Many Of Horror

Jacks POV

I woke up alone in bed and the house was silent, which was scary because it meant Alex wasn't home and he could be doing anything.
"Alex?" I said just to be sure he wasn't in the house.
I didn't get a response so I flew out of bed ignoring my bitch of a hangover and pulled a pair of pants, one of Alex's baggy jumpers and a pair of jeans which weren't even mine or Alex's but I was going to steal them anyway.

I was just getting myself a drink since my mouth felt like the Sahara Desert when the front door opened and shut.
I went to the hall way forgetting my drink since I needed to see if it was Alex.
Sure enough stood in the hall way was Alex.
"Where the fuck have you been!? I've been worried sick!" I said and pulled him into a hug.
Something was up as he didn't return my hug like he normally does.
I pulled back and looked at him.
"Babe what's up?" I asked seriously beginning to worry.
He didn't say anything and he avoided my eye contact by looking down.
"Alex you scaring me now, what's the matter?" I said.
He still didn't say anything.
I got hold of his arm and his hissed in pain and pulled it out of my hold.
"Alex, talk to me please." I said and looked at my hand and it was red.
I looked at his arm and he had blood running down his hand.
I got hold of his other hand and took him upstairs to the bathroom.

Once I got him up there I looked him over.
I gently put my hand on his leg and he winced in pain.
"I'm sorry." I said quietly and pulled my hand back and looked at it and it was also red.
I looked at him and he was crying.
Alex rarely cried, or if he does he does it way from everyone.
"Hey don't cry, I'll fix you and make you better." I said quietly and pulled him into a hug.
This time he returned it and he cried really hard into my chest.
This broke my heart because he had so much going on and he managed to stay strong until now and he's just broken.
"I'm here, don't cry please." I said quietly and pulled him closer to my and kissed the top of his head.
He just kept on crying and my top was soon getting wet.
I pulled back and looked at him.
He looked down but was still crying.
"Tell me what happened?" I asked and picked him up and put him on the side after taking his clothes off which just left him in his pants.
I started to clean his cuts which in my eyes was deep but in Alex's they where swallow.
Alex just sat there and messed with his fingers watching me clean the wounds up.

"I'm sorry." he whispered I almost didn't hear him.
I looked at him and stopped what I was doing.
"You don't have to say sorry to me. I just want to know the reason why." I said quietly.
"I'm getting bad again." He sniffed.
"Explain to me. I don't understand what does on in that head of yours so you have to explain to me." I said.
"You'll leave me if I told you." He said and a new set of tears began to fall.
I made him look at me.
"I'm not going to leave you. I'll never leave you, especially when something is seriously wrong." I said and kissed him.
He returned my kiss and his lips were really soft from all the crying.
"You going to tell me?" I asked.
"I'm getting bad again." He said quietly.
"Have you been taking your meds?" I asked.
he nodded.
"Their not working, nothing is working. Not even this." He said and looked at his cuts.
"You shouldn't be doing this Lex, why didn't you wake me up and talk to me. You can always come and talk to me even if you have to wake me up." I said.
"Because I'm annoying, I feel like I do nothing but annoy you. If I told you what was wrong your going to find me more annoying and leave and I don't want that." He sobbed.
"I'm never going to find you annoying. You hear me, never." I said.
"People say that, but they really talk about me behind my back. Look at that freak, the one with scars over his body and the one whos fucked in the head!" he said loudly.
Now he was getting annoyed with himself which made him more upset.
"I don't want to be this anymore. I want to be normal like you and Fred." He said quietly.
My heart broke again, for the thousandth time today and it wasn't even midday.
"I wouldn't talk about you behind you back, the only time I would do that is telling people how amazing you are. You can do this okay, because you have me, Eric, Freddie and your mum we will do anything for you so you don't feel like this. To hopefully make you feel better." I said.
I smiled a little.
"I'm sorry." he said quietly.
"Stop saying sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for okay. Let me look after you okay because I will do anything so you don't feel like this. But you have to help me on this because I'm not a mind reader, as much as I would love to be one, but I'm not so your going to have to tell me when you feel like this so then I can help you." I said.
Alex sat forward and pulled me into a hug.
I returned it.
"Thank you." He whispered in my ear and kissed me.
"What for?" I asked.
"For listening, being here for me, for actually coping with me." He said and looking down.
"Isn't that what your meant to do when your in a relationship? Listen and help with problems?" I asked.
Alex nodded and smiled a little.

Alex was fast asleep cuddled into my side while I messed with his hair and watched movies.
I heard the front door open and shut and someone coming up the stairs.
"Alright Jacko?" Freddie asked.
"Yeah." I said quietly and looked at Alex and moved a piece of hair away from his eyes which made him sigh and moved closer to me.
"Is he okay?" He asked.
"I dunno, I'm guessing he is but I don't know what goes on in his head." I said.
"I know how you feel on that one." He said and walked out the room.
I smiled and went back to watching the film and slowly fell asleep.

Notes

Stuck at work pulling an all nighter and paranoia is really bad and ive ran out of skittles :(