Kyle's POV
"Kyle where you going?" Mum asked as I pulled my shoes on.
"Out, I'll be back before tea I promise." I said and went over to her and kissed the top of her head and walked out.

I went to the graveyard and looked for the gravestone.
I found it and sat down.
"See she hasn't been down here then." I said quietly and cleared it away.
"What you doing here? You haven't been here for ages Kyle." A voice said.
I looked up and saw someone who I haven't seen for ages.
"I know and I'm sorry Jen." I said and looked down.
"It's fine, I admit I haven't been here for a while. Explains why its untidy." She said and sat next to me.
"You look like you could do with one of these." She said and handed me a beer.
I took it and smiled.
"Hard to think she would of been 3, starting play group or whatever it's called, making friends." She said sadly.
I pulled her to my side.
"I know." I said quietly.
"We could of been a family Kyle, just us three away from all this bullshit." She said quietly and looked at me.
"I know and I let you both down and then I lost you both." I said quietly and downed my beer.
"You haven't lost me Kyle." Sjhe said and pulled away.
"It's better if you stay away from me Jen, I'm no good to you. You need someone better than me." I said and got up.
"Kyle.." She started but I just went of into the darkness.

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Jack's POV

"Jack, Alex food!" Mother shouted up the stairs.
Alex was asleep so i moved away from him and went downstairs
"Jack wheres Alex?" She asked.
"Asleep." I said.
"It's 6 in the evening how is he asleep?" She asked.
"Well tell a lie he fell asleep about 10 minutes ago so give it an hour and he should be up. Where's Kyle?" I said and looked round.
"I'm here, what's for tea?" He asked and sat down.
Something was up.
I kicked him.
"What the fuck do you want?" He growled and glared at me.
"I was going to ask if you was okay but I got my answer so I won't bother fucking talking to you." I snapped.
"Boys stop it now." Mum scolded.
"Sorry." We bother said and looked down.

I went upstairs and Alex was sat up with the guitar playing it.
"You missed tea." I said and sat down and lent against Kyles bed.
"Wasn't hungry." He said quietly.
"Get away from my bed." Kyle growled and grabbed my hair.
Alex got up and pushed him hard which made him fall on the floor.
"Don't take it out on him! He's not the child killer out of us. And if your in a foul mood because of that then you shouldn't ofnfucking down it." Alex growled.
"You fucking know Jackshit dagger." He snarled.
"Don't call me that Nigga oh wait your fucking not one because you fucking white!" Alex shouted.
Kyle went to punch him but Alex ducked and he hit me instead.
"The actual fuck Kyle! What the fucking hell has gotten into you!" I shouted and went over to him and punched him.
"What the fucking hell is going on here!?" Mum shouted but we ignored her.
"Your a fucking bastard you know that!" Kyle shouted and he stood up and looked at Alex.
"Me!? How the fuck am i the fucking bastard when it was you who was fucking clusmy and fucked a woman who had a kid? Because I was quite happy fucking Jack on your bed by the way so how the fuck am I the bastard please do explain that to me Kyle!?" He shouted.
"You did what!?" Dad said loudly and we all stopped.
"Um." Alex said quietly.
"It was my idea." I said.
"Bullshit!" Kyle said.
"I would fucking watch it if I was you because I can easily slip out what you did." Alex growled.
"You an arse basher Jack?" He asked.
Do I tell him or don't I?
Fuck it I'm already in a load of shit with him anyway.
"Yes I am and I have bashed loads of arses so has Kyle by the way because you know that's what us qeers do best as well as spreading diseases round the place as well." I said.
"You get out my house and you are not welcomed anymore." He said and pointed at Alex.
"What?" Alex asked shocked and confused.
"Get the fuck out of my house! I don't want to see that horrible face of yours again!" He shouted.
"Bassam don't be so stupid, its right in the middle of winter he'll freeze to death out there." Mum said.
"Dad don't be so bloody stupid." Kyle said.
"I want him out of my house." He said quietly and stormed out.
"Welp, looks like you got what you wanted Kyle." Alex said quietly and started to pick his stuff up and threw it in a bag.
"Alex stop." I said quietly trying not to cry.
"I have too, its for the best." He said and looked at me.
"Hey." He said quietly and walked over to me and pulled me into a hug.
"Don't cry." He said quietly.
"Don't go." I said and looked at him.
"It's for the best, until it all dies down here." He said and kissed my forehead and picked his stuff up.

