Jack held out his hand towards Alex. Today was the one year anniversary of Toms death. The two boys sat in Alex’s room, completely silent.
Alex has not shed a tear for a few months now. He thought about opening the note, but he was still very sad when he thought about Tom. He wanted to honor his brother as much as he could.
Jack took him to his grave earlier, and they came back here to cuddle and do romantic stuff like that. Of course they were not together yet, still friends with benefits. Jack felt obligated to ask Alex out, and Alex felt like Jack should ask him out. But Jack really did not have the guts to do it.
The past year between those two has been happy and dramatic. Jack was always there when Alex needed him. Even when Alex had bad nightmares, Jack would sneak out and climb into his window, and cuddle with him. He often thought about how Alex had a real shitty hand in life, and deserved so much better. Jack tried so hard to help take everything off of Alex’s mind. Even if it was only for a little amount of time.


“Alex.” Jack whispered, turning to Alex, kissing his head.
“I have a question.” Jack bit his lip nervously.
“What is it Jacky?” His brown eyes stared into Jacks.
“Well...” He scratched the back of his head, wondering if he should really ask him.
“Alex. I really like you. We’ve known each other for a year now. I mean, I probably love you. I’m just so confused.” Jack finished.
“Jack, that’s not a question.” Alex said with a confused tone. “Right... Well, I was wondering if you’d like to be mine? And I be yours?” Alex’s eyes widened, and he jumped on Jack.
“I’ve been waiting for you to ask me that for so long.” He whispered in his ear.

Jack pulled his face towards his, kissing him passionately.
Passionately turned to a hard-core make out session very quickly.
Alex was grinding messily against Jack for friction, feeling his own ‘friend’ stiffen in his pants.
Jack let out a low moan, gripping onto Alex’s hair.
At this moment Alex thanked god for his parents not being home at the time.
Jack leaned back on the bed, allowing Alex to properly straddle him, not loosing their friction, or letting go of the kiss.
The lanky boy held Alex’s hips, biting his bottom lip. Alex gasped, and Jack took it as a chance to explore his mouth. Alex didn’t bother fighting for dominace.
Jacks tongue rubbed against Alex’s, making the older boy moan in his mouth.
Suddenly, Alex jerked away, out of breath. “I-i’m not ready to go to far Jack.” He bit his lip staring at the surprised lanky boy.
“It’s okay..I wasn’t quite expecting to even go that far.” He chuckled, rolling on his side.
“We can cuddle instead.”
“I like that idea.” Alex jumped in his arms, already getting tired from such a long day. “Jacky, I’m going to take a nap. Do you mind waking me at like 10? I have to show you something I found the other day.”
Jack nodded, holding the boy in his arms. “G’night beautiful.” He kissed the older ones temple.
Sometimes Jack is mistaken as the older one, because Alex is so vanurable, and the younger one cared for the older one as if Alex was his younger brother.
Ten o’clock came by faster then Jack expected. He was thinking to much again.
Before he could actually wake up Alex, he stirred in his sleep. “Jack you awake?” His rough sleepy voice echoed through the dark room. “Of course. I was just about to wake you.”
Jack smiled at the boy, sitting up. “So where are you planning on taking me?” His voice was filled with curiosity.
“We will have to sneak out of course, but that’s to easy. My parents are like hibernating bears.”
Alex said, getting up as well. Jack snorted, running a hand through his hair.
“You are just to cute. Well, lets get going then?” The older one nodded, opening his bedroom window.



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*Alex*


We sat down underneath the stars, my mind trailing off every now and then. It had to be around 1 in the morning. Jack fell asleep while we were talking.
The moonlight hit his face perfectly. He was an angel. His hair may of been a little tousled, and his snore may be loud and obnoxious, but I wouldn’t havn’t any other way at this moment. He was the most beautiful thing I’ve seen.

I pulled out Toms note from my back pocket. I couldn’t handle waiting any longer. I didn’t cry when I thought about him anymore. So, that was all he asked.
I took my time to open the letter, scared of what would be inside. Would it be a will?
An explanation?
I didn’t know.



“Alex,

Thank god you found the note. I just hope you opened it at the right time.
Alex I started drugs awhile back. I hid it so well from you and our parents. You guys just thought I was depressed.
I was in a sense. I lost all my money, everyone left me. And I couldn’t help myself. I knew I would not be able to have the strength to stop.
I did it all little brother. Weed all the way down to meth. I lost weight quickly, and you were the only one that noticed. I remember you came up to me saying: “Tom, you’re getting a bit to small. You’re not sick are you?”
To which I said, “No. I’ve been working out a bit too much.”
Alex. Lets just say I did this for everyone. I did it for you.
I did it for Dad.
I did it for Mom.
I did it for everyone to be happier.
And once you relize that it was for the be-”

I shoved the note back in my pocket. “Tom you are so stupid.” I whispered, tears falling down my face. He had to be pretty thick to think this would be for the best. It’s tearing me apart.
I ripped up from the ground angrily, but quite enough not to wake Jack.
Thoughts were very hard to process through my anger right now.
I just needed a really long walk. To get everything off my chest.

Notes

Sorry I havnt' updated in awhile. I kind of flipped out over stupid stuff...Thank you to everyone who messaged me. I needed that(: I tried doublespacing for once...xD I don't like it, so I'm never doing that again. I'm to lazy to go back and backspace it all.