A few weeks later, and me and Jack were really close. We didn’t consider ourselves together yet. I guess you could call it friends with benefits though. My mom accepted, but my dad was a little more reluctant on the subject. Every time it came up he got angry and changed the subject. But he wanted me to be happy so he didn’t say anything really stupid.
No one at school knew about it either. Jack didn’t want our high school experience to be ruined. He knew a few gay kids in school that are tortured badly.
So we kept it under the radar, but not enough to where it cause stress. Tonight I stayed at Jack’s house, it being a Friday, I was bored, and totally missing him.
“Alex.” He laughed, as I started tickling his sides. “St-Stop it!” He playfully slapped my hands away. He must of been going easy on me then. Because a few seconds later, he was on top of me, tickling me.
When I managed to get him off, He pulled me onto him, kissing me. The kiss got really serious, and I moaned into his mouth. He pulled away smiling.

It did make me kind of sad that I couldn’t call him mine yet. But this was better then nothing. Jack pulled his guitar out playing dammit by Blink. I sung along, laughing. He was so cute when he played. Looking at Jack for the first time, he definitely looked like a person who loved music. His bag was filled with buttons, bands names on them, he always wore a band t-shirt. He just had the look to him as well.
When the song ended, he put the guitar down, giggling.
“You do have an amazing voice Alex.” He kissed my hair, making me blush.


I’ve been alot more distant lately. Jack was the only person I’ll talk to properly. Tom killing himself effected me allot. He left me alone here. Tom knew I needed him...
I excused myself from Jack for a few minutes to sneak off to Toms room. I just needed any clue on why he left me here. His room was completely empty now, other then his bed. I got an idea though.
Crouching down quietly, I peaked under the bed seeing what I was looking for.
I pulled out the box, curious on what was inside.
There was three letters labeled, Mom, Dad, and Alex. His favorite shirt was folded nicely at the bottom. Underneath that was another letter with my name on it.

I opened the first one, reading it slowly.

‘Alex,
Look. I’m so sorry. I love you, and this is going to be hard on you. I love you. You’ll find so many friends here, I know it. Back in our small town it was allot harder. You were the best brother that I could have ever asked for. Don’t think this is your fault.
The fact is I’m not as strong as you thought. Life wasn’t going where it should have gone for me.
So lets start at the basics.
Don’t do drugs, get good grades, treat your girlfriends right,’ I chuckled softly, thinking of Jack,
‘Stop harming yourself...I don’t want you to do what I did.
And at last. Alex, do something with your voice. It’s way to good to waste okay? Make a band. God dammit, go big. Go big or go home right? You can make it.
You always will be able to. I love you little man.
Stay strong.


Love,
Your idiot brother.

P.s.
Make your life worth living. ‘



By the end of the letter, I was crying way to hard. The second letter said not to open it until I could think of him without crying. I thought about just opening it, but this was for Tom. So I shoved the letter in my back pocket, and put the box back where it was.
Mom and Dad would find it later. They were having the room cleaned out anyway, which I thought was the stupidest thing ever.
It hasn’t even been a month, and they’re trying to move on. I don’t even talk to them anymore.
They still send me to therapy every week. I don’t talk to them. I don’t cooperate. It came down to my mom having to say my problems.
Obviously they don’t know about my cutting. Only tom did.
Now Jack does to.


I walked back to Jack, and he noticed the tears on my face, engulfing me in a hug.
“Hey, hey Alex. What’s wrong?” He whispered in my ear.
“It’s okay Jack. I just found a letter from Tom before everything happened...”
Jack’s eyes filled with sadness. “Will you be okay?” I shrugged. “I don’t know Jack. This is getting harder and harder everyday.” Tears ran down my face as he held me in his arms.
“I’ll always be here..” Jack kissed me softly. “I promise.”

Notes

Sorry it's sort of late. ;-; I have a friend over until Friday so, I'ts hard to write a hcpter then update everyday. ;-;
It's kind of short, but I hope you enjoy it. ^^