We don't belong here

Jacks POV

I must of fell asleep as I was woken up with a load of nosie going on.
I sat up and looked around.
"Well done Vic now you've woken him up." Kellin said.
"Well I'm sorry but the fucking table had to be moved and you guys werent gonna help so i had to do it myself." Vic grumbled.
"Dont worry about it." I said quietly and got up ans went and sat in the window.
"You can go and use either mine or Patricks bed to sleep in if you want." Austin said.
"Dont want to sleep." I whispered and rested my head against the window.
"Tell you what, Alex better make it otherwise he'll be trapped in here going more and more insane." Kellin said.
"No your just saying that because Alex owes you a blowjob." Vic said.
"Guys dont fucking aruge about that, Kellin just fucking forget the payment because i dont think Alex will even give it to you for a while." Austin said.

I heard foot steps come over to me.
"Hey Jack." A nurse said.
"Leave me alone." I said quietly.
"Me and the nurses decided that you can go and see Alex if you want." She said.
I looked at her.
"Is that some sort of broken promise your making?" I asked sarcastically.
"No, you can go and see him only if your in a straight jacket since your unstable and shouldn't really in out in public and a nurse is always with you." She said.
"I'm not unstable, I am not a danger to public. For fuck sake Patrick is more of a risk than me." I said loudly.
"Gee thanks Jack." Patrick said sarcastically.
"Even if he is its a rule for the ones who are unstable and go out in public." She said quietly.
"How about I take your offer without the straightjacket." I said and glared at her.
"You either that the offer with the straightjacket or not come at all. Whatever you choose the straightjacket has to be on." She said.
"Then everyone can point and go 'hey look at that crazy bastard in the straightjacket'!" I said.
"Jack do you want to see him or not?" She sighed.
"Course I do but I don't want to be in a straightjacket." I said.
"Well your wearing it whether you like it or not." She said and walked off.
"Great now I'm going to look like a fucking crazy man." I muttered and got out the window and went to my room to actually put some decent clothes on.

I got to my room.
"Sorry Jack you can't come in we're still cleaning and sorting the room out." The cleaner said.
"Can't I at least put some decent clothes on?" I asked.
"Sorry mate you can't." He said.
"First of I'm not your mate so don't call me that. Second I'm getting my clothes and getting changed whether you like it or not." I said and barged past him and looked for my clothes and got changed.
I walked out.
"See didn't fucking take 2 minutes so I don't see what you was complaining about." I said sarcastically and went back to the common room.

We got to the hospital and sure enough everyone was staring at me.
"Fucking told you they'll be looking at me like a fucking mad man." I said.
"Mind your language Jack their are kids about." A nurse scolded me.
"I don't give a fuck, maybe they shouldn't look at me like I'm a mad man because I'm not a bloody mad man." I said loudly and the nurses stopped me.
"Right you can cut this out or we'll go back home again! Do you want that?" She said.
"That place is not my home its a fucking hell hole but no I don't." I said and glared at her.
"Then shut your trap and get walking." She growled.
"Fucking abuse." I muttered to myself but I kept my mouth shut until I got to Alex's room and there was a woman already there.
"Who are you? What are you doing here?" She asked with a thick accent which I can't make out yet.
"We're from the hospital where Alex is at and this young man want too see him since he is a friend of his." The nurse said.
"How very hippocratitly of you." The woman said sarcastically and looked at the nurses and then looked at me.
"Why he in a crazy man jacket?" She asked.
"Because apparently in unstable to not be in this fucking thing." I said sarcastically.
"Jack!" The nurse scolded.
"It's fucking true though. I have a personality problem and yet your treating me like I'm a fucking Schizophrenic or fucking something." I said loudly.
"Right we're going, sorry about this miss." The nurse said and went and dragged me off.
"Fuck off you got to be fucking kidding." I scoffed and dug my heels in.
"Let the boy out of the jacket. He can stay here with me, and you can trust me with him while you two have a coffee in the cafe." The woman said.
"Sorry mam but one of us has to be with him." The nurse said.
"In case I go crazy, yay, because I forgot to take my fucking meds this morning." I said sarcastically again.
"He just wants his friend, leave him with me I'll look after him. I know what too look for since I had a boy with me who is just like this lad here." She said and looked at Alex.
"I'm sorry mam but we can't do that." The nurse said and walked off with me refusing to go so I sat on the floor and refused to get up or move.
"What you fucking five now Jack?" The nurse said sarcastically and kicked me.
"Touch me again and it'll be you in a hospital bed." I snarled.
The woman stood in front of me.
"Come back in 3 hours time. The boy is safe with me as he's clearly not safe with you." The woman growled.
The nurses left at this point.
The woman spoke another language and turned round and sat on the floor with me.