"No!" I said loudly and snatched his bag put of his hand and threw across the room breaking something but I didn't care.
"Jack. Don't do nothing stupid." Alex said quietly and looked at me.
"I don't give a shit! You are not going! You'll freeze to fucking death out there!" I shouted at him.
"News flash Jack, I don't fucking care if I freeze to death! Because hardly anyone will miss me and that has already been proven! So its just better if I walk out of here and never return and get the fuck out of your lives because all I fucking do is bring shit everywhere I fucking go shit follows me. I am no good too you Jack, all I do is bring you down. I am a horrible person who does not deserve your family kindness. So I am going to get my stuff and walk out of here and you'll never see me again." He said and went over, picked his bag up.
I went over to him and tackled him to the ground and sat on him using my weight to pin him down to the ground.
"I would care if you froze to death, I would miss you like crazy. Shit doesn't follow you it never did." I said and looked at him.
I didn't know mum and Kyle had left until loads of shouting downstairs filled the house.
"You are good for me Alex, you don't bring me down, the only nway you can bring me down is if you walk out of my life. You're not horrible and you deserve this family kindness. You deserve it because you have had so much shit happens while you was living with them. We're your family now." I said quietly and kissed him which he returned.

"Knock knock." Mum said.
I got of Alex and looked at her.
"I've managed to persuade your father to let Alex stay. But one wrong move Alex and you are out, that's the best I could do." She smiled.
"Thanks mum." I smiled and got up and hugged her.
"It also means you have to keep your heads down about the whole gay thing. He still pissed off badly about it." She said quietly in my ear.
"Will do." I said quietly and kissed her cheek.
She pulled back and smiled.
"I'll leave you two be then." She said and walked off.
I walked over and sat on my bed.
Alex was lent against Kyles bed looking down thinking.
"Don't think so hard, your making my head hurt." I said.
Alex smiled and looked at me.
"Maybe its best if we're not what we are at the moment." He said quietly.
"You never said what we was." I said and moved and sat next to him.
"I don't have a clue." He said and rested his head on my shoulder.
"How about we stay how we are but we just keep it on the down low." I said and kissed the top of his head.
"I like that." He yawned.
"Go to bed if your tired." I said quietly.
"But your comfy." He muttered.
"How about if we lay down you go to sleep then?" I asked.
He nodded and we moved.

I was messing with Alex's hair when Kyle walked in.
"I'm sorry about the way I acted." He said quietly.
"It's fine I forgot that it would of been Gracie's birthday." I said.
He smiled a sad smile.
"I didn't want to kill that kid you know." He said quietly and sat on the floor leaning against his bed.
"I know. I'm sorry about what I said it was really harsh of me." I said and looked at Alex.
"Bet you didn't want to come out that way to the old man." Kyle chuckled.
"Not really but hey ho its in the open now, I'm in his bad books like normal so I guess there's nothing new there." I smiled.
"The joys hey Jacky." Kyle chuckled and got up and climbed into bed.
"And I still can't believe you two fucked in my bed." He said.
"Can always have the mattress if you want, its as clean as anything." I chuckled.
"Na, you and Alex can have the tatty mattress while I have the bed which has been fucked on." He said quietly slowly falling asleep.
"Gee thanks on that one Kyle." I said.
"Anytime Jacky." Kyle muttered and then started snoring quietly.
I stayed awake for most of the night but at about 4 in the morning I finally went to sleep.

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