Double Take.
Chapter Eight.
Alex
“What the fuck is going on here?” I heard the voice of my best friend say as he entered the apartment. I quickly got off Jack’s lap and made a fast dash for him. He brought me into his arms and just held me tightly. “Alex, what’s going on?”
“Andy’s a asshole.” I spoke into his chest.
“Well no shit.” He said with a light chuckle, trying to lighten the mood. “But why were you in Jack’s lap?”
“He was trying to get me to calm down. It was some-what working, but not very well.” Speaking through my tears. I felt as Rian rubbed my back, and held me close to him as I slowly calmed down and was no longer crying. He rubbed me out of his embrace and put his hands on my shoulders.
“Better?”
“Yes. Thank you.” I said quickly. I turned around and saw Jack sitting on the couch awkwardly. “Thank you as well, Jack.”
“It’s no problem at all, Alex.” He said with a small smile.
“Well, uh, Rian you remember Jack. Jack, you remember Rian.” I spoke becoming a little awkward myself. Jack stood up from the couch and walked over to us, and offered his hand to Rian, which he took and they shook hands.
“It’s nice to see you again, Rian.” Jack said smiling.
“It’s good to see you, too.” Rian spoke. They retreated their hands to their own sides and he looked over to me. “Did you get your stuff from the assholes house?”
“Yeah. Jack took me there about an hour ago. Andy wasn’t the one who opened the door.” I trailed off at the end.
“Who was?”
“Juliet.” I said as I wiped a tear that I felt trailing down my cheek. I felt a hand being placed on the small of my back and looked over and saw it was Jack, and he was giving me a concerned look. Asking with his eyes if I was okay. “I’m fine.” I said faking a smile.
“Okay, I’m going over to his house and kicking his ass.” Rian said as he turned around and opened the door. He stormed out of the apartment and down the hall, with me right on his heels.
“Rian, please stop! No! Please!” I said as I grabbed onto his arm and tried to pull him back to Jack’s apartment. He was so strong he was basically dragging me down the hallway. “Please Rian!” He stopped in his tracks and looked at me, more like glared at me.
“Give me one fucking reason why I shouldn’t go murder him?” He said shaking my hands of his arm and crossing them over his chest.”
“Because you will go to jail?”
“Not good enough.” He turned back around and started off again.
“Dammit Rian! I still fucking love him!” I shouted. He stopped again and looked back at me, visibly calming down when he saw tears in my eyes. He walked back to me and put his arms around me again, as he held me close to him.
“Uh, sorry to break up the little best friend moment, but, do you guys maybe wanna go back inside?” Jack asked slowly, as he stood behind us. I removed myself from Rian’s grip and nodded my head. I walked back to the apartment room with Jack on my right side, and Rian on my left. When we got back in there we shut the door and all just went over to the couch. I ended up sitting in the middle of both of them. “So, anyone want anything to drink? Maybe something to eat?”
“I’m fine. Thanks for the offer though.” Rian said kindly, even though I knew he still hated Jack. But he also wanted to be nice to him because of him letting me stay here.
“Lex?” Jack asked, quickly correcting himself. “Shit, sorry. Ment to say Alex.”
“It’s fine. And no thank you.” I said quietly.
After about ten minutes of awkwardly sitting there in silence, Jack and Rian finally brought up a conversation and were now talking about it while I was zoned out, thinking about my life. How could Andy do this to me? Why wasn’t I good enough for him? Why was Jack kind enough to let me stay with him? He most likely just offered out of pity. Was Andy being honest when he said Juliet was better than me? So many questions I will most likely never get the answers to.
At some point in time, I shifted so my legs were over Jack, and my head was in Rian’s lap. I hope they didn’t mind, I just don’t feel like getting up right now. I had my eyes closed for about fifteen minutes, trying my best to sleep. I take it as Rian and Jack both thinking I’m already asleep, as they quieted their voice down. My mind drifted to Jack for some reason, most likely because we are in the same room. My mind started thinking about all the good times together. But none of that mattered anymore, I wasn’t in love with him anymore. I don’t think I could ever love anyone anymore. Andy broke my heart too much for that. My thoughts were interrupted by Jack’s voice.
“Rian, what do you do when you try to tell yourself you're not in love with your ex. But in all reality, you really are?” He spoke, sounding really sad all of a sudden. Wait, Jack has had many one-night-stands. Like, hundreds. But he told me earlier today before we went to get my stuff, that I was his only relationship. My head shot up and I looked Jack dead in the eye.
“What did you just say?” I asked quietly.
