!" He said and glared at me.
"Sir yes sir." I said and got up and walked off, I could feel Jack watching me.

"Found him! He's pissed as well!" Freddie said and caught hold of my arm and dragged me too the sitting room.
"No I'm not." I said and yanked my arm out of his hold.
Mum was sat on the sofa and Eric in the chair.
"Fred, Eric leave us alone please." Mum said quietly and it was scary.
They left and I was left standing in the middle of the room.
"What the fuck is wrong with you Alex!" Mum shouted at me.
She never shouted at me before so I flinched away.
"Don't shout at me." I said quietly and looked down.
"What am I meant to do Alex? Talking to you isn't sinking I nto your head. Nothing is going into your head. Tell me why Alex, why aren't you listening to me." She said.
I stayed quiet and looked down still.
"Alexander answer me!" She shouted again.
"Don't shout at me, everyone shouts at me and I don't like it." I said loudly and sunk to the floor and started to cry.
I heard mum sighed and get up and walked over to me and sat down and pulled me too her side.
"I'm sorry sweetie, I didn't mean to shout." She said quietly and kissed the top off my head.
"He used to shout at me." I said quietly and sniffed loudly.
"Don't think about him. Your far away from him now. He's not going to get you." She said.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"You have nothing to be sorry for." She said quietly.
"I do, I'm sorry I'm messed up, I'm sorry i did everything what I did." I said and cried hard.
"I wouldn't have you any other way." She said and kissed the top of my head and messed with my hair.

We had moved from the floor to the sofa where I just cuddled into mums side.
"You can't keep on doing this too yourself sweetie." She said quietly.
"It gets too much and I have to do something." I said quietly.
"Why didn't you say anything too me?" She asked pulling away and looked at me.
"Because I want you to think I'm getting better." I said quietly and looked down.
"I don't want t to think I want to know if your getting better, hiding it from me isn't going to help you sweetie." She said.
I looked at her but didn't say anything.
"Go upstairs and I'll bring you a tea up in a minute." She said.
I nodded and got up.

I was sat on my bed feeling lost.
Someone knocked on my door and I looked up and saw Eric standing by the door with my tea.
"Can I come in?" He said.
I nodded and looked down.
He came in and sat on my bed.
"Got you this and mum is ordering Chinese to try and cheer you up a little." He said.
"I don't deserve to be happy." I said quietly and moved so my back was too him.
"Hey, don't talk like that. You too young to be talking like that." He said.
He moved and sat beside me.
I moved so I was leaning against him.
"I'm here for you princess, we all are. Don't push us away like I did." He said quietly.

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