We don't belong here

Alex's POV

"No I'm not going back to that shithole!" I screamed and started to trash my room.
The nurses where here to pick me up as my parents where unable to look after me, more like couldnt be bothered.
"Alex for once do something without fighting everyone." My father said.
"No because then I'll be weak and pathetic like you!" I shouted at him and broke something which was made of glass and picked the glass up and dragged it deep across my arm.
Great this gonna look like another suicide attempt now that's all what I need.
I heard someone walk into the room and jab something in my arm.
"Get fucking off me!" I yelled and pushed them away from me and went over to my bed and sat on it.
I felt really tired all of a sudden so I led down and slowly fell asleep.

When I woke up I went to move my arms but couldn't so I looked at the reason why and found out they had my in a straight jacket.
"Well that's fantastic." I said sarcastically and looked out the window.
"It's for your own good Alex." The nurse said.
"You mean for your own good not mine." I said quietly and looked at everything before I was locked away for God knows how long.
We got to where we needed to be.
"Are you going to walk in or are we going to carry you in?" She asked and got out the car and walked round and opened my door.
I looked at her.
"What do you fucking think?" I asked.
I got out the car and walked towards the front of the place.
"Alex long time no see." The receptionist said.
I just glared at her.
I felt one of the nurses touch me.
"Don't touch me." I said loudly and pushed them hard with my shoulders since I was in a straight jacket.
They all came over and tried to get me but I just fought them off the best I could but the grabbed hold of me and carried my up to the men's dorm.
"Get fucking off me you filthy shits." I said loudly.
I tried to kick out but they had something round my legs to stop me doing that.
We got to the place.
"Get your filthy fucking hands off me you fucking bastards!" I said loudly.
Think everyone knew I was back.
"Guys Alex is back." Rian said loudly, I smiled glad someone missed me.
"Alex calm down." A nurse said.
"No! Get the fuck off me!" I said loudly and for the second time today had a needle jabbed in me.
And like before I fell into another forced sleep.

When I woke up I was in my room.
"This takes the fucking piss." I muttered to myself and sat up.
I looked over to the bed and saw I had a roommate.
I knew the reason I had to leave this place was because my best mate killed himself and I weren't coping very well with it in here, I wasn't coping at home but I needed to get away from here.
I got up and walked over to the lounge.
"Alex!" Rian said and came over and I pulled him into a hug.
"Heeeey guys guess who fucking back!" I said feeling glad I was back here as these guys have pretty much been my family since I've been here.
There was someone new here.
He was staring at me which I didn't mind as most people stared at me because of my scars and abnormal behavior.
"You fucking staring at?" I asked and looked at him.
Damn he's cute, he properly didn't feel the same towards me as who would like someone fucked up and covered in scars like me.
"S..Sorry." He stuttered and looked down.
I moved towards the sofa.
"I don't know you. Who are you?" I asked and sat on the sofa between Kellin and Patrick.
"I'm Jack." He said.
"So your my roommate then." I said and studied him a little.
He didn't look like he should be here. In fact he looked like the sanest one in this place.
"You're the one who claims they didn't try and kill themselves." I said which got a couple of sniggers from somewhere.
"I didn't try and and fucking kill myself!" He said loudly and walked out and then the door slammed shut.
"Someone's a little touchy." Mikey shouted.
I looked at him hard.

I was walking round the place bored like normal when Patrick came over.
"What's up Patty?" I asked and walked over to the window and looked out it.
"Nothing." He said quietly.
"What do you think of the newbie then?" Kellin asked as he walked over.
"Don't understand why he's here. I mean we're all fucking nuts in this place but he ain't. He's as sane as anything." I said and thought about it a little.
"There's a reason why he's here. It's the same with all of us." Patrick said.
"That's true." I muttered and walked away from the window and led down on the floor and just led there.
I liked my space and I would normally go to my room but since newbie there I just have to lie on the floor and get in the way of everyone.
"Jesus Alex I nearly fell over you!" A nurse scolded.
"Well open your eyes then." I muttered and threw my arm over my face.

I got fed up with that so I went to go and see what Jack was doing.
I went into the room and shut the door behind me.
Jack was facing the wall looking lost.
"Hey." I said and went and sat on my bed.
He didn't move from looking at the wall.
"I'm Alex." I said but didn't get a response from Jack.
Rude.
"Looking at the wall won't help. It'll drive you more insane the more you look at them." I said and Jack turned round and looked at me.
Just looking at him I hope we could be friends.
I was going to say something when a nurse came in to do checks.
I groaned inwards.
That was one thing I did not miss at all.
Jack looked confused and annoyed.
"Yeah every hour the do checks to see if your hanging from the ceiling or not." I said and smiled at my fucked up joke I just made.
Jack looked at me confused but I was took busy having this really fucked up day dream to care.
I started to laugh quietly to myself but Jack didn't hear me.

We all had food, which was another thing I didn't miss, and was sat watching TV smoking the rest of the day away.
Jack was sat in the window sill looking out the window.
"They ain't coming for ya." I said and Jack looked at me.
"Once your dumped here there ain't no going back. After all who would want a son who's fucked in the head." I said and got up and walked off.
I went to the therapy room and found the guitar which was locked away with all the other stuff.
"Fuck sake." I said as I slowly felt myself getting worked up over nothing.
A nurse came in.
"Alex what you doing in here?" She asked.
"Needed to get away." I said and went and sat on the table with my back to her.
"Time to take your medication." She said.
"Don't want it." I said.
"Alex.." She started but was stopped by me shouting.
"I don't want to take them fucking pills just leave me the fuck alone!" I shouted and the door soon shut.
It didn't last long as the door opened.
"What part of fuck off don't you thick fucks don't understand?" I said loudly and turned round and saw Patrick.
"Shit, Patrick I didn't know it was you." I said quietly as he nervously came and sat with me.
Patrick was really shy and hardly spoke to anyone so if he spoke to you he must like you. Considering I was the only person he spoke to and was pretty much his only friend as well.
"It's okay." He said quietly
I smiled and stared across the room.
"You gonna come out of hiding?" He asked.
"Do I have to?" I asked.
He nodded and pretty much dragged me out the room.

I walked into mine and Jacks room and Jack was sat in the middle of the bed looking lost.
I don't think he even noticed me walking in so I went and got my notebook put and started to write.
I was zoned out to notice that it was time for lights out so I put my book on the side table and got comfy.
Jack said something about it only being a eleven I chuckled quietly to myself and slowly fell asleep.

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