Two Worlds Clash
"We Live Happily Ever Trapped"
Alex
I stood still in shock. I couldn’t move, I honestly didn’t want to move. Jack had me held and pressed to his body by one arm and using his other hand to caress my cheek. His lips were pressed to mine and I didn’t know how to react. Everyone was watching us in utter shock, I could just tell, I could feel their eyes burning into my skin. Other than that, this was like a dream come true. Having Jack like this, right in front of me, making the first move.
It didn’t take long till I melted into his touch, kissing him back. I could careless what anyone around us was thinking at this moment in time. All that matter was this right here and now, Jack was all that mattered in my mind. Just his touch on my skin, the feeling of his lips on mine made me feel like I was flying high in the sky.
It was about thirty seconds later, and Jack pulled away all too soon. I stared up at him, finally coming to terms in my mind of what actually just happened. I was staring blankly into his eyes, him having this little sparkle in them I have never seen before in my life. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
I watched as he bit his lip, trying to control the slight smile creeping onto his pink, plump lips. He removed his arm from around my waist and I took a step back from him, looking at the ground as I felt my cheeks heat up. The halls were still deadly silent and I was becoming well aware of my surrounding now, and I wanted to leave. I was not open to anyone at my school, well, anyone other than Jack since he found out thanks to my friends. But, other than that, I don’t think Jack was out to anyone other than me as well.
I lifted my head up a bit and looked around the hall, I was correct. Everyone’s eyes were on us, staring in complete shock. I looked back down at the ground, not even taking time to look up at Jack again. I could see him take a step closer to me and then I felt his hot breath on my ear before he spoke. “Get your stuff from your locker. We’re going to my place, we need to talk about some things.” I nodded my head the slightest bit before turning back to my locker and turning the dial to put in the correct code.
Once I had my books and folders all placed back in my backpack, I grabbed my jacket and swiftly put it on before grabbing it and throwing a strap over my shoulder and closing my locker once again. Before I could react to anything else, Jack grab my hand and laced our fingers together and started pulling me through the hall filled with eyes and ears. I would look up a bit and see some people pointing their phones at us, as if they were taking videos, and if they were, they would be all over social media by the end of the day and it will be out to the whole school, that I, Alexander Gaskarth, was gay. Which would just cause Ronnie to hate me even more. I didn’t know how Ronnie felt about gay people, but guessing that the person was me, it was just another thing that could get me killed by him.
By the time my thoughts were finished, Jack had lead us both outside and into the parking lot, over to his bike and he got on before I did. I placed the other strap of my backpack over my other shoulder to make it wouldn’t fly off as we drove down the road. I didn’t know where this was going to leave Jack and I, but I have always wanted to be with him, and if that’s what he wants, then who am I to turn him down? But the thing is, I’m scared.
We reached his house about ten minutes later and we both walked inside in silence. Most people would think it was an awkward kinda silence, but for some reason I felt content in it. I was the type of person that could live without ever having to talk to anyone, or even having to listen to anyone talking around him.
We walked into the kitchen and Jack went over to the refrigerator, as I went over to the table and took my jacket off, placing it on the chair and my backpack on the ground next to the chair before I took a seat. Jack walked over to me with two cans of soda and handed me one before taking the seat next to me. I said a small thank you and he nodded his head with a you’re welcome. “So here’s the thing. You won’t get out of my head.” He suddenly spoke. I looked over at him confused.
“W-what do you m-mean?” I questioned in a quiet tone.
“I mean.” He paused. “Shit how do I say this.” He looked over to me and sighed. “Okay let me start off by saying I’m not good at explaining to people how I feel. I’m not the type of person to just share my emotions with the world. So if I say something stupid and wrong, stop me. Okay?” He spoke, as I nodded my head a bit, still confused as to where this was leading. “What I meant by you won’t get out of my head was, ever since we got to know each other better, Alex, I just can’t help but feel like there is something that’s pulling me in. Like, your whole innocents or something has a grasp on me that won’t let go. I act like a jerk and an asshole to people so I don’t get attached to them. I try and push everyone away.” He stopped speaking and looked me in the eyes. “I tried to do that to you but I can’t. I act as if I don’t care, but the truth is, I care way too much.” I stared at him in shock. “Please say something.”
I broke myself out of my shocked state and sighed. “I-I honestly don’t know what you w-want me to say J-Jack.” I looked down at my hands as I fiddled with my fingers.
“Say you will be with me.” He answered. I looked back up at him with wide eyes. “I want you to be with me Alex. I want you so fucking bad it hurts every time I see you in pain, see you uncomfortable, or anything that makes you feel like you don’t belong. I need you, Lex. I do.”
“I-I’m scared, J-Jack.”
“To be with me?” He questioned quietly with what sounded like a hurtful tone.
“N-no. I would l-love to be with you. B-but I’m scared of.” I took a deep breath before speaking again. “R-Ronnie. He will k-kill me.”
