There's a knocking at the door
it's what I did the night before
am I thinking of the end again
the end again?

Vic was tucked under my arm as we were laying on his bed. I was playing with his hair as we were laying there, staring up at the ceiling. I had the engagement ring hidden in one of my drawers. I really needed to break things off with Vic, it isn't fair to Alex or Vic or even myself. I kissed Vic's forehead softly.

"I love you," he whispered softly.

"I love you too," I whispered to him.

"How was your break?"

"It was really nice. I got to go back to my high school and talk with one of my old teachers. I also got to see old friends and went to parties and stuff, nothing too exciting really. It was just nice to be home and not think about school for a little bit. How about for you?"

"Honestly, I just wanted to get back here and see you. I missed you."

"Well aren't you just the sweetest?"

"I'm tired babe, can we sleep now?"

"Absolutely."

The smaller brunette curled into my side, burying his head into my chest. I sighed as I wrapped my empty arm around his waist. I heard my phone vibrating but chose to ignore it. I knew I wasn't going to fall asleep anytime soon. I hadn't had a full night of sleep in a while. While I was laying in bed my mind would always get the better of me.

Why was I keeping this up? There was nothing good that can come from this, someone was going to get hurt, either Vic or Alex, I might even get hurt by my own stupidity. Why did I have to do such stupid things? To this moment it still makes no sense. Why had I done it? Why was I so petty and stupid? Why did I not give enough of a shit about anyone?

I heard my phone vibrate again but still wasn't going to get it. I'd see it in the morning, there was nothing important enough for me to get up at this moment. I couldn't help but think about how bare my hand felt with the ring no longer on it. I missed wearing it but I was afraid, I wouldn't wear it until I ended things with Vic, it was the only way that I could not hurt anyone.

That's when it hit me, Vic told me he loved me. I told him that I loved him also. Things were stronger and deeper than I had ever intended. It was all my fault, was I going to have to break things off with both of them just to make things easier and smoother for everyone involved. This was never something I had intended to happen.

Notes

Sorry it's so short, I've just had some massive writer's block and I've been really busy working on bass lines and writing a ton of music. Things are getting kind of serious with my band which is totally awesome and I'm so excited.

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Title Credit: Sorry - My Darkest Days