I'm so addicted to
all the things you do
when you're goin' down on me
in between the sheets.

I saw that I had missed a call from Alex but if it were important he would call back. I stood by my desk, pouring a bowl of cereal and looking over at Vic who was sleeping softly. He looked cute with his mouth slightly agape and twitching slightly while mumbling incoherently. I couldn't help but smile softly. I pulled a hoodie on over my naked torso and walked into the hall, deciding I should call Alex back instead of waiting like I originally thought I would. It rang a few times before being answered by the half asleep boy.

"H'llo," he muttered.

"Hey Lex," I smiled as I spoke.

"Oh hey babe!'

"Did I wake you, I'm sorry."

"You're fine, I was awake anyway."

"I think you're full of bullshit."

"You're right, why'd you call?"

"You called me last night."

"Oh yeah, I had just wanted to talk to my beautiful fiancee."

"Oh alright, how are you?"

I sat on the floor of the lobby, my back against the wall as I heard him shuffling around on the other end of the phone. I heard a door close and some shuffling; I assumed he was leaving his room, possibly due to his roommate being asleep still. I just left because Vic thought that we had broken up.

"I'm fine, just thinking about the time that I can marry you finally," he said, I could hear the smile in his voice.

"That sounds perfect. I can't wait to marry you either."

"I need to get ready, I'm going to go exercise, I'll call you after I'm done."

"Alright babe, I'll talk to you later."

The line clicked telling me he had hung up. I lowered my head into my knees, why had I screwed up so bad? I didn't want to hurt him but I was so stupid that I was more than likely about to hurt him because I was so selfish. I unlocked the door with my key and walked in, Vic still asleep. It's amazing how well he can sleep with everything going on, in his defense though he didn't know I was up all night with a guilty mind.

I took my hoodie off, laying back in my spot next to him. I played with his hair as his head was once again in my lap, his muttering words I couldn't make out. I wasn't sure when the last time I had a decent sleep was but I knew that it wouldn't be any time soon. I looked down at the boy who was utterly beautiful and felt what I can only describe as a shot to the heart. I would never be able to undo this. This was always going to be my biggest mistake my biggest lie. I was cheating on my fiancee with another boy that I loved while I was supposed to love Alex.

"Why can't I quit you," I asked the sleeping boy.

Notes

I'm sorry that I haven't been updating much lately, I have a lot of stuff I need to do and I get really busy and distracted (I've like sold my soul to Skyrim also) but I'm going to try to get updates out more often just work with me please. Also, anyone catch the movie reference in this? I watched it with some friends and now that's going through my head.

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Title and lyric credit: Addicted - Saving Abel