Noughts and Crosses

Jacks POV

"Can you stay the night?" Alex asked.
I looked at him shocked at what he had just said.
"If you can't or don't want to I understand." He said quietly and looked down.
Course I wanted to stay but I couldn't because of Kyle.
I didn't care anymore.
"I'll stay just because you have no one here." I said.
He looked at me and smiled.
He got up and got hold of my hand and took me too his room.

I looked around the room while Alex asked if I wanted to watch a film.
I looked at him and he was just in his pants as he looked around for some shorts which he put on.
He threw a pair at me. I just looked at them confused.
"I can't wear your clothes." I said quietly.
I didn't deserve to wear his clothes. In his world I was dirty and a stank.
"I stile your jacket for 3 weeks. You can wear my clothes. I don't care". He said and sat in the middle of the bed.
I smiled and took my clothes off and pulled on the pair of shorts.
Alex had gotten into bed and I just stood there and looked.
I havent slept in a bed since I was little.
Alex got out of the bed and sat in the middle and reached for my hand and gently pulled me onto the bed.
" You can sleep in my bed." He whispered.
Why would he want a dirty Cross in his bed.
"Haven't slept in a bed for a long time." I said quietly feeling ashamed by this.
But Alex never judged me.
"Well now you can." He said with a smile.
I looked at him and smiled.
He moved and pulled me so I could get under the covers.
He put some film on.
Haven't watched a film since I was little.
I felt Alex move and rested his head on my shoulder.
He said something about me carrying on watching the film and find whatever I wanted by using this controller.

When the film was finished I looked at Alex who was asleep.
I moved him so he was led on the pillow and so I could lie down and watch another film.
I don't have a clue on what I was watching but Alex rolled over so he was facing me. I just watched him sleep instead of the film.
He had the duvet pulled up and using it as a pillow along with his hand.
His other hand was resting over the duvet.
He made himself as small as he could.
His hair was in his face so I reached over and moved it out his eyes.
He woke up straight away.
"Sorry didn't mean to wake you." I said quietly.
Alex just looked at me and moved closer to me.
"Don't touch me." He whispered and cuddled into my side.
"Sir yes Sir." I muttered.
Not long after that I fell asleep but it wasn't a deep sleep as I had to keep an listen out for his folks.

I was woken up by Alex moving around for the god knows how many times tonight.
"Don't you ever stay still?" I muttered and moved closer to him.
Alex just sighed deeply.
"No." He muttered.
I smiled and went back to sleep but it didn't last long when his mother started to shout up the stairs.
"Alexander get up!" She shouted.
I sat blot up right and flew out the bed got my clothes and hid under the bed.
"Fuck off woman." He said quietly.
"Don't come out until I say you can." Alex said.
Wasn't planning to.
She stormed into the room.
"Get up you lazy shit." She snapped.
"Fuck off." He whispered.
"Don't you even care your sister is in hospital." She said.
I heard him move.
"Yes I do fucking care. But I can't stand to be anywhere near you! After all you did kick me out of the hospital." He said sarcastically.
"Fuck you Alexander." She scoffed.
"Sadly if you did that it would be classed as inbreeding. Leave that to him." He said.
She was quiet for a while.
"Oh he doesn't know does he? He doesn't know does he. He doesn't know his wife is sleeping with someone else. And you say I'm a slut. Looks like I get it from you." He snarled.
This was new and we could use it against them.
I heard her slap him round the face.
I got my gun in my hand and waited.
"You make me sick." She snarled.
"Well join the club. I would say you could wear a jacket but sadly I've ran out of jackets." He said sarcastically.
She got up and slammed the door.
"Fucking bitch you fucking get out my fucking life." He muttered loudly.
He got off the bed and looked under the bed.
"Well you can put that away." He smiled.
I stuffed it back in my trousers pocket.
"Does this mean I can come out from under the bed?" I asked.
"Yeah she's gone." He said and I rolled out from under the bed.

We was sat on the bed Alex was smoking and writing something in this notebook.
"Was what you said true?" I asked.
"Yep." Alex said.
"I know what your thinking and yes I'm going to use it against her. But I need to think it through and plan through it." He said.
Well that was that plan out the window but I knew Alex meant what he said.
He didn't say anything else but was muttering to himself.
I got hold of his guitar and quietly started to play.
Alex stopped and looked at me.
"Yeah?" I asked.
Alex shook his head.
"What is it?" I asked and put the guitar down.
"Nothing." He said quietly.
"Alex don't bullshit me. I know something is wrong." I said and looked at him.
He was looking down.
I moved forward so I was sat right in front of him.
I put a finger under his chin and made him looked at me.
"What's wrong?" I asked quietly.
He pulled his head away from me.
"Why would you care? If I said what was up you'll only use it against me. Like everyone else." He said quietly and looked away from me.
That hurt but I could see where he was coming from as if I was in his shoes I wouldn't trust me either.
"I care because your my friend. I won't use it against you." He said.
He scoffed. "I know you are. But the information I know and that you will use it against me. Don't say you won't because you will, its in your nature of training to say any information which could bring him down." He said.
He had a point.
"Okay you have that point. But just know that any information you have told me I haven't told them. I would rather lose their trust than yours." I said.
He looked at me and smiled.
"Knew you weren't like them. Still a softie." He chuckled.
"Only for you." I muttered and looked down.
I felt Alex move a little and felt him put his finger under my chin.
I looked at him and he looked deep into my eyes.
He lent forward and brushed his lips against mine.
"We can't.." I muttered.
"I know." He whispered.
I thought about it.
"Fuck it." I muttered and kissed him harder which he returned.

I pulled back and looked at him.
"Now I remember why your lips where my favorite ones to kiss." He said quietly.
I blushed and looked down.
"Has Jacky gone all shy?" He whispered.
I nodded.
"Knew that shy boy was still there, just had to find the right thing to bring it out of you." He chuckled.
I thought the shyness had gone from me but I guess Alex could make me shy.
"Only you can do that." I muttered.
"I'm guessing theres loads of things I can do which can make you shy." He whispered in my ear and gently bit it.
I moved my head so he could get to my neck better.
He moved to my neck and made sure he left a mark.
He moved back and looked at me.
"Right I have a deal." Alex said.
"Which is?" I asked.
"Friends with benefits. Because I know you want me like I want you." He said seriously.
"Alex.." I said and looked at him.
"Look you may lie but your body doesn't. I know you want to fuck me Jack." He said and put his hand on my crotch.
I wanted to disagree with this but I couldn't.
"Deal." I said and kissed him hard.
"Could literally fuck you right now but you have to go otherwise your brother will be looking for you." Alex said.
I got of the bed and got dressed.
"Not a word to anyone." He said.
"Well how the fuck am I gonna explain this?" I asked and showed him the hickie.
"Tell him you fucked some girl." He said.
"Would do if he didn't know I was gay but since he does I can't say that." I said.
"Well tell him you fucked some guy. I dunno." He said and rolled a cigarette.
I just glared at him.
"You better get going mother will be back and Kyle will be waiting to fuck your arse." He said.
"Oh, you need to be at the meeting place tomorrow night." I said.
"I'll be there." Alex said and I left.

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