What Can I Say

The rest of the day was really nice considering I got to listen to the guys music which took me into another world and could only make me smile. I know they were trying really hard to make it in the music industry and I definitely could see that happening, I'm not saying that because I'm their friend however, they have true talent. However, it was now the next day and I was just sitting in the music room. I didn't feel like seeing anyone, I just wanted to be alone and I had that until the bell rings. I was sitting in the practice room messing around with the schools guitar, it had been so long since I played and it was quite strange.

I must've been very oblivious because next thing I knew Rian was coming into the room, sitting near me. I looked up as he coughed to get my attention. I really didn't feel like talking but I would humor him at the very least.

"What's up Dawson," I asked.

"Who did you talk on the phone with yesterday during our practice," he asked.

"You don't waste time with small talk do you?"

"Alex is wondering and I said I'd try to find out if you must know."

"Why does Alex even give a shit?"

"You think he's lost his feelings for you, that's adorable."

"I'm not his to miss Ri. I'm kinda seeing someone now..."

He just stared at me. I didn't date, what the fuck was I going on about? Who would be the person I'm seeing? The only thing was we both knew who it was but neither of us really wanted to admit it. He sighed and I pulled out my phone, checking the time. The bell hadn't rung yet, Rian just wanted to talk to me and knew where I would be hiding. I also had a text from Trent asking where I was.

"You know Alex isn't going to be happy," he said softly.

"You know that Alex has no control over me right," I spoke just as quietly.

"I just don't want to see my best friend hurt."

"He won't get hurt this way. I'm saving him from getting hurt."

"We both know Alex has some control over you."

"To an extent. Look, I don't want to talk about this, please leave."

"He loves you still."

I watched as Rian walked out of the practice room just as the bell rang. I didn't want to tell Alex, he'd blow things out of proportion. I was afraid he'd tell me I'm not longer allowed to help with the band. I was afraid he wouldn't be happy for me like I was always happy with him. It just made things harder to swallow. I didn't love Alex though. I couldn't. I walked out and saw Trent smile happily. I walked over to the boy that was a year younger than me and he wrapped his arm around my waist.

"Hey babe, I should've known you were in here," he smiled.

"Yeah, just wanted to play some guitar, you know how it is," I faked a smile.

Rian's words dug deeper into my mind. He loves you still. Was I dating the wrong person? Was I supposed to chase after Alex time and time again? I wanted to think I wasn't supposed to.

Notes

So, my computer won't connect to the Wifi at my school meaning this was done on my phone which is why I'm thinking it's shorter than typical and I have to go to IT and I really don't want to. There's the cliff hanger answered (please don't hate me). There probably won't be a new update on anything till I get my computer connected.

I have a new roommate and she's awesome (music minor theater major) and we like all the same bands and we get along great and she's super sweet. Also, my guitarist has the coolest idea for our band and I'm so excited because we're super serious on music and we might get a chance once we get a demo together.

Anyways, leave a like and a comment if you liked :)

Title credit: Tangled In The Great Escape - Pierce The Veil