Jack
I’m so stupid.
I’m stupid for many, many reasons.
First, I let my anger get the best of me when I attacked Ronnie, and I ended up scaring the hell out of Alex in the process, making him cry.
I hated seeing him cry. I had never seen him cry before, but now I have, and it was actually because of me.
I hate myself for it.
I ran off and went home, only to walk into the living room to see my stepdad screaming at my mom.
I don’t know why I reacted the way I did; I heard them do this everyday, but it was just the fact that I was so angry already, and he was making my mom feel like shit.
Oh, and the fact that I fucking hate him.
So I stormed over, grabbed him by the shoulders, and threw him on the floor.
“Jack!” My mom gasped in shock.
I was glaring down at him and huffing with anger.
“You fucking stupid kid..” My stepdad, Jeff, muttered as he stood back up.
I was taller than him, and had a hell of a lot more fight in me than he thought I did. If he wanted to fight, I wouldn’t back down for a second.
“What the hell is your pro-“
“Say one more thing to her, Jeff! Say one more goddamn thing and I’ll shove a knife in your fucking throat..” I hissed, giving him a death glare.
“Jack! Stop it!” My mom yelled, completely appalled.
I gave him one last glare, then stormed upstairs and slammed my bedroom door shut behind me.
Great. Ronnie and his friends hate me, Alex hates me, and now even my mom hates me.
I was so fucking angry and upset, that I just didn’t wanna do anything but shut out the world. So I put in my earbuds, and blasted Blink for the rest of the day, until I fell asleep.
In the morning, I decided I wasn’t going to school. I was too stressed out, and I didn’t wanna deal with anybody. Not even Alex. But it’s not like I didn’t feel bad about it.
He called and texted me tons of times throughout the day. It felt kind of nice knowing he’d take so much time out of his day to do so, but I was scared.
I didn’t wanna tell him why I wasn’t at school. I didn’t wanna discuss what happened with Ronnie. I didn’t wanna hear him tell me about what a monster he thought I was.
But I knew I was gonna have to face it eventually.

In the morning, I got ready, ate an Eggo waffle, then got on my motorcycle and drove to the school.
When I got there, I didn’t go to find Jesse and Josh and smoke. I needed to find Alex. I needed to fess up and apologize to him for ignoring him.
I’d say it’s not because I cared, but I did care. I cared about Alex a lot, and I’ve been denying that for some time, being the independent person that I was, but it’s something I can no longer hide.
I don’t just protect him because of the deal. I didn’t beat Ronnie to a pulp just because I disliked him. I do this because I care about Alex. And I don’t want him to think any differently.
When I walked into the school doors, everyone’s eyes were on me.
Wow, word travels fast.
But it wasn’t like I cared. I just needed to find Alex.
I scanned the lockers, until I landed on a pair of beautiful, brown eyes.
There he was.
I walked over, keeping my eyes on him the whole time, making him blush.
“Hey.” I greeted him, biting my lip.
“H-hey? Is that all you have to say to me? Hey?” He frowned.
Annnnd I pissed him off.
“Alex, listen I-“ I tried to explain myself, but he cut me off.
“No, you listen, Jack! I’ve been worried sick about you! I called you multiple times! I sent you many texts that you read and never even responded to! It’s like you don’t even care!”
Wow, that was powerful coming out of him.
“Alex, I do care. I know I didn’t respond and I’m sorry, I was just-“
“Just being a dick!” He yelled, causing people to gasp around us.
I raised my brow at him.
“A dick?”
He flushed red and bit his lip in nervousness, but didn’t back down.
“Y-yeah.. Yeah, a dick! You wanna be there for me all the time, but you won’t even let me be there for you! What is your problem??”
“Listen, I’ve just got some issues with that, okay?” I sighed, secretly wishing all these people weren’t around anymore.
“Issues? We’ve all got issues, Jack! I just wanna hel-“ He stopped talking when I wrapped my arm around his waist, pulling him closer to me, and cupped his cheek.
“J-Jack..” He gasped, staring up at me in shock and nervousness.
I don’t know why I did it; maybe to get him to shut up, or maybe just because he looked so cute when he was mad, but it felt right.
So I quickly leaned in, and kissed him.

Notes

It was at 3 am when I wrote this so sorry if it sucks.
Have a Jalex kiss.

Thanks! :)

Title cred: Painting Flowers- All Time Low