“What the fuck is going on here?” I heard the voice of my best friend say as he entered the apartment. I quickly got off Jack’s lap and made a fast dash for him. He brought me into his arms and just held me tightly. “Alex, what’s going on?”
“Andy’s a asshole.” I spoke into his chest.
“Well no shit.” He said with a light chuckle, trying to lighten the mood. “But why were you in Jack’s lap?”
“He was trying to get me to calm down. It was some-what working, but not very well.” Speaking through my tears. I felt as Rian rubbed my back, and held me close to him as I slowly calmed down and was no longer crying. He rubbed me out of his embrace and put his hands on my shoulders.
“Better?”
“Yes. Thank you.” I said quickly. I turned around and saw Jack sitting on the couch awkwardly. “Thank you as well, Jack.”
“It’s no problem at all, Alex.” He said with a small smile.
“Well, uh, Rian you remember Jack. Jack, you remember Rian.” I spoke becoming a little awkward myself. Jack stood up from the couch and walked over to us, and offered his hand to Rian, which he took and they shook hands.
“It’s nice to see you again, Rian.” Jack said smiling.
“It’s good to see you, too.” Rian spoke. They retreated their hands to their own sides and he looked over to me. “Did you get your stuff from the assholes house?”
“Yeah. Jack took me there about an hour ago. Andy wasn’t the one who opened the door.” I trailed off at the end.
“Who was?”
“Juliet.” I said as I wiped a tear that I felt trailing down my cheek. I felt a hand being placed on the small of my back and looked over and saw it was Jack, and he was giving me a concerned look. Asking with his eyes if I was okay. “I’m fine.” I said faking a smile.
“Okay, I’m going over to his house and kicking his ass.” Rian said as he turned around and opened the door. He stormed out of the apartment and down the hall, with me right on his heels.
“Rian, please stop! No! Please!” I said as I grabbed onto his arm and tried to pull him back to Jack’s apartment. He was so strong he was basically dragging me down the hallway. “Please Rian!” He stopped in his tracks and looked at me, more like glared at me.
“Give me one fucking reason why I shouldn’t go murder him?” He said shaking my hands of his arm and crossing them over his chest.”
“Because you will go to jail?”
“Not good enough.” He turned back around and started off again.
“Dammit Rian! I still fucking love him!” I shouted. He stopped again and looked back at me, visibly calming down when he saw tears in my eyes. He walked back to me and put his arms around me again, as he held me close to him.
“Uh, sorry to break up the little best friend moment, but, do you guys maybe wanna go back inside?” Jack asked slowly, as he stood behind us. I removed myself from Rian’s grip and nodded my head. I walked back to the apartment room with Jack on my right side, and Rian on my left. When we got back in there we shut the door and all just went over to the couch. I ended up sitting in the middle of both of them. “So, anyone want anything to drink? Maybe something to eat?”
“I’m fine. Thanks for the offer though.” Rian said kindly, even though I knew he still hated Jack. But he also wanted to be nice to him because of him letting me stay here.
“Lex?” Jack asked, quickly correcting himself. “Shit, sorry. Ment to say Alex.”
“It’s fine. And no thank you.” I said quietly.
After about ten minutes of awkwardly sitting there in silence, Jack and Rian finally brought up a conversation and were now talking about it while I was zoned out, thinking about my life. How could Andy do this to me? Why wasn’t I good enough for him? Why was Jack kind enough to let me stay with him? He most likely just offered out of pity. Was Andy being honest when he said Juliet was better than me? So many questions I will most likely never get the answers to.
At some point in time, I shifted so my legs were over Jack, and my head was in Rian’s lap. I hope they didn’t mind, I just don’t feel like getting up right now. I had my eyes closed for about fifteen minutes, trying my best to sleep. I take it as Rian and Jack both thinking I’m already asleep, as they quieted their voice down. My mind drifted to Jack for some reason, most likely because we are in the same room. My mind started thinking about all the good times together. But none of that mattered anymore, I wasn’t in love with him anymore. I don’t think I could ever love anyone anymore. Andy broke my heart too much for that. My thoughts were interrupted by Jack’s voice.
“Rian, what do you do when you try to tell yourself you're not in love with your ex. But in all reality, you really are?” He spoke, sounding really sad all of a sudden. Wait, Jack has had many one-night-stands. Like, hundreds. But he told me earlier today before we went to get my stuff, that I was his only relationship. My head shot up and I looked Jack dead in the eye.
“What did you just say?” I asked quietly.
Notes
A shorter chapter.
But Ooo! Jacky!
~Jagk
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
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