We don't belong here

Jacks POV

I ran out the room as quick as I could and ran into Austin on the way.
"Woah Jack slow down what's the emergency?" He asked.
"Alex." I said quickly and went to the nurses station.
"Jack what's wrong?" A nurse asked.
"Alex, he's cut himself real bad and he just blacked out on me." I said trying not to panic.
"Shit, code red guys." She said and rushed out and others following her and pushing me out the way.
"Wait what's going to happen?" I asked and followed them.
"Jack go to the common room and stay there." A nurse said.
"But what's going to happen?" I asked not moving.
"Jack just go to the common room and stay there." She said and grabbed my arm and dragged me to the common room.
"I need to know what's happening." I said and snatched my arm out of her hold and glared at her.
"No, you stay the fuck here and don't even think about moving." She glared at me and walked off.

"What happened?" Kellin asked.
"What does it fucking look like?" I snapped and walked over to the window and watched what was happening.
The doors opened which made everyone look and walk towards them.
I stayed in the window.
"Get back in the common room now!" A nurse said loudly and made everyone go back into the common room.
"What's wrong with Alex?" Vic asked.
"What does it fucking look like?" I said and got up and went over to him.
"Jack go back over to the window and calm down." A nurse said.
"No! He could be fucking dying you know and all you seem to fucking care about is asking fucking questions!" I said.
"Jack that isn't the case, we care about Alex and want to know what is happening to him that's all." Austin said.
"What's happening is that he fucking tried to kill himself and this time it could fucking work!" I shouted.
"Jack don't speak like that." Patrick said quietly.
"You weren't the one who saw him black out in front of you, you didn't see the blood he had lost, you didn't see the writing on the wall. You saw and know fuck all!" I said loudly.
"Come with me Jack and calm down." Austin said and gently held my arm and took me too the art room.

We got to the art room and Austin stood in front of me and gently held my shoulders since he towered over me.
"Jack you need to calm down." He said quietly.
"I can't." I whispered.
"You have to try, I know its hard, I know you care about Alex more than all of us put together but you have to keep yourself together." He said.
"What if he dies?" I asked and slowly started to cry.
"Hey." Austin said softly and pulled me into a hug.
I returned his hug and cried harder into his chest.
"He wont okay, I've been here for 2 years and Alex has done this a couple of times and he has lived. He's a fucking nightmare to be around with for a month or two and he flips out more than what he normally does but he made it." He said.
"But you didn't see all the blood he lost, it was fucking loads and the writing on the wall was all in blood." I sniffed.
"What did it say?" He asked carefully.
"It was a load of jibber. Like nobody was written a few times, worthless was written loads of times, alone was written really big compared to all the others, and sorry was written as well." I said and pulled away from Austin and went over to the window and sat in the window and looked out it with my head resting against it.
"It sounds stupid because I barely know him but if he dies apart of me dies with him." I said quietly.
"You know more about him than any of us. You may think you barely know him but he likes you Jack and he'll say bits about himself that no one else will." He said and walked over and sat on the floor next to the window.
"Do you know why he's in here?" I asked.
"He has something strange wrong with him compared to us, and the fact he almost killed himself by cutting his throat other than that no I don't know why he's here." He said and looked at me.

A nurse came in.
"Jack?" He asked quietly.
I looked at him.
"You can't go to your room for a few nights so you will either have to bunk with someone or sleep in the common room." He said.
"You can bunk with me and Patrick if you want?" Austin asked and looked at me.
"No, I can't do that especially because I don't think I'll sleep so I'll be in the common room." I said and got out the window and went to the common room.
Austin followed me.
"You sure?" He asked.
"I'll just be in the way and I'll probably annoy you two as well so its for the best really." I said quietly.
"Hey if you hear Patrick snore like I do every night you won't be annoying, for someone who don't talk much he sure makes up for it at night." Austin smiled.
"Bit like Alex part from Alex speaks and everything." I said quietly and looked down.
Austin smiled a little.
"Lights out guys." The nurse said.
"See you in the morning Jack." Austin said and walked off.
I didn't say anything so I went to the window and sat in it and looked out watching the night slowly roll pass and watching the drunken people stagger home at 4 in the morning.
After watching people stagger home I went over to the sofa and turned the TV and watched TV until I fell asleep.

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