We don't belong here

Alex's POV

Pretty much everyone was coming back today.
The more sane ones out of us get too stay until after new years, where as the others stay home for 3 to 5 days depending on their families.

I was sat in the common room with the music channel turned up really loud and pretty much enjoying the music and annoying the nurses.
"Alex can you turn that down, we can't hear ourselves think." A nurse said loudly as I couldn't hear her.
"No, I'm happy leave me alone mother." I laughed and went back to listening to the music happily dancing to myself and singing any songs which came on.
The nurses said they where gonna be changing my medication again as the medication I was on now was not doing anything.

Jack hasn't come out of the room since Christmas and that was 2 days ago.
I went over to the room singing away to myself.
"Hey Jack." I said and walked in and sat on his bed.
I didn't get a response which wasn't like Jack.
"Jack?" I said quietly and rolled him over and his arms where cut to shit.
"Shit Jack." I said and ran out the room.
I ran to the nurses office.
"Alex what's up?" A nurse and and walked over to me.
I grabbed her arm and dragged her to our room.
"Shit." She muttered and went to get the others.
They came back.
"Alex you need to go to the common room." The nurse said.
"No, I want to be here." I said feeling like I was about to cry.
I really liked Jack and I felt like I needed to be here and look after him.
"Alex you need to go and not be here." She said and pulled me away.
"No, Jack wake up." I said loudly as I was being pulled away.

"You need to stay here Alex." She said as I sat on the sofa.
"But.." I said but was stopped.
"No Alex, you stay here, we'll look after him okay but you have to stay here while we do what we have to do." She said quietly but firmly.
"Okay." I whispered and looked down.
"I'll come and tell you how he is when we've finished okay." She said and walked off.
"Is he going to be okay?" I asked and looked at her.
"At the moment we don't know. But I'm sure he will be so don't you worry okay." She smiled and carried on what she was doing.
I sat there and watched them.
Then people started to come back.

"Hey Alex." Kellin said as he walked in.
I ignored him and carried on watching the door of my room.
"Alex?" He said and stood next to me.
"What's going on?" He asked.
"Jack." I whispered as the nurses came out the room.
One came over too me.
"He'll be okay but he just needs rest at the moment." She smiled.
I smiled and walked over to my room and sat on my bed and watched him.
Kellin came in.
"He tired to kill himself?" He asked quietly and sat next to me.
I nodded.
"He's strong he'll be okay." He said and rested a hand on my shoulder.
"Hope so." I whispered.
"How was your Christmas then?" He asked.
"Same as normal. Part from Jack closing his shit and so did I." I said.
"Oh dear. But at least you weren't lonely like you have been." He said.
"That's true." I muttered.
"How was your Christmas?" I asked.
"It was good. Felt strange not seeing everyone's faces but they said that if I'm good and I don't have any turns and my meds are working I get to go home in a month." He said smiling.
"That's good then, at least you can go and enjoy everything again." I said quietly.
"Yeah." He said.

I didn't move from the room all day.
People came in and said hello but I told them to go away quickly.
Everyone who was meant to be back where back and it was getting dark.
I was lying down watching Jack.
He was still alive and he was on his side snoring softly.
I was told I had to stay out of his bed tonight and let him rest.
I was slowly falling asleep when a nurse came in.
"What?" I muttered.
"Just checking if you two are okay." She said quietly.
"Still alive but I'm barely breathing." I said quietly.
"Are they some of your lyrics?" She asked.
I nodded.
"Very good." She smiled and walked out.
I groaned and pulled the covers over my head and slowly feel asleep.

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