Jacks POV

I hardly slept last night. Everytime I managed to get to sleep I was woken up by the nurses doing checks.
By the time it was time to wake up and was falling back asleep and I wasn't going to move for anyone.
"Morning Jack." Alex yawned loudly.
"Morning." I muttered feeling my eyes getting really heavy.
"Rough night I take it?" He chuckled.
I nodded.
"I'll leave you be then." he said and walked out shutting the door quietly behind him, which I was greatful for.

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Alex's POV

I walked out the room quietly so Jack could at least get some sleep since the nurses where waking him up all night.
I walked into the que and waited for my pills which I refused to take last night and go and get breakfast.
"Finally decided to take your medication then Alex?" The nurse asked.
"No shit." I muttered and took the pills and sallowed them and the nurses checked if I swallowed them or not since I used to do that and overdose and they've learnt their lesson about it.
I went over and looked what was for breakfast.
"Only been back a day and I already miss McDonald's." I said and sat with Kellin, Patrick and Vic.
They chuckled.
I didn't want anything to eat so I just zoned out and let everyone eat.

We had finished and I was just wondering around with Patrick since he was now pretty much glued to my side.
Then someone shouted really loudly from my room.
"Fuck off and let me fucking sleep you bastards!" Jack screamed then a load of banging was happening.
Patrick looked at me and I looked at him.
We went over and I walked into the room.
The room was pretty much trashed, well Jacks side was, mine was still how I left it when I woke up.
"Jack you have to take you medication." A nurse said.
"Fuck the medication and just let me fucking sleep since you kept me up all fucking night going in and out of the fucking room! I'm not gonna kill myself and I don't think Alex is gonna too either so just fuck off!" He shouted.
"He don't know does he?" Patrick asked.
I shook my head.
"Jack its for your own good." She said.
"I don't want the fucking pills!" He shouted and slapped the medication out her hand.
"Go I'll sort him out." I said and walked next to the nurse.
"It's not your job to do so." She huffed.
"Fuck off! All off you!" He screamed and started to walk up and down the room looking really stressed out.
The nurse walked out the room properly to get the others.
"Patrick keep look out." I said quickly and went over to Jack.

He was in a right state.
I looked down his arm and saw his arm was bleeding.
I needed to block it out and help Jack.
"Jack look at me." I said but Jack didn't listen and carried on walking up and down muttering to himself and he went over to a picture hanging on the wall and threw it across the room.
"Alex their coming." Patrick said.
"Distract them." I said and Patrick went out and did the best he could.
I went over to Jack and stood in front of him.
"Jack stop, this isn't just stressful for you but it is for me." I said trying to look at his face and not his arm but it wasn't working very well.
He looked at me confused.
"You have to calm down okay." I said calmly.
He pulled away from me and started to pace again.
"Do you want to be locked in a room and forced to calm down by being given drugs to calm you down?" I asked.
He shook his head but was lost in himself.
"Then you have to calm down. I know its annoying them waking you up every 5 minutes but in time you'll get used to it." I said quietly.
Jack was slowly calming down a little.
The nurses came in and Jack got all worked up again.
"Go away leave me alone!" He said loudly as they got behind him a restrained him.
"Get of me!" He shouted as they dragged him out the room.

I stood there and slowly started to tidy up the mess Jack had made.
Patrick came in.
"I..I..I tried my best." He said quietly.
I looked at him and smiled.
"I know you did." I said and pushed Jacks bed back to where it was meant to be.
"Pat can I leave you to do this. I have to get out of here before..." I said but Patrick stopped me.
"Yes you can. I understand." He smiled and I went out the room trying to find something to take my mind of it but it wasn't working very well.

I walked round hoping to calm down but it wasn't working.
"You okay Alex?" Vic asked concerned.
"Need the guitar." I muttered to myself mainly but Vic heard me.
The guitar always calmed me down but in this fucking shithole I wasn't allowed it which doesn't help one bit.
"Come sit down Alex." He said quietly and got hold of my arm.
"Get off me! Don't come near me!" I shouted and pushed Vic away from me. They've learnt that if I do this I don't mean it as out of everyone in this place I was the most unstable.
Patrick came out the room.
"Alex, come with me." He said quietly and stood in front of me.
I shook my head and went somewhere away from everyone.

I went to the therapy room as for some reason I felt safe in here.
I went and looked around to see if I could find anything which I could use to hurt myself with but like with the medication the nurses locked everything away in case I came in here and shut myself away.
I heard Jack in the other room, he hadn't calmed down much at all.
"Can someone just fucking let me out. I need a fucking piss and I'm not pissing in this shit covered piss pot." He said and started to kick the door.
I chuckled and went out and stood in front of the door.
" Well hello Jack." I said and looked through the gap in door.
"Can you get me out of here?" He asked.
"Well stop kicking the door and shouting and that then you maybe out quicker than anything." I said and winked at him and walked off.

I looked for my favorite nurse.
He was sorting my room out since Patrick got side tracked.
"Hello stranger." I said seductively and lent against the door.
He jumped and looked at me.
"Was beginning to think you had forgotten about me." He smiled.
"Forget about my favorite nurse and those things you do." I said and bit my lip, closed the door quietly and walked over to him and kissed him.
"I sense a catch to this." He said as he pulled back.
"That's because you do." I said and kissed him harder this time.
"Then what is it then?" He asked and pulled my top off.
"You let Jack out of the box." I said and undone his shirt.
"There's something else." He said before he started to kiss my neck.
I moved my head to the side so he could get better access to my neck.
"Smuggle cigarettes and blades in for me." I whispered.
He stopped and looked at me.
"Cigarettes and letting Jack out yes. But blades no." He said firmly.
"Ah come on man, I have needs." I said and pushed him gently onto the bed and sat on him.
"Sexual or mental?" He asked.
"Both." I said and went to kiss him but he turned his head away.
"I'll let Jack out and get you cigarettes but I'm not getting you blades." He said and sat up and pushed me off him.
"So I'm not gonna get anything from you then?" I asked.
"Look your fucked in the head. All you have to do is ask me and I'll get the cigarette and stuff for you. Having sex with you is wrong." He said and done his shirt up.
I got up and pinned him against the wall.
"I could get you done for rape if I wanted to. After all I'm fucked in the head with a past of those things happening to me. So you will get me cigarettes and blades and you'll let Jack out as well." I growled.
I get him down and pulled my top on and sat down with my back to the door and him.
"Don't ever threaten me Alex." He growled in my ear.
"Or what? You'll kill me? You'll rape me because do whatever the fuck you want to do with me because I have been there and and fucking done it." I shouted in his face.
He left and I just sat there and thought about how I could kill myself and make it actually work.

I heard someone walk into the room.
"Leave me alone." I said.
"I will do after I said something to you." Jack said.
I turned round and looked at him.
"Thank you." He smiled at me.
"It's okay." I said quietly and turned back round so my back was too him.
"If you ever need to talk about anything you can talk to me you know. You seem to have a lot of problems but keep them all to yourself. It isn't healthy for you." He said and walked out the room.
I just zoned out hoping some plan would come to me.

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