A Love Like War
All My Fault.
Jack
I dropped Zack back off at his house, and continued my search for my beloved Alex. I had no clue where I was going from here, the lake is Alex’s get away, and he was nowhere to be found there. I didn’t know where to look next, so I guess I’ll have to look all over Baltimore. Starting with the high school field.
I drove to the high school, stopping in the parking lot and getting out of my car, making my way over to the field. Some nights after our lacrosse games, Alex would come out here and sit in the middle of the field, just to think about life. I know this was a long shot, but it was worth the look right?
I got to the field and looked around, nothing. There is one thing I should have done right when I found out Alex was missing, and that was to try his cell phone. I pressed on his name in my contacts and pressed call, then putting the phone up to my ear.
The call went straight to voicemail. That’s never like Alex to have his phone off. Maybe his phone just died? Or maybe something really bad did happen to him. Oh gosh. I can’t handle these thoughts right now. What if the influence I put on with my suicide attempt made him want to try it out for himself? I couldn’t fucking live with myself if he ever died.
Him being going is all my fault; I never should have walked out of the house with Miracle, none of this would have happened if I didn’t. We could have just talked through everything that happened, not me overreacting and taking our child and leaving. I am the world’s worst boyfriend and Father ever. How the fuck could I do this to my family? What the hell is wrong with me?
I dropped Zack back off at his house, and continued my search for my beloved Alex. I had no clue where I was going from here, the lake is Alex’s get away, and he was nowhere to be found there. I didn’t know where to look next, so I guess I’ll have to look all over Baltimore. Starting with the high school field.
I drove to the high school, stopping in the parking lot and getting out of my car, making my way over to the field. Some nights after our lacrosse games, Alex would come out here and sit in the middle of the field, just to think about life. I know this was a long shot, but it was worth the look right?
I got to the field and looked around, nothing. There is one thing I should have done right when I found out Alex was missing, and that was to try his cell phone. I pressed on his name in my contacts and pressed call, then putting the phone up to my ear.
The call went straight to voicemail. That’s never like Alex to have his phone off. Maybe his phone just died? Or maybe something really bad did happen to him. Oh gosh. I can’t handle these thoughts right now. What if the influence I put on with my suicide attempt made him want to try it out for himself? I couldn’t fucking live with myself if he ever died.
Him being going is all my fault; I never should have walked out of the house with Miracle, none of this would have happened if I didn’t. We could have just talked through everything that happened, not me overreacting and taking our child and leaving. I am the world’s worst boyfriend and Father ever. How the fuck could I do this to my family? What the hell is wrong with me?
Notes
Yo guys. This will be the last chapter of tonight's chapter grind.
We will hit you up with some more tomorrow(later today?).
We both need some sleep.
I have class at 10:45am, and I'm sure Krys has some stuff to do as well.
Night everyone!
Yes, I am leaving you with a cliffhanger. BAM.
~Jagk.
Wow that story was amazing. It was so shocking.
5/19/16