I stood still in shock. I couldn’t move, I honestly didn’t want to move. Jack had me held and pressed to his body by one arm and using his other hand to caress my cheek. His lips were pressed to mine and I didn’t know how to react. Everyone was watching us in utter shock, I could just tell, I could feel their eyes burning into my skin. Other than that, this was like a dream come true. Having Jack like this, right in front of me, making the first move.
It didn’t take long till I melted into his touch, kissing him back. I could careless what anyone around us was thinking at this moment in time. All that matter was this right here and now, Jack was all that mattered in my mind. Just his touch on my skin, the feeling of his lips on mine made me feel like I was flying high in the sky.
It was about thirty seconds later, and Jack pulled away all too soon. I stared up at him, finally coming to terms in my mind of what actually just happened. I was staring blankly into his eyes, him having this little sparkle in them I have never seen before in my life. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
I watched as he bit his lip, trying to control the slight smile creeping onto his pink, plump lips. He removed his arm from around my waist and I took a step back from him, looking at the ground as I felt my cheeks heat up. The halls were still deadly silent and I was becoming well aware of my surrounding now, and I wanted to leave. I was not open to anyone at my school, well, anyone other than Jack since he found out thanks to my friends. But, other than that, I don’t think Jack was out to anyone other than me as well.
I lifted my head up a bit and looked around the hall, I was correct. Everyone’s eyes were on us, staring in complete shock. I looked back down at the ground, not even taking time to look up at Jack again. I could see him take a step closer to me and then I felt his hot breath on my ear before he spoke. “Get your stuff from your locker. We’re going to my place, we need to talk about some things.” I nodded my head the slightest bit before turning back to my locker and turning the dial to put in the correct code.
Once I had my books and folders all placed back in my backpack, I grabbed my jacket and swiftly put it on before grabbing it and throwing a strap over my shoulder and closing my locker once again. Before I could react to anything else, Jack grab my hand and laced our fingers together and started pulling me through the hall filled with eyes and ears. I would look up a bit and see some people pointing their phones at us, as if they were taking videos, and if they were, they would be all over social media by the end of the day and it will be out to the whole school, that I, Alexander Gaskarth, was gay. Which would just cause Ronnie to hate me even more. I didn’t know how Ronnie felt about gay people, but guessing that the person was me, it was just another thing that could get me killed by him.
By the time my thoughts were finished, Jack had lead us both outside and into the parking lot, over to his bike and he got on before I did. I placed the other strap of my backpack over my other shoulder to make it wouldn’t fly off as we drove down the road. I didn’t know where this was going to leave Jack and I, but I have always wanted to be with him, and if that’s what he wants, then who am I to turn him down? But the thing is, I’m scared.
We reached his house about ten minutes later and we both walked inside in silence. Most people would think it was an awkward kinda silence, but for some reason I felt content in it. I was the type of person that could live without ever having to talk to anyone, or even having to listen to anyone talking around him.
We walked into the kitchen and Jack went over to the refrigerator, as I went over to the table and took my jacket off, placing it on the chair and my backpack on the ground next to the chair before I took a seat. Jack walked over to me with two cans of soda and handed me one before taking the seat next to me. I said a small thank you and he nodded his head with a you’re welcome. “So here’s the thing. You won’t get out of my head.” He suddenly spoke. I looked over at him confused.
“W-what do you m-mean?” I questioned in a quiet tone.
“I mean.” He paused. “Shit how do I say this.” He looked over to me and sighed. “Okay let me start off by saying I’m not good at explaining to people how I feel. I’m not the type of person to just share my emotions with the world. So if I say something stupid and wrong, stop me. Okay?” He spoke, as I nodded my head a bit, still confused as to where this was leading. “What I meant by you won’t get out of my head was, ever since we got to know each other better, Alex, I just can’t help but feel like there is something that’s pulling me in. Like, your whole innocents or something has a grasp on me that won’t let go. I act like a jerk and an asshole to people so I don’t get attached to them. I try and push everyone away.” He stopped speaking and looked me in the eyes. “I tried to do that to you but I can’t. I act as if I don’t care, but the truth is, I care way too much.” I stared at him in shock. “Please say something.”
I broke myself out of my shocked state and sighed. “I-I honestly don’t know what you w-want me to say J-Jack.” I looked down at my hands as I fiddled with my fingers.
“Say you will be with me.” He answered. I looked back up at him with wide eyes. “I want you to be with me Alex. I want you so fucking bad it hurts every time I see you in pain, see you uncomfortable, or anything that makes you feel like you don’t belong. I need you, Lex. I do.”
“I-I’m scared, J-Jack.”
“To be with me?” He questioned quietly with what sounded like a hurtful tone.
“N-no. I would l-love to be with you. B-but I’m scared of.” I took a deep breath before speaking again. “R-Ronnie. He will k-kill me.”
Notes
Well.....
[Title Credit - Learn To Fly - Foo Fighters]
~Jagk.
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8/28/16