"What's your name then?" She asked and undid the straightjacket and took it off me.
"Jack, aren't you afraid I'm gonna go all crazy on you or something?" I asked and stood up and sat on the bed.
"I had to deal with Alex for a long time, I know what to do if you decide to go all crazy on me." She smiled.
"Your not his mother are you? Because if you are I might as well walk out this room." I said and got up and looked at her.
"If I was he would be Russian but no I am not his mother but I might as well be." She said and looked at Alex.
"I'm sorry, I'm still worked up by them." I said and looked down.
"It's fine by me, their bastards in there anyway. If I had my way Alex would be home with me and his family and not in that shithole and all the other looneys in there." She said.
That hurt a lot more than it should of done.
I got off the bed and sat on the floor against the wall trying to cope with everything which wasn't working very well.
"I didn't mean to offend you." She said quietly and sat in the chair on the side I was on.
"That's all I'll ever be isn't it? A fucking Looney who can't get out of the fucking Looney hospital because I'm crazy in the head and no one seems to fucking understands not even my fucking family." I said and got up and started to pace round the room.
She seem to be taken back by this.
"You remind of of Alex when he started to get really bad." She said quietly.
"Glad to be at assistance." I snapped and sat back on the floor again and started to pull my hair.

She tried a different side of talking.
"How did you Alex become friends?" She asked.
"He's my room mate, and he sort of made a grand entrance when I first came in." I said and smiled about it.
The woman chuckled.
"Sounds like Alex, he hates that place with a passion." She said quietly.
"If he hates it so much then why don't you take him back home with you?" I asked and looked round the corner of the bed.
"Because what I do I can't have someone who is as unstable as Alex. I've tried but he needs to be in that place for his own good." She said and looked down.
"Do you know I was the one who found him and not the nurses." I said quietly and hid away behind the conrer.
"I didn't know that, the nurses said that the nurses in that place found him." She said.
"Because who would believe a crazy person? After all we are the freaks of the world. Everybody likes a good freakshow." I said.
"I don't think of you as a freak but a very misunderstood person." She said.
"I don't have a clue on what I am anymore." I whispered.
The woman sighed.
"You came to see Alex, don't spend all your time sat on the floor, come and sit on the chair and be there for him." She said quietly.
I smiled and got up and sat in the other chair and held his hand.

We sat in silence for ages when the woman spoke again.
"Your the only one who's bothered to see him out of them. Their meant to be his friends too, why aren't they here?" She asked.
"Because I'm the closest to him and also I was sort of moping round the place and moving from the window." I said quietly.
"But that's not the point." She huffed.
I smiled.
"How long have you known Alex?" I asked and looked at her.
"I've know my little bird for a long time now." She said sadly and looked at Alex.
I looked at her confused.
"Or my little American, living in a house full of Russians he stood out more than anyone." She said and looked at me.
"Because he was American?" I asked really confused now.
She smiled.
"No lanky, because he was ill because he needed a family and he didn't have a home." She said.
"My name is Jack." I said reminding her.
"I know, but lanky suits you." She said.
"Seriously? There's someone who's taller than me." I said.
"Then I'll call him a giant then." She chuckled.
I smiled.
"But seriously, he's had a fucking shit life, his mother was a fucking slut and walked out on him when he needed her the most then his father decided to treat him like a punch bag. Can you understand why the poor bugger if fucked in the head." She said tapping her head.
I looked at Alex and I couldn't help but feel sorry for him.
"What you home life like then lanky?" She asked.
"Alright, wasn't perfect but you would have to worry if someone said their home life was perfect." I said quietly.
She hummed in agreement.
"Your 3 hours are nearly up. So I'll say this too you. You clearly care about Alex, a friend of Alex is a friend of mine and if anything happens to ypou you call me, I might be out here but just know I'll have your back." She said quietly just as the nurses came in.

"Did you take the straightjacket off him?" She asked.
"He is no danger to me, maybe you should treat the lad better then you won't see the need for the jacket." She said.
"Maybe you should shut up before you say something." The nurse said.
"Don't threaten me sweetheart, one phone call, one word and you'll be dead." She said seriously.
I looked at her and then look at Alex.
"I can't go back." I said quietly and got up and ran out the room before then could get hold of me and ran out the hospital and went and found somewhere to hide for a while